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On the afternoon of 20 13, after eating the last meal this year, the whole family began to prepare the first meal next year, including jiaozi. This time is usually the most relaxing time, but my mother suddenly said to me worriedly, "You will be thirty-six after the new year, and it is hard to predict the good or bad of a year." We will all go to the temple to worship, strive for a furnace of incense and get a lucky year! " . I don't think so. "Who still believes this now? Very common. Just pay more attention and be careful. " Mother got angry at once. "You know nothing about this baby. Thirty-six years old is a hurdle in a person's life, and many people can't get through it! " Looking at mother's serious appearance, everyone's face suddenly changed. The wife looked at the depressing atmosphere and said, "Then listen to your mother, respect God, and at least try to feel at ease."
The family talked and laughed, set up mahjong and watched the Spring Festival Gala while playing. Mother looks at her watch from time to time. At 23 o'clock, she immediately stood up and said, "It's almost time, hurry up." So everyone immediately packed their bags and waited for my mother to get incense and firecrackers. For 36-year-old me, on the last night of this year, I went to our most famous and faithful Niangniang Temple to worship God.
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As a 36-year-old, I usually hear a lot of odds and ends. In short, they all mean bad luck, a dangerous life and many disasters in Eritrea. You must do some homework, so that you can avoid disaster and get good luck. In fact, if no one mentions it, many people will not care about the curse of 36, but some people say that with many mysterious elements and colors, they will inevitably feel uneasy, and they will be awed by the doomed luck, and naturally they will be awed by 36. Of course, it is ridiculous to attribute this phenomenon to a certain religion, because strictly speaking, China is neither a Buddhist country nor a Taoist society, and there are no ideologies of Islam, Christianity and Orthodox Christianity. It is said that China people believe in all religions in their ideology, but it is not similar to the religious beliefs of the whole people in western countries. So, they believe everything, but they don't believe anything. Generally speaking, China people only believe in mysterious cultures, such as Buddhism and Taoism, ghosts and gods, geomantic gossip, Taoism and evil spirits. From the "dragon son of the emperor" to the "destiny" of ordinary people, under the inheritance of mysticism for thousands of years, people have a profound understanding of life, fate, good or bad luck, longevity and fate. Among them, 36 years old is a mysterious symbol. With the great prosperity of people's material life, the fate of 36-year-old has attracted more and more attention, full of unpredictable and mysterious fate. It seems that some students planned my 36th birthday for me in advance, which is the reason.
But I always pay little attention to these things. "Life is in my hands, but fate depends on hard work." Life is wonderful, not by luck in the dark, but by my constant struggle to interpret the valuable meaning of short life. People attach so much importance to thirty-six, because in my opinion, it is not a pity that a person can live to thirty-six, at least in terms of the time he stays in this world. "Life is seventy years old", and thirty-six plans are the first half of life. People often say "enough is enough", but how long will it take to live? In ancient times, the year of thirty-six was commonly known as "staying in Hu" or "running for a long life", which meant that people lived to this age and basically lived their own lives. Because the material life in ancient times could not maintain people's high average life expectancy, it is not a pity to live past 36 years old. Since then, the satisfaction of life has been greatly exhibited. From this point of view, I have "lived enough" now, which is really a great pleasure in life! However, as for whether there are any years to show off, whether you can enjoy the prosperity of Fulu safely and smoothly depends on your mother's prayer of "fearing God".
In fact, the number thirty-six is really a very important number in the Book of Changes, which has extremely rich special significance and carries the mysterious information contained in a person, a world and a reincarnation. Involving us ordinary people and evolving into a 36-year-old life naturally has mysterious power and dominates our life and death disasters. Therefore, there is a saying among the people that "everyone has a 36-year-old, which is either a curse or a blessing". As for whether it is a blessing or a curse, it depends on personal nature.
It seems that my mother's behavior and the celebration of classmates and friends are really good for me!
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Let's not think about fate. In a blink of an eye, winter has gone and spring has come. Calm down and take stock of the year of 36, and dribs and drabs emerge in front of us. Recalling that experience, I felt deeply, with sighs, sighs, chagrin, depression, depression, irritability and so on. All failures and setbacks are concentrated in this year, rushing to the original unsatisfactory fate again and again. I think I really answered the legendary "sad hurdle".
This year, my work has been frustrated repeatedly, or hindered by personnel, or in vain, running up and down, walking left and right, still in vain, looking at the sword of time with one knife and one sword left, showing vicissitudes of life, scars and indignation. Ordinary life is either an accident or a sudden change, and once sincere feelings are blown away by the wind and rain; Former friends, alienated and indifferent, stood in the countryside at dusk, and in the lonely figure at dusk, they could only secretly hate the paradise in the west. In the loneliness that no one can understand, they can only try their best to hide their physical and mental exhaustion and embarrassment. At the age of 36, a man's dream should be a time of flying freely, exultation and high spirits, but for me, it is a difficult road of melancholy and asceticism. Returning home at the end of the year, standing in the wilderness of my hometown, 36 years old, all sighing!
In fact, in the final analysis, many setbacks are just stage fright of the psychological crisis in which the 36-plan is the best policy. I believe in some karma, but since I was a child, I have believed in the truth that "you have to eat hard to be a man", and my stubborn character, not giving up easily, will not make me believe in fate and go to extremes. I am a conservative thinking about the society, the elders and the inherent traditional rules. I feel inferior and weak, and I can't form a strong forward force. I often can't find a way to break through myself in shame. But I'm cynical. I often have rebellious passion in my bones. I am always impulsive and adventurous in my behavior, and even have a sense of pride in pursuing subversion and destruction. My deviant eyes always peep at the bottom of my heart. All this finally happened in the middle of my 36-year-old life track. I got sick because of a series of setbacks-either cynical or disheartened, always using it. " Thirty-six years old made me more aware of my psychological defects.
However, no matter how depressed an individual is, the world and life are always beautiful. Sitting behind the memories and watching the flowing clouds, the frustration of 36 years old is only a temporary obstacle. How can it be? When they encounter difficulties, there are still many people who enthusiastically help themselves, and many people give themselves warm comfort and encouraging confidence. When I was depressed, how many people kept telling me to rekindle my hope, restore my confidence and make persistent efforts. My relatives and friends didn't abandon me. With the support of spirit, I survived the age of 36 in stumbling.
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Thirty-six years old is only one year, but only 365 days. Spring goes, spring comes, flowers bloom, winter goes and spring comes again. I'm still here. Life is thirty-six years old, and the lush years have passed with the passing of the white clouds and pale dogs. Honest, simple, kind and dreamy heart, diary full of secrets, the throb of infinite reverie of youth and the beautiful melody of life are gradually leaving us. This is a record of time, but also an account book honed by years. We have devoted our youth, made efforts and sweat, and paid the childlike innocence. Now, it's time to let go of everything.
A person's fate, as long as you believe in yourself, will not be easily defeated. No matter what kind of situation, I always encourage myself secretly, because I persist in my belief in life. There is no insurmountable hurdle, no eternal night, just the occasional stirring waves in the long river of life. I hope in tomorrow's journey!
Thirty-six years old, has gone through the first half of my life, and no longer wants to stay and remember; The next 36-year-old, live every day without regrets, this life is enough!
Looking back on the footprints of the past 35 years, there are joys, pains, helplessness, giving up, and even stumbling and stumbling. But anyway, at the age of 36, I went to myself mercilessly.
Sacrifice at the age of 36, summing up the first half of life; Sacrifice at the age of 36, looking forward to the rest of my life. ......