"Ah——" It was terrible. The hoarse voice and the messy tune made me feel even more embarrassed.
I reached out and deleted the recording I just recorded. I was really upset. The sound, which was not clear at all like a broken radio, was like a hammer hitting my heart.
I understand, I am also very clear that I have no talent for singing, nor...
I like to listen to the clear voice of the singer, the waves of shaking sound , hitting again and again. As I listened, I was fascinated and wanted to hum along, but when I opened my mouth, my throat was blocked - I didn't have the courage to sing along. That beautiful voice does not belong to me and will never belong to me. My voice is just insulting other people's singing voices, I've always known that.
"You are really tone deaf when you sing." I always remember this sentence. This is the first time I heard an evaluation of my voice from others.
Voice cannot be changed; voice is a gift from birth; voice is unique to each person... I know it very well. However, I still can't let go.
Facing the music class in school, I was both happy and afraid. I was happy that I could listen to other people's voices, but I was afraid that my voice would hinder others. Whenever I have to sing - the whole class sings together, I will be among the others. Unfortunately, I am still said by others - "My singing voice is too bad." I admit that my voice is not very good, and even my speech is a bit unclear, not to mention how can my singing be so good? I didn't want to pay attention to it, but I felt lost unconsciously.
I dare not sing in front of others, even at home, because my singing is like noise. I don't want to disturb others, and I don't want others to know. I put all my troubles into other people's songs and cry silently.
I am jealous, but I also know better that everyone has strengths and weaknesses, and no one is perfect. Try to suppress your inner irritability, listen to the music quietly, and slowly let the depression disappear in the music.
Every time when I have a music exam, I always have a sudden disconnection. My brain can’t keep up with the rhythm. My whole person seems to be completely stunned in place - the sound... seems to be blocked there and I can’t pronounce it. come out. I tried hard to make the sound come out, but found that the voice was hoarse, like a jamming sound, which was annoying.
I have never been able to sing clearly.
I also think that if you can sing a good song, you can at least say the lyrics! However, that voice always seems to be against me and goes against my will. Trying to relax, the sound is still the same.
I know that I don’t have the courage to face it and sing a clear lyric in front of others.
I also know that my voice is terrible, so bad that I don’t even want to say much.
However, I also want to have a voice as natural as Xiaopang (Lin Yuqun), but I know clearly that it is absolutely impossible. Even so, I hope that the song with such fantasy will be hidden in my heart and linger in my heart. Although it can only be hidden deep in my heart, it is enough to make me content. I don't know how long I will hide it, but I am willing to appreciate it alone, even if no one asks or... As long as I can understand it by myself, it is enough, because the song in my heart is not controlled by others!
The song buried in your heart allows you to live in yourself without anyone disturbing or even blocking you.
Alone, humming a song, with only one audience.