How do you feel after reading the poem Motherly Love? About 50 words

My mother/kloc-had me since I was 0/8 years old, but the day after I was born, my grandmother fed me milk powder. When I was 4 years old, I went back to my parents. But my mother often scolds me for small things, such as dirty clothes. When I was in kindergarten, my mother left and soon divorced my father. I was very happy because my mother finally stopped hitting me. I always say I don't want to. I don't know what maternal love is. In junior high school, I was so ignorant that I missed my mother. Whenever I see other people's mothers being so kind to their children, I start to be jealous. I should be in grade two now, and it's only grade three now. I want my mother more. In the past 10 years, she only came to see me a few times when I was in the second grade of primary school, and never saw me again. Maybe later she didn't know where I was. But when I was in junior high school, he knew where I was, but he didn't visit me. After I know her phone number, she always uses various excuses to avoid me. I am sad. She met me in the holiday of 10, bought me a suit and gave me 50 yuan, just like when I was a child, but I was perfunctory by her. Later, I asked her out. I always feel that she is perfunctory. Later, I went to her house to find her and had a quarrel with her. Later, I broke off the mother-child relationship with her, but I still wanted to find her and make up. But I decided whether she thought I was "cheating her" because I pretended to be sincere. I really miss my mother. I just watched a Korean movie called Don't Tell Dad. I am very touched and want to have such a beautiful one. Hehe, there are too many words. I hope to have a patient look and help me. I'm running out of marks. I'll give it first When I get more points, I will double ... thank you ... who can make me feel "love" and let me know that I am not empty in this world?