Wang Anshi
Ann Shi Qi: Thank you for your suggestion yesterday. Personally, I think we have maintained good contact with Shi Jun for a long time, but when discussing political affairs, we often have differences (because our political views are different in many ways). Although I want to give you a few hard words, after all, I'm sure (yes) I won't be considered by (you) (my opinion), so (I) simply wrote back to you and stopped defending myself. I also think that you really value me, and you shouldn't be careless in your correspondence, so now I will tell you the reasons why I did it in detail, and I hope you can forgive me.
A problem debated by learned scholars, with special emphasis on name and substance (consistency). If the relationship between name and reality is clarified, then the truth of the world will be mastered. What you want to teach me now is that I have encroached on the authority of officials, created troubles, competed for people's wealth and interests, and refused to accept different opinions, thus causing resentment and slander all over the world. However, I think that accepting the emperor's orders, negotiating laws and regulations, modifying (deciding) in the court, and handing them over to officials with special responsibilities (to implement) cannot be regarded as usurping official power; Carrying out the policy of an ancient wise monarch, using it to set up a cause beneficial to the world and eliminate (various) ills, (this) can not be regarded as trouble; Rectifying finance to govern the world (this) cannot be regarded as (competing with the people for profit); Attacking incorrect remarks and refuting eloquent bad guys is not refusing to accept (others') suggestions. As for so much resentment and slander, that's what I expected.
This is not the day people are used to muddling along and muddling along. Most scholar-officials regard fawning on others regardless of state affairs as a good thing, so the emperor wants to change this (bad) atmosphere, so I don't want to estimate the number of opponents, and I want to help the emperor resist this force with my own strength. Then why don't those people make a fuss (for me)? When Pan Geng moved the capital, even the common people complained, and (and) it was not only the court's literati who opposed it. Pan Geng won't change his plan because someone hates him; (This is him) considering that (moving the capital) is reasonable, and then acting resolutely; I don't think there is anything to regret. If you really blame me because (I) has been in office for a long time and failed to help the emperor do great things and benefit these people, then I admit that (I) is guilty; If we should do nothing and stick to the rules now, I dare not learn.
There is no reason to meet (with you), I really admire it.
Translation of a wife's book
I love my wife because I saw her: now I use this letter to say goodbye to you forever! When writing this letter, I am still alone in this world; By the time you read this letter, I have become a ghost of the underworld. When writing this letter, tears fell with pen and ink. I want to put down my pen when I can't finish writing the letter, and I'm afraid that you won't observe my mind and say that I have the heart to abandon you to die, and I'm afraid that I don't know that you don't want me to die, so I said these words to you regardless of my grief.
I love you very much, and it is the thought of loving you that makes me die bravely. Since I met you, I have always hoped that all lovers in the world will be well. However, there are blood clouds everywhere, and the streets are full of fierce wolves and dogs. How many can be satisfied? Jiangzhou Sima sympathized with the Pipa girl's experience and shed tears. I can't learn from the sage with high ideological level and forget my feelings. As the old saying goes, caring people "respect their old people, so as to promote them to respect other people's old people and love their children, so as to promote them to love other people's children". I expand my love for you and help people all over the world to love their loved ones, so I dare to die before you and ignore you. You can understand how I feel. After crying, you also regard the people in the world as the people you miss. You should also be willing to sacrifice my life and your welfare and seek permanent happiness for the people of the world. Don't be sad!
Do you remember? One night four or five years ago, I once said to you, "I would rather let you die first than let me die first." You are very angry when you hear this. Later, after my euphemistic explanation, although you didn't say that I was right, you had nothing to answer. I mean, with your thin body, you can't bear the grief of losing me. I'll die first, leaving the pain to you. I can't bear it in my heart. I'd rather you die first and let me bear the grief. Alas! Who knew I would die before you? I really can't forget you! Recall our home in backstreet, enter the gate, cross the corridor, pass the front hall and back hall, and turn three or four corners. There is a small hall and a room next to it, where you and I live together. Just married for three or four months, just before and after the fifteenth day of the winter month, the sparse plum branches outside the window covered the shadow of the moon; Ok, I'll hold hands with you, keep your voice down and say nothing. What feelings are not to talk about? Up to now, I recall the scene at that time, leaving only tears. I also recall that six or seven years ago, when I left home with my family and came home, you whispered to me, "I hope to fly away in the future." Please tell me about it. I am willing to travel with you. " I promised you, too. When I went home ten days ago, I wanted to tell you about this trip by the way. When I faced you, I didn't speak. And because you're pregnant, I'm even more afraid that you can't bear the sadness, so I just think about wine every day to get drunk. Alas! The sadness in my heart at that time could not be described in words.
I really want to grow old with you, but according to the present situation, natural disasters can kill people, thieves can kill people, powers can carve up China and corrupt officials can kill people. Our generation lives in today's China, and people can't always die in the country. Then let me watch you die, or let you watch me die what can I do? Or can you do this? Even if we can't die, but the husband and wife can't meet each other when they leave, let our eyes see through and the bones turn to stone in vain. When have we seen second time around since ancient times? So this separation is more painful than death. What will it do? Today, you and I are both alive, and those who don't deserve to die and those who don't want to be separated can't be counted by numbers. Can people like us who are single-minded about love tolerate such things? This is because I dare to ignore your life and death! I am now dead without regret, and my comrades are still fighting for the success or failure of state affairs. Yixin is five years old and will grow up in a blink of an eye. I hope you can raise him well and make him like me. The fetus in your belly, I guess she is a girl, but the girl must look like you, I am very pleased. Maybe it's a boy again, so you should also educate him to take his father's ambition as his own, so that there will still be two holes in my mind after I die. So happy, so happy! Our family's future life should be very poor, but poverty has no pain, just living quietly.
I have nothing to say to you now. I heard your crying from a distance under the grave, and I should respond with it. I don't usually believe in ghosts, but now I hope so. Now some people say that telepathy has a way, I hope this is true. Then when I die, my soul can barely stay with you, and you don't have to be sad about losing your partner.
I never told you my ambition, which is my fault; But tell you, I'm afraid you worry about me every day. I die for my country, and I won't refuse to die a hundred times, but worrying you is really beyond my capacity. I love you to the extreme, so my plan for you is not comprehensive. You are lucky to marry me, but why were you born in China today? I am lucky to marry you, but why was I born in China today? I can't bear to perfect myself after all. Alas! The square towel is short and meaningful, and there are thousands of words to be said. You can understand the unfinished words with a square towel. I can't see you now, and you can't forget me. Maybe you will dream about me in your dream! It's so sad to write here! Xin Weinian wrote it by hand at midnight on March 26th.
Grandparents at home are familiar with writing, but there are some things they don't understand. I hope I can ask them for advice. I should fully understand that my mind is good.