When I came home from school and hurried through that pile of homework and exercises, I was already very tired and weak. I was just about to sit down and have a rest. Mother's voice came from the room again, "children, it's time to do the Olympic Games" and "children, it's time to listen to English". The Olympics is like a mountain that weighs on us, making us breathless. I'm tired, really tired. ...
On the weekend, there are all kinds of courses waiting for us: English class, Olympic math class, piano class, calligraphy class ... The originally happy and relaxed weekend was packed. When did our parents ask for our advice and consider our ideas? Just by saying, "You can be a gentleman only after suffering", let's work hard. We have no time at our disposal and no free space. As the saying goes, "a relaxation is the way of civil and military affairs." When Lu Xun was a child, didn't he often go to the Herb Garden with his friends to herd cattle, catch shrimps and catch crickets? And we ... alas!
Haven't you often talked about reducing the burden recently? But the schoolbag is still so heavy and there is still so much homework. Alas! Reduce the burden. When will the burden be calculated?
At night, lying in bed, I was thinking about a question, a very difficult question: I don't know when we lost our freedom. ...
When I was running around campus with a pile of books, I was not only tired, but also slightly satisfied, satisfied with the enrichment brought by busyness, and satisfied with being able to escape from the chaos of society with peace of mind on campus!
I wasted three-quarters of my college time when I realized that I was too young to stand in society. I asked myself what I had learned at school, and my mind was full of calculus, impractical circuit diagrams and outdated and useless English conversations.
The campus is covered with colorful flags and slogans. It turned out to be a job fair for seniors. Suddenly, I felt a chill. Today next year, I will shuttle through various job fairs and go to various companies to seek my unknown position. It turns out that my days of peace of mind are numbered, and there are still many things to do. It turns out that it is too late to charge yourself.
Time is always so ruthless, it will always disappear without a trace in a casual moment, and when you suddenly realize it, it may be too late. I should be glad that it's not too late for me to realize that the death penalty is not over yet. However, even if I have realized it, what can I do to make up for it? Sitting in front of the computer, I just feel my mind is blank! When you are used to wasting time and suddenly find that time is running out, you will always have a sense of fear, regret and confusion!
In fact, I have been avoiding the society that I will step into sooner or later. I heard too much negative news about it, imagined too much inner complexity, and my fear of it deepened. I have always been attached to the pure world of the school. Although I have gradually socialized, I can still be handy here and still hold up my own sky here. Well, I have been on campus for more than ten years. Perhaps, it is not that the society is too complicated, but that I am too familiar with and attached to the campus!
When friends talk about graduation, they always say with envy that I can speak, write and debate, and of course I don't have to worry about going out. Perhaps, in their eyes, I am really a leader. I always get a first-class scholarship every academic year. I always represent the debate in my class, and I can live up to expectations in the speech contest. I also taught myself Japanese and passed the National Computer Rank Examination. All this seems so beautiful to me, but I still feel a panic in my heart, because only I know that my only skills are simply not enough to support my world on the battlefield where the strong survive and the weak retreat in society, and to realize my wishful thinking.
For a long time, I didn't want to fall behind others, but when I failed in the college entrance examination and was admitted to this ordinary undergraduate college, I finally gave up the idea of repeating my studies, because I didn't want to waste another year, because I believed that even in an unsatisfactory environment, I could become a strong person and I wouldn't fall behind others. In the eyes of my classmates, I am so happy, so beautiful and so energetic. It seems that I have no worries and fatigue. It seems that everything is under my control. Listen to my arrangement. Only you know that all this is the result of your own efforts. No one is born with God's love! Facing the pile of integral operation, analyze the circuit diagram to keep the first prize; Only by memorizing that string of English words and reading long English like that book can you get high marks in CET-4 and CET-6. When I have to learn Japanese and computer grade exam by myself after class to recharge my batteries, there is still unknown fatigue behind my energy. But it is this tiredness that brings me enrichment, joy of achievement and a heartfelt smile on my face.
Perhaps I am used to the narrow battlefield on campus and the status of the winner on campus, so when I suddenly find myself about to leave everything behind and start over, I will find myself so insignificant. There is a voice calling from the bottom of my heart: instead of wandering in the same place, it is better to put away your troubled heart, seize every minute to fill your loopholes and ignorance, and no longer regret and be at a loss! So, write down this fragmentary sentence and work hard for the next second!
Growing up, I always dreamed that I was walking alone on the mountain road. Along the road, the trees are shaded, the sun is shining, the birds are singing tactfully, the mountain breeze is Xu Lai, and my heart is dancing.
I went to a mountain city to see my friends the day before yesterday, so I had leisure, rode my bike and traveled alone in the small town. I wanted to explore the customs of the bustling area, but under the guidance of passers-by, I strayed into the mountains. The early autumn wind gently brushed my cheek, my long hair fluttered freely in the autumn wind, the trees beside the road were fresh and lush, my heart was jumping, and the wheels at my feet turned sharply. Occasionally, one or two passers-by look askance. The slope is steeper, the forest is denser, the air is fresher, but my feet are getting tired. So I pushed the cart. "tweet, tweet, tweet", there are birds singing in my ears, and my noisy heart smells like heaven. Xu Lai mountain breeze, fine sweat from the forehead into a cool. I was so happy that I couldn't help singing: "I am a fox who has been practicing for thousands of years, and I have been lonely for thousands of years." Such a fairyland makes me rather lonely, so Yue Xian makes me dance ecstatically. "At this point, Song abandoned the road and danced alone. The mountain wind is like a song, the mountain scenery is picturesque, and the clumsy posture is also in the painting.
After the dance, people are very tired, but their hearts are surging. If we can build a hut in this mountain, we can smell birds singing in the morning exercise, sing in the sunset at dusk, have a breeze in Xulai, have a lover by our side and have a long scroll in our hands under the shade. It's a fairyland on earth At the thought of this, I got up and looked around. The sun is still early and there is no one on the road. I am the only one in the whole mountain road. Although it is autumn, the trees on the roadside are green and the yellow grass adds maturity and charm. This situation suddenly feels so familiar and strange. Familiarity is like an old acquaintance for many years, and novelty is like a new love.
Yes, once upon a time, in my dream, I have been to such a place countless times and experienced such a state of mind countless times. How happy and melancholy I am when I wake up from my dream. Although the secular is frequent, but the heart is dirty, you can hate the noise of secular dust, hate secular disputes, love mountains and rivers, and love simple nature. Even though I don't know it sometimes, it is a long-hidden desire in my heart. Therefore, it often dreams.
Our dream may be a prediction of the future, a hint of the future, but in fact it is more likely to be our deepest desire. It leads us to approach, calls us to touch, and even inspires us to realize it invisibly. We can escape from a person, an event, a relationship, but no matter where we go, we can't escape from the inner call.