My friend's name is Jiang Mumu. He was born in the northern countryside, but he loves Jiangnan.
Jiang Mumu is only 18 years old. Her memories and nightmares began at the age of five.
At the age of five, Jiang Mumu got an eye injury. Due to the untimely treatment, he can only face life with his right eye.
Jiang Mumu's homework is very good, and she can get the top three in her class every time. Jiang Mumu turned into a city at the age of 15. I don't know anyone, but Jiang Mumu still works hard. Soon, the results ranked in the top three of the grade. Having just gained a foothold in this strange city, Jiang Mumu should make persistent efforts to catch up. But he showed up.
They met at a friend's party. She is a kindergarten teacher and works in a nearby kindergarten. Jiang Mumu fell in love with this girl at first sight. In Jiang Mumu's eyes, this girl is like a daughter of heaven in his heart. Love is so inexplicable, just one encounter can make people dream. Jiang Mumu went back and asked her friend the girl's phone number, and then called to send a message. I visit her from time to time and bring her food. Love is not just puzzling. Perhaps, this is a bit unreasonable: Jiang Mumu would rather stay in the Internet cafe for one night so as to bring her breakfast, and then deliver it to her at dawn. But girls still haven't officially accepted mywood. Jiang Mumu is very sad.
One night, waiting for dawn, Jiang Mumu wrote a little poem for her:
Recall time
There is always a sense of sadness.
I'm familiar with it, but I don't know where to start.
one person
Quiet .. dull ...
Standing in the middle of the grassland
In the nearest place to the sky.
Watching the winding river stretch forward.
I feel like I am in heaven.
At this time, I can always see clearly
Seeing the daughter of heaven
No graceful gesture, no graceful language.
This is a natural and regressive beauty.
Rapid changes in society
Things in life are different.
Always change some people.
So they became a group of lost lambs.
The only pure land is heaven.
I long for heaven, and I long to see my daughter in heaven.
It was fate that led me to meet her.
She is holy and flawless in my heart.
Because of love
I take good care of her and love her wholeheartedly.
I am at a loss in the face of her indifference. ...
Perhaps, for me, the goddess is always an unreachable dream.
This poem is not very well written, but I am very moved. Because I see my heart is as clear as water. Unfortunately, Jiang Mumu didn't have the courage to give this poem to the girl. I don't know how long it took, but Jiang Mumu got up the courage to tell her, but she flatly rejected Jiang Mumu on the grounds that Jiang Mumu was a student, she didn't fall in love with the student, and Jiang Mumu was still chasing her. Finally, after enduring 1 month, Jiang Mumu resolutely dropped out of school under the tears of his family.
Compared with the past, Jiang Mumu cares about her more than ever. It's just that she doesn't know that Jiang Mumu gave up her studies for her.
After graduation, Jiang Mumu worked as an apprentice in a large hair salon in the city. Because Jiang Mumu is diligent and honest, people in the hair salon speak highly of him. 1October 5 10. On Jiang Mumu 16' s birthday, they went to eat. The two sides found friends together. During the dinner, Jiang Mumu announced that he had dropped out of school. After listening, the girl didn't say anything, just bowed her head and ate, eating silently and drinking wine. She knew that Jiang Mumu had dropped out of school because of her words. As a girl, she should be secretly pleased. After dinner, Jiang Mumu sent her back to kindergarten. At the gate of the garden, she unexpectedly said to Jiang Mumu, "I find that I have feelings for you, but only a little." Mywood almost shed tears with excitement, just nodded. Later, the girl went in and Jiang Mumu left. Continue to work in the hair salon. I often call her at night and occasionally "complain" that she doesn't take the initiative to call herself. In this way, a few days later, she began to change-calling Jiang Mumu many times every day. But this is not a good thing. According to the regulations of the hair salon, you can't answer the phone during office hours. What's more, Jiang Mumu is just an apprentice. Jiang Mumu told the girl that she couldn't answer the phone at work, but the girl was very stubborn and seemed to embarrass Jiang Mumu on purpose. Jiang Mumu had no choice. Between love and career, Jiang Mumu once again gave the green light to his love. The night she left the salon, Jiang Mumu went to see her again. This time, he told Jiang Mumu one thing-
She is pregnant for four months (because she is pregnant for the first time, her stomach is tight, so her stomach is not obvious. So Jiang Mumu didn't find it) but the baby isn't Jiang Mumu's. She told Jiang Mumu that the child was her cousin's, one year older than her, and she was engaged in the underworld in a bar in other places, and she would come back to find her trouble at any time. Jiang Mumu didn't say anything, just hugged her and told her that Jiang Mumu won't let you be bullied with Jiang Mumu around.
They spent the night in the Internet cafe.
The next day, Jiang Mumu began to think about what to do-the cost of surgery is the biggest problem. Jiang Mumu rented a house as his residence when he could not receive the operation fee. I'm afraid she's at home alone. I don't have a job at home to accompany her, cook, wash clothes and wash feet for her. ...
The embarrassment of life made Jiang Mumu think of selling blood for a living, but the doctor told Jiang Mumu that he was in poor health. ..
In order to help her abort the child, Jiang Mumu decided to take a risk-
Go find her mother. Go to her house at 9: 00 p.m. Jiang Mumu tearfully told her mother that the child was his and would be responsible for her ... Until twelve o'clock, her mother finally promised not to pursue anyone's responsibility, but Jiang Mumu had to bear the cost of the operation alone. Jiang Mumu said nothing, but he knew that his original intention had not been realized. In desperation, Jiang Mumu went to their home again. After riding along the national highway for 2 hours, I finally arrived. This time, Jiang Mumu told the girl's mother that he had no money. The girl's mother was very angry and kept hitting Jiang Mumu. Jiang Mumu told the truth for the girl's life (it has been more than seven months now). The girl's mother finally agreed .. Contrary to expectations, no hospital dared to take the risk. At this time, the girl's mother put forward some harsh conditions-let Jiang Mumu take the girl to find a place to give birth to the child, and then the two of them will die. This made Jiang Mumu, who had been injured, feel desperate. Jiang Mumu told the girl's mother frankly that he is now 16 years old. He has no skills, no education, no strength and no ability to raise a child and a woman. What's more, this kind of thing can't be known to his friends. After hearing this, the girl's mother left swearing. ..
Jiang Mumu took the girl back to her place. ..
A few days passed. At the end of their tether (only salt was left for cooking), Jiang Mumu reluctantly sent her home. Please don't get me wrong, Jiang Mumu didn't abandon her, but put all your eggs in one basket for her survival.
After returning home, the girl's mother told Jiang Mumu that she was going to let her have a baby and let Jiang Mumu go. When he left, he also told Jiang Mumu not to set foot in their house.
Anyway, the girl was finally saved, and Jiang Mumu finally breathed a sigh of relief.
Jiang Mumu decided to leave the city, and when the girl gave birth, she would take her away, go to a strange place, work at sunrise and return at sunset. ..
After Jiang Mumu left, she often called the girl. That day, the girl told Jiang Mumu that her mother took her to the clinic for an abortion. ..
As a man, after this happened, Jiang Mumu certainly wanted to kill the child. But at that moment, Jiang Mumu was sad and happy. Fortunately, girls can still live well when they are 8 months old, and there is no danger; Sadly, the good life was killed in this way. ..
In fact, it doesn't matter whether the child is Mu Mu or not. Because Jiang Mumu loves the girl herself, not her first time. But then the child disappeared, and Jiang Mumu became in a daze. He blamed himself every day. Mumu doesn't know if he is the murderer. ..
At this point, Jiang Mumu was already in tears. I thought Jiang Mumu's first love would disappear with his tears, but the story is far from simple:
The girls stopped answering Jiang Mumu's phone. Even Jiang Mumu curled up in an Internet cafe near her home on a snowy day, the girl still refused to see Jiang Mumu.
Jiang Mumu was confused. He doesn't know what he did wrong to make the girl so heartless, or did the girl's mother do something bad behind her back? Finally, a kind word from a friend made Jiang Mumu find all the answers in despair: the girl's mother knew all the truth from the beginning, and she was at a loss because of her face. Later, the girl told her mother that she had found someone. This man is Jiang Mumu. The girl made such a "movie" with the kindness of Jiang Mumu and her mother. The most terrible thing is that Jiang Mumu is still obsessed with his cousin. The two of them are carrying Jiang Mumu behind their backs ... Jiang Mumu didn't have the courage to continue listening. He didn't say anything. Very quiet, so quiet that the person who told him the secret felt terrible.
Jiang Mumu has changed. He is addicted to bars. Go with friends occasionally. Every time I am in a corner of the bar, the strong beer, the deafening music and the twisted crowd on the dance floor are expressionless. Cold beer cools from the esophagus to the stomach. On the bar, the back is like a stone statue. ...
...
One stormy night, after Jiang Mumu came back from the bar, he sat in a daze on the windowsill until late at night, and wrote a poem at dawn:
Gradually, I became numb. ...
Now I don't know what pain is. Love, in my initial eyes gradually blurred. ...
Where is my love? Where is my future?
Pear blossoms are in a hurry, that's the way home.
I'm so confused, I want to start from scratch, but who will give me this chance?
Who ever thought, I also have helpless times. Now I am in a dilemma.
Is childish and impulsive.
Made me believe in eternity.
Now, I know what division is.
I won't have any illusions.
For you, for vows, for love that I will never forget.
Remember this love, remember this humiliation!
Eternity beyond my reach made me numb in 2008.
Jiang Mumu decided to leave this city and go to a city he wanted to go to but never had a chance to go. Jiang Mumu left without saying a word. Some are indifferent, and indifference makes everyone feel cold; Some are quiet, so quiet that everyone is at a loss; I was in such a hurry that I didn't even have time to say goodbye. Just like the youth that ended, nothing was left except what my friends remembered.
With the help of his uncle, Jiang Mumu entered a training class to study interior design. In the process of surfing the Internet, the girl sent a request to chat with Jiang Mumu, and Jiang Mumu agreed. The girl told Jiang Mumu that she knew she was wrong and should not cheat him. Jiang Mumu didn't say anything. He can't forget the scar in his heart. The girl is going to look for him in the city of Jiang Mumu. Mumu didn't agree.
Jiang Mumu studies very hard and is busy listening to lectures and drawing pictures every day. ..
I don't know whether it is the dilution of time or the release of mywood. For this long time no see, Jiang Mumu has forgotten. But when surfing the Internet at night, Jiang Mumu accidentally entered the list of "recent visitors" in girls' space. To his surprise, there was a lot of scolding about Mu Mu in the above news. Until the end, Jiang Mumu suddenly realized that the girl had given their story a "fake version". The feeling of that moment is really indescribable. I can't tell whether it is chilling or irony. Jiang Mumu can't understand why some people, when it's their own fault, can find a bunch of high-sounding reasons to incite people to scold a person she tortured. It's so frustrating to encounter this kind of thing on the Internet occasionally.
Mumu has been invisible on the Internet ever since. He's not online. Jiang Mumu likes his own space, because there are no lies, deceit and slander ... Here, Jiang Mumu is like a wounded kitten, who can secretly lick his bleeding wound. ..
Now, Jiang Mumu has two biggest wishes. One is to buy a house in the city through your own efforts and take over the parents in the country to live together; The other is never to see or hear anything about girls again. ...
Poetry (continued):
Life is not that bad,
You must see the love between people,
Other people's concern for you.
You can't be too pessimistic,
You know, the world is full of love and care.
Now that the kingdom of heaven is mentioned, I think you should know something about the Bible.
The bible,
Is to ask people to actively join the WTO,
Benefit mankind,
Think of others as yourself,
Love brothers,
Don't misunderstand god's word with your own thinking.
Now that you know there is a kingdom of heaven,
Why are you still so negative?
Where is the kingdom of heaven?
I think love in this world is a paradise for you and me.
We should try our best to give love to others,
Help others within your ability.
Be an angel of the poor,
Giving is better than receiving.
Helping others equals helping yourself,
This is the minimum consciousness of people who have read the Bible!
The kingdom of heaven is beautiful, it is in your heart and mine.
Why don't we do something more meaningful and daydream here?
If you are a student, study with an open mind and strive to lay the foundation for the future;
If you are an employee, you should be down-to-earth and devote yourself to social welfare.
No matter where we are,
Everyone should be loyal to their duties,
Don't cry roast meat.
With love in your heart, your world is full of love.
If you believe in Jesus,
You should be positive, not negative, and complain spontaneously.
Help others more,
Do your best,
Make more contributions to society.
of course，
A person's strength is limited,
What we can do is negligible,
But the great cause of the motherland,
We should also do our part,
Make your own contribution,
Love their work and dedication,
Is the best contribution.
If everyone is satisfied,
Keep your nose clean,
Without prejudice and discrimination,
If people are not graded,
Isn't this world a paradise?
Labor is the most glorious,
Even sanitation workers are respectable.
There are many postures,
There are national leaders, entrepreneurs, civil servants, journalists, media editors, drivers, factory workers, teachers and so on. . .
No matter where we are,
As long as you do your duty,
Keep your nose clean,
Do your job well,
You have contributed to a harmonious society.
There is no imperfect world,
Only we are not satisfied,
People who have experienced God's love,
I am very happy.
There is not much sadness,
Don't worry too much about tomorrow.
Because his heart is full of love,
So his view of the world is simple,
Very harmonious and beautiful.
Even if you are depressed for a while,
It won't be long before I'm optimistic again,
Just because we know Jesus,
Don't care much about the world's struggle for honor and disgrace,
Not deliberately pursuing fame and fortune,
Not only pursue their own interests;
More is to help others.
We want to be light and salt,
Make other people's lives better.
We're like candles,
Only when Jesus lit it,
Get sublimated,
Bring light to others,
Although our ability is limited,
It is impossible to set up the world's largest charity fund like Bill Gates.
But in our own posts,
Show love,
Illuminate others,
Isn't that good, too
Love is big or small,
Whether we have the ability or not,
As long as you do your duty,
Aren't we all like those great men before Jesus?
God doesn't value appearance,
But our hearts,
My heart is full of love,
Sow the seeds of love in the hearts of people around you,
Don't confine yourself to yourself,
Don't pay too much attention to yourself,
Sometimes we lower ourselves,
Better understand Jesus' love.
If you have Jesus in your heart, can you not see the love of the world?
bless ...