This poem was written in 1989 65438+ 10/3, just over two months before the poet committed suicide on the railway track in March of the same year. The author belongs to the "generation" of "the night gave me black eyes, but I used them to look for light", and personally experienced the social transformation process from suffocating material desires in the 1960 s and 1970 s to abandoning spirit and material desires in the late 1980 s Facing the reality, the idealist author is confused and disillusioned, and feels that he can't "live poetically in the world". Compared with others who blindly indulge in the enjoyment of material life, he feels more pain from inner division and contradiction. This poem is the crystallization of his painful life experience.
The creative opportunity of this poem may also contain the elements of "love poem", and The Sea may also have specific references. Before his death, Haizi kept a friendly correspondence with his first love girlfriend who had broken up and moved to Shenzhen and was planning to emigrate overseas. Based on this, this "sea" image should be related to Shenzhen's imagination at the seaside or the first love girlfriend on the other side of the Pacific Ocean.