In recent two or three years, my planning direction has turned to the love letters of celebrities in the Republic of China, and I have the honor to learn from the old-timers. Among these celebrity love stories, Xiao Hong is the one that makes me most sad.
Her two classic poems, "The ideal white horse can't be ridden, and the lover in the dream can't be loved", can be described as a true portrayal of her short life pursuit of love.
Throughout her short life, she was wandering from place to place, but she pursued freedom and love diligently. However, the man she loved failed to shelter her from the wind and rain, but it became a storm!
1. Xiao Hong, a "literary goddess" in the Republic of China, was born in Hulanhe County, Heilongjiang Province in 1911 and died in Hong Kong in 1942. Although she lived only 31 years old, she was gifted. In just nine years' creative career, she left more than a dozen works and nearly a million words, which showed her vigorous literary creativity.
The Trek, which she co-authored with Xiao Jun, made her emerge in literature. The Field of Life and Death, recommended and published by Mr. Lu Xun, became a dazzling star in China literature. "Biography of Hulan River" made her leave a permanent impression on the literary world in China.
She was called the "literary goddess" in the 192s and 193s. Her creative talent has been highly appreciated by Mr. Lu Xun: Xiao Hong "is the most promising female writer in China today, and she is likely to be Ding Ling's successor, and her time to succeed Ding Ling is much earlier than that of Bing Xin". After the reform and opening up, the research on Xiao Hong and her works has been heating up.
2. Her love-hate entanglements with men
When modern people talk about Xiao Hong, they are more keen to pay attention to her love stories with several men and prefer to watch her gossip.
In a letter to a friend, she once said, "When I die, maybe no one will read my work, but for sure, my scandal will last forever."
About her love past, about her love entanglements with men, people can't help sighing. Throughout her short life, she tried her best to pursue love and freedom, but heaven didn't care for her and let her go with a grudge.
Throughout her life, she was involved with several men. She devoted herself to each man, but she didn't get the love and life she wanted.
Xiao Hong's family of origin, her father was extremely autocratic, and her childhood happiness was more given by her grandfather. With her grandfather's death, her happiness and childhood ended.
Xiao Hong, 19, fled family of origin for freedom. Because I went to Beijing to study with my cousin, I was also divorced by my fiance's family. This practice was a great shame to her family at that time. Soon, cut off from her financial resources, she had to commit herself to coming to find her fiance, Wang Enjia.
However, Wang Enjia is not a lover. After they lived together in a hotel, Xiao Hong became pregnant. Facing the growing months, their debts in the hotel increased. Finally, Wang made an excuse to disappear, leaving her waiting alone with a big belly.
While waiting for help, the second man in her life appeared. This man she loves the most, but also hurts her the most! He is Xiao Jun. Xiao Jun came when she was most desperate, standing on colorful auspicious clouds, and finally saved this beautiful soul when Harbin was flooded! Since then, they have been caring for each other and spent six happy years together.
During that time, poverty and hunger were the themes of Xiao Hong's works. However, under such harsh conditions, the two men warmed each other and * * * weathered the storm together. With the introduction of Lu Xun, the two became the new stars of China literature, and their feelings began to crack.
No matter how to mend and compromise, this rift is getting bigger and bigger. In addition, Xiao Jun's male chauvinism thinks that Xiao Hong has no wife, and Xiao Jun has gone out many times to look for novelty. Finally, the two broke up. Xiao Jun went to Yan 'an and Xiao Hong went to Hong Kong.
in fact, the breakup of their relationship has long been a sign. Xiao Hong once said in a letter to Xiao Jun during the Japanese period, "You are healthy, but I am sick, and I always feel like a cow and a sick donkey, so I am ashamed in secret."
Besides, Xiao Hong also thinks about her love many times. "Freedom and comfort, calmness and leisure, and energy are not oppressed at all. This is really a golden age. The golden age of others has spread its wings, and my golden age has been spent in a cage."
Later, Xiao Hong married Duanmu Hongliang, and then she found out that she was pregnant with Xiao Jun's child. This feeling is not as vigorous as the previous paragraph, but Xiao Hong is moved by Duanmu's appreciation of her talent, and she wants to live a husband and wife family life like ordinary people. Naturally, the gold content of this relationship will not be too high.
When Xiao Hong was seriously ill in Hong Kong, Duanmu went out and entrusted her to her good friend Luo Binji for care, and she never came back until her death. Later, Duanmu's family said that he was looking for medicine to treat Xiao Hong and a hospital that was not occupied by the Japanese army. No matter what the inside story is, it's just that Xiao Hong was too sad when she died.
3. Unfortunately, just because I am a woman?
Xiao Hong once thought: "The greatest pain and misfortune in my life is because I am a woman." I think it is biased for her analysis of her own life difficulties and tragedies.
As an intellectual woman, she has been baptized by new ideas at that time. It is reasonable to say that she has independent self-awareness and should understand the luxury of love, but she can't see it clearly. More importantly, she can't quit and relies on men everywhere.
When love is over, Wang Yingxia, a contemporary woman, can divorce Yu Dafu, stop loss decisively, heal her feelings, find out what she wants, and remarry.
When love is gone, Jiang Dongxiu, who is also a woman, can firmly hold Hu Shi's soft spot, so that this handsome man with constant affairs can turn back and live with her for the rest of his life.
However, Xiao Hong has never been so free and easy with love. She is always pursuing love, constantly changing the hero. This has something to do with her humble love.
A woman who loses herself in love, fails to achieve spiritual independence, fails to cut off from men, and compromises blindly in love, instead of men's respect and pity, they get even worse and take you less seriously!
Perhaps, Xiao Hong didn't understand this at that time. Before she died, she left the regret that "I will live with the blue sky and clear water forever, leaving the half of" The Red Chamber "to others". Throughout her life, "half her life was met with cold eyes, and she died first, unwilling, unwilling."
After her death, those men didn't stop: Xiao Jun, who once said that she had no wife, always thought of her; Duanmu brings his wife to visit her grave every year, and Luo Binji wrote a commemorative article criticizing Duanmu's indifference.
Reading those yellowed letters, watching her various stormy experiences in those years, I lamented that some love didn't provide you with shelter from the wind and rain, but it itself was a storm, which caught you off guard and made you sad! Looking back, it is already a river of sadness!