Besides joy, as a novice or a small white, I also have the same confusion and anxiety. Although I have obtained the initial approval or qualification of Huang V's platform, I have fallen into a daze.
Actually, I didn't think about it, and I didn't intend to. Time can be squeezed out in your own plan, but what should you do in the future and where is the real source of persistence?
If you don't have the right answer, just relax and stroll around on WeChat.
I suddenly saw the "spiritual dialogue" of my colleague Xiao Fei's circle of friends on WeChat, and recalled his mental mileage of insisting on writing at work for many years.
When I think of Xiao Fei, we used to be in the same unit. For a time, we were so familiar with each other that we talked about everything. At that time, his writing was still immature, and he loved reading, writing poems and novels after work. We also talked about writing together.
However, now he has published five collections, 1 novels and 65438 novellas, and has become a famous local writer.
Out of inner admiration and curiosity, I read his memories and summaries again, recalled his related contacts, and was inspired by his experiences and thoughts.
I met Xiao Fei in the 1990s. At that time, Xiao Fei was just a fan. He can write some articles. It is common for him to write articles and publish them in newspapers and magazines. He works during the day and reads books in his spare time. He always sticks to himself.
At that time, I lived in the dormitory of my work unit, even if sometimes others influenced me, or my reading and writing influenced others, or even offended others, I persisted regardless.
I am not afraid of being laughed at or laughed at by others, and I have developed my interest to the extreme after work.
Meet occasionally, talk about reading, and talk about the plots of some famous books. We may want to experience the literary style, but Xiao Fei really takes it as his career.
I wrote a piece of tofu to complete the task, but Xiao Fei took it as his own work.
A few years later, Xiao Fei's works came out, but I have forgotten what I wrote, and my interest has gradually lost.
When I chatted with Xiao Fei again, it was also because of my working relationship that I helped to sell Xiao Fei's works.
Of course, the collection of works is not well-known, its sales are not very smooth, and it didn't bring much income to Xiao Fei, but it further stimulated Xiao Fei's enthusiasm in writing. At that time, I was already impressed by Xiao Fei.
At the beginning of this century, Xiao Fei has completed three collections of works. When we look back on the past, he himself realized the necessity of self-transcendence, breakthrough and fresh start.
I remember that Xiao Fei and I had less and less contact at that time, so we just exchanged a few pleasantries when we met, and we didn't have time to talk more.
Because he has become a minor celebrity in the unit, he is often seen rushing by, writing various manuscripts for the unit and participating in organizing various activities, either helping in the office, trade union and youth league Committee of the unit or helping in the company.
Working hours no longer allow him to think and study, so he has to try to buy time.
The quality and efficiency of work must be improved, and Xiao Fei's busyness and haste can be seen from his face and footsteps.
As can be seen from his memory, reading became the main part of his life at that time. For his own creation, he took off again. When he was studying hard, thinking hard, and even dreaming in meditation and fantasy, how many nights did he have to wander and suffer?
I have my wife's concern, my mother's worry, my depression and irritability, and I can't stand the nameless fire on my family. I have gratitude, gratitude and a little regret in my memory.
I can't imagine what kind of thinking and breakthrough he experienced, but Xiao Fei started his own creation again and finished 1 novels and novellas out of control. The process we are talking about now should be a sweet and unforgettable journey.
Xiao Fei put thinking and the meaning of life together, and promoted the height of thought and the width of life with literature. He realized himself in time and got the gift of years.
During this period, Xiao Fei also participated in our systematic symposium on literature and art and training courses for young writers, met some writers who were active in the literary world, infected some of their temperament, and further improved his ideological realm by persisting in constant communication with these people.
The same creator, the same dream, the person who runs ahead must be thinking above himself.
Xiao Fei and these people, some became friends, some became their own teachers, and exchanged topics from life to creation, from daily customs to ideological understanding. Generally speaking, it is better to have someone leading the way in front than to feel in the dark. When you have ideas and inspirations, take the time to write them down, and you must write them down when you have time at night.
If you have no ideas, you can talk to your friends and teachers. You may not find a way out, but you can enrich the topic.
With the promotion and encouragement of many friends, Xiao Fei walked out of the quagmire of thoughts, recorded the traces of thoughts in words under the inner call, and also gained the happiness of life.
I wrote this passage to encourage myself again and inspire myself with the awesome people around me.
If you can't be a giant who leads others' thoughts, learn to be the master of your own thoughts and solve your own problems with the pace of others.