"There is always a song that reminds you of me once in a while", a song goes like this.
I wrote an imitation sentence: there is always a poem, and every sentence is written in your heart.
If there is, for me, it is this song "I" by Xi Murong.
When I met this poem, I didn't know who the author was or even what the name was.
Even if I saw this poem for the first time, it was not a complete poem.
The first thing I met was the second verse of this poem:
I think those words, like a clear spring, flow into my heart, soak my heart and make me feel quiet and pure.
I copied this sentence in my notebook as my personal Q signature, and there is my ideal state in the poem. I like to read silently several times when I am alone, and I feel baptized every time I read it.
I like every word and sentence of Stay, Time is Long, Winter Thunder and Summer Rain, Spring Flowers and Autumn Fruits, Simple Hope and Grow Slowly.
When reading and reciting poems, I always like to extract my favorite words or sentences. I prefer those words that are quiet and clean and make my heart calm like water.
Be a quiet woman, stay alone in a quiet world, wait for flowers to bloom and fall, and feel the peace and joy of the soul in silence.
I liked this poem at first because of this passage.
Until I accidentally read this complete poem.
This time, what impressed me more was a passage at the beginning of the poem:
Starting, leaving, new dreams, doing whatever I want, isn't this the freedom and distance I yearn for?
I discovered very early that I am a person who belongs to a distant place. My heart, never willing to be bound, not satisfied with the present. It seems like ambition, but I don't pay attention to material things. I yearn for the freedom of body and mind, and I pursue the lofty spirit.
I always long for the distance, hoping that one day I can pack my bags, travel all over Qian Shan and see the prosperity of the world.
If life is a process from birth to death, and all life forms are ultimately from birth to death, then the most important thing is the process of life.
The same life has different meanings because of different life experiences. I don't want to spend my life silently in a corner of the world like my parents.
I hope to experience, hope to advance, and hope to experience several life processes in my lifetime.
In that way, even if I leave this world, I can say to myself without regrets: I have been to this world!
Like peace, but also eager to walk, seemingly contradictory two characteristics, unified in me.
In fact, it is not contradictory. Peace and walking are just two states of life. Life is a dynamic and static process. If you move for a long time, you will calm down, and after a while you will want to move again.
I call this state of life stability and vagrancy.
In July and An Sheng, Annie Baby gave these two qualities to July and An Sheng respectively. July is as quiet as water, and the years are quiet. An Sheng acts like the wind and wanders all his life.
In fact, they are originally a person, but they are two sides of the same person, hoping for stability and wandering. Therefore, they will like a man at the same time-Jia Ming, because they are a person.
In The Bridges of Madison County, what attracted Francesca to Robert was his wandering temperament. At the same time, Robert found the long-awaited home in Francesca.
They all found their long-lost desire in each other, and only the other side can satisfy their desire for stability and vagrancy. If you get it, life will be complete; If you can't get it, life will leave regrets.
I like stability and I am eager to wander. This is me.
2022- 1-23