Shi Tiesheng's Autumn Nostalgic Prose
(1) After his legs were paralyzed, he became grumpy. Looking at the sky heading north, I will suddenly smash the glass in front of me; Listening to the sweet singing in the tape recorder, I will slam what I have on the walls around me. Mother then quietly hid out and secretly listened to my movements where I could not see. When everything was calm again, she came in quietly, her eyes were red and she looked at me. "I heard that the flowers in Beihai are in bloom, so I'll push you for a walk." She always said that. Mother likes flowers, but since I was paralyzed, the flowers she helped grow have died. "No, I'm not going!" I slapped these hateful legs hard and shouted, "What's the point of my living!" " "My mother quickly grabbed my hand, held back her tears and said," Let's be together and live well ... "
But I never knew that her illness had reached that stage. Later, my sister told me that my mother often had a pain in her liver all night.
(3) That day, I was sitting alone in the house, watching the falling leaves outside the window. Mother came in and stood at the window. "Chrysanthemums in the North Sea are blooming. I'll push you to have a look. " There was a pleading expression on her gaunt face. "When?" "Tomorrow, if you like?" She said. She was overjoyed by my answer. "Well, tomorrow." I said. She was so happy that she sat down and stood for a while. "Then get ready quickly." "Oh, don't bother! A few steps, what is there to prepare! " She smiled, sat down beside me and said, "After watching the chrysanthemums, let's go to imitation food. When you were a child, you liked pea yellow there. Remember that time I took you to Beihai? You said Yang Shuhua was a caterpillar, and she ran over and killed one ... "She suddenly stopped talking. She is more sensitive to words like "running" and "stepping" than I am. She went out quietly again.
She went out and never came back. She was still vomiting blood when the neighbors carried her to the car. I didn't expect her to be so ill. Watching the tricycle go away, I never thought it would be forever.
She was panting when the neighbor's boy went to see her behind my back. I was told that her last words before she passed out were: "My sick son and my underage daughter ..."
It's autumn again, and my sister pushes me to Beihai to see chrysanthemums. Yellow flowers are elegant, white flowers are noble, and purple flowers are warm and deep, splashing and blooming in the autumn wind. I know what my mother didn't finish. So is my sister. We are together, we should live a good life. ...
Brief introduction of Shi Tiesheng
Shi Tiesheng, 195 1, from Beijing. After graduating from the High School Attached to Tsinghua University, 1969 joined Yan 'an, 1972 was paralyzed by illness, and 197 1 9865438+returned to Beijing. He started writing on 1979. 1983 and 1984 won the National Excellent Short Story Award for My Far Green Ping Bay and Grandma's Star respectively.
1996165438+10. In October, Shi Tiesheng's short story The Story of My Old House won the gold medal of "300,000 Donghai Literature Award" of Zhejiang Donghai Literature Monthly (50,000 yuan). This novel describes his experience of working in a small street factory after his initial disability. Someone praised: "Nostalgia is not sentimental, diluted and long, and meaningful." In addition, Yu Hua's short story My Story, Jun Chen's novella Yu Feng and Su Tong's short story Boxcar won the second silver prize (30,000 yuan each). Notes on My Old House and Notes on Retreat won the Top Ten Fiction Awards of Writer's Newspaper 1996. 1997 was elected vice chairman of Beijing Writers Association.
Thoughts on Reading Missing Autumn
Writer Shi Tiesheng mentioned in "Qiu Si" that since his legs were paralyzed, he was furious and lost all faith in life. He was immersed in negative emotions all day and gave up on himself, but he ignored his mother's bitter comfort and didn't know that her mother was terminally ill. After his mother died, his sister urged him to fulfill his mother's unfinished wish-to take him to Beihai to see flowers in autumn, so the author missed his mother in the colorful sea of flowers.
Although autumn is beautiful, it is bleak; Although autumn is sad, it is so gorgeous. Autumn is the harvest season of crops, and it is also the season when the grass leaves fall and return to the earth. In the autumn wind, a teenager sits quietly in a wheelchair, thinking of his dead mother-what a scene it is and what kind of attachment it is!
"Looking at the array facing north in the sky, I will suddenly smash the glass in front of me; Listening to the sweet songs on the radio, I will slam what I have on the surrounding walls. " It can be seen how much pain the author has suffered! However, my mother has been watching me carefully in a kind of carried away despair. The author is very disgusted with my mother's comfort. My mother has never given up every opportunity to let my child feel the hope of life, and tried her best to comfort him and take him to see the flowers to feel the vitality and hope of life ... All this is for the author-in order not to make him sad, my mother asked me to throw away everything that can vent my emotions; In order not to make him sad, his mother has been comforting him; In order not to make him sad, his mother is very sensitive to foot-related words such as "running" and "stepping" and often avoids talking about them; In order not to make him sad, when I was going to take the author to see the flowers, my mother could no longer bear the torture of the disease and died unwilling. Her last words were "My sick son and underage daughter …" When she died, she still remembered her children. How great this mother is!
Finally, the author's sister pushed the author to see the flowers in a colorful autumn flower, and the author naturally had a deep nostalgia and sorrow for his mother.
This is a touching article and an earth-shattering maternal love.
Remember, what you have now is wealth, don't wait until you lose it to know how to cherish and cherish it! This should be a sentence that all children and people in the world should remember.