At the age of 22, I fell madly in love with traveling.
1.
The afternoon sunshine is warm and soft, even the whole person's state is very relaxed, and there are soothing and comfortable emotions flowing in his body. Yan Xi dragged a purple suitcase and walked slowly on the road alone.
The horns of cars in the street are intertwined with the music played in the shop. People passed by in a hurry with a dignified look, and only she looked relaxed and followed suit.
Get in the car, find your seats and put your luggage away.
Because I hate the noise in the car, I put on my headphones and leaned back lazily, trying to get myself into a comfortable state, with my eyes slightly closed, listening to the music coming into my ears through the white headphone cable. The relief of slow shaking can really play a role in temporarily forgetting my troubles.
At first, I went out on a long trip alone, but I refused the kindness of some friends to go with me, and I didn't tell too many friends around me. I packed my luggage, took a few simple pieces of luggage and went out.
And all these actions stem from a bold decision.
When browsing the circle of friends, I feel that the sea view on my friends' photos is beautiful. The sunshine through the treetops attracted me deeply, so I bought a ticket to C city without hesitation. She has always been the kind of girl who dares to think and do. Whether it is emotional entanglements or things that others need to hesitate, such as travel, she has always been decisive and resolute.
Perhaps it is a bold attempt to travel alone, or perhaps it is to get out of the shadow of just breaking up with her boyfriend. She quickly listed the detailed plan of the trip and made a brief itinerary for the next three days. Indeed, biting my pen, I was satisfied with the results listed on the paper.
Actually, I was going to travel with my best friend Mo Zhuo, but just a few days before departure, Mo Zhuo suddenly told her shyly that she couldn't go. Looking at the bright red flowers on the bed, I understood that gossip played a few jokes and a person bought a plane ticket online.
In fact, I am also happy for my good friends to fall in love. When I look at her so sweetly, I feel very happy at the same time. Only when it is quiet occasionally, the strong sense of helplessness that surges in my heart is always swallowed up by loneliness in the dark, and that feeling of loneliness becomes a habit unconsciously.
But who can blame this? Sometimes I think about my femininity and can't help but shake my head and smile.
I always lick my hair habitually and comfort myself that I can survive. It's really a hard struggle by myself. On the day of the final exam, I had a high fever of 38.5 degrees and insisted on reviewing after intravenous drip.
At that time, I thought I could be extremely strong. In a day full of disappointment and dog blood, I could fight my way out.
2.
Noisy sounds began to appear in the carriage.
Yan Xi opened his eyes, and a tall and thin boy came into view. The neat plaid shirt made her feel a little better about him. The other party smiled, revealing a mouthful of white teeth. "Hey, this is your box. Let me put it on the luggage rack next to you. "
Looking at his handsome face with clear lines, the warm and clean smile seems to be very friendly. Suddenly, I said, don't look away for a moment, and said thank you with a little shyness.
Why does she suddenly feel a little nervous? She stared at the back of the chair in front of her for several seconds. After the boy helped her pack, she naturally sat in the back row of seats. There was not much communication along the way, probably because everyone was very tired in the afternoon, and even the carriage was filled with a slightly depressed atmosphere. After getting off the bus, I felt a little sad, pretending to look at the direction he left after parting ways.
After all, there is no perfect pause like a TV series with dog blood. I shrugged my shoulders slightly, pulled up my luggage and walked in the other direction.
There are many souvenir vendors in the street, bicycles with bells pass by, and occasionally pigeons flap their wings from the roof on the street. All this seems to be a dream scene in Yan Xi's eyes, but now it seems so real and sober.
Many car owners greeted her on the road, but how can I put it? Every car looks like a black car, and there is nothing that can make her feel safe. I can't help but shrink my collar subconsciously.
But I couldn't find a taxi all the way, so I had to turn back. I chose an uncle with kind eyes, got on the bus, reported the address and leaned in the back seat to see the scenery along the way. As the journey goes on, there are fewer and fewer vehicles and pedestrians on the road. Considering the news that the girl lost contact recently, I began to feel flustered involuntarily, and even regretted why I had to travel alone.
Just when she began to hesitate to tell her friends about her situation, the car slowly stopped and the uncle's peaceful voice came from the front. "Here we are." Yan Xi looked out of the window with some doubts. The dazzling three characters "Lin Dingxuan" in the sun came into his eyes. He looked at the address photo on his mobile phone for half a ring, some of them looked at it in disbelief, and then looked out. Two completely different scenes.
I asked the driver's uncle, only to know that I got off at the wrong station, and it was getting dark. In desperation, I had to get off with my luggage and walk into a nearby hotel. I'm going to stay here for one night and then go to Faxiao the next day.
The orange light reflected on the floor, and the warm feeling relaxed the nervous mood. The little girl at the front desk was all smiles. Every time I see such a youthful face, she will begin to cherish her youth. After all, it's time to go our separate ways. She thought helplessly and sadly, took out her wallet, only to find that the little girl's eyes bypassed her and looked back.
Turn around naturally, and then there is a chorus of two people.
"How could it be you?" When she saw the boy she had seen, she was slightly surprised and began to ask questions. As soon as the words sound just fell, she remembered that she had turned back here specially, and she couldn't help blushing.
The little girl at the front desk looked at the two men and hesitated. "We have only one room left here. You ... "
The two men looked at each other. After a while, the boy spoke first. "She is a girl, let her have a good life ..."
"This ... I'm sorry." Looking out the window, it's getting dark. If you find a place to stay nearby, it will be as full as here.
The other party shrugged his shoulders easily. "Nothing, I can just sit in the hall for one night ..." He laughed and joked with the little girl. "Is that okay?"
The clock on the wall is ticking, and the birds outside the window are flying low and making clear calls.
3.
Yan Xi was lying in bed, but she didn't sleep well. Maybe she was guilty. She quietly went downstairs.
The light is still on, but there is no one in the hall, and I am shivering. I'm a little lost at the thought of leaving alone. I turned my eyes and inadvertently glanced at the tables and chairs outside, only to see him sitting there, looking up at the stars.
Out of curiosity, she gently walked over and saw Yan Xi suddenly appear. The boy is neither surprised nor confused. Naturally, he moved aside, made room for a clearing, stretched out his hand and patted it. "Sit down." This action made Yan Xi, who has always been careless, nervous at this time, but he felt a little warm in his clear eyes and sat down beside him.
Knowing each other's name is Liangyuan, I feel familiar somehow, but I can't remember where I heard it. For the first time, Yan Xi began to hate his careless personality.
He smiled mysteriously when talking about the room. "I already have a place to live."
"Where?"
"Well, that's it." Shan Yuan pointed his hand, and xi looked in the direction of his hand. There was a small room in the corner of the first floor without a house number, which must be for employees to rest.
"I just met their boss and he agreed to let me live there." He looked puzzled and added, "Of course, there is one condition."
"What conditions?"
"I won't tell you, you will know at this time tomorrow night."
"Don't keep me in suspense, just tell me." Yan Xi frowned. The girl was very curious. Looking at his answer, Yan Xi wants to know why. "Well, they have a small activity there tomorrow night, and I promised they would sing here ..." Liang Yuan said, and stood up slowly, looking up at the starry sky and stretched himself. "It's getting late, go back to sleep."
We only met once, but the feeling was so familiar and vague. I feel something strange in my body. Yan Xi took two steps, subconsciously looked back at him. Seeing each other's eyes as if they were looking at their own side, their cheeks were burning, and they hurried upstairs.
The next night, I refused my friend's invitation to stay with her for one night and went back to my apartment alone. When I first arrived at the door, I felt that the atmosphere was very lively and there were melodious songs.
Inadvertent meeting/burning flame of love/unexpected consideration/a little bump into my heart/thoughts with accelerated heartbeat/awakening the deepest attachment/tenderness raging in my ear/your touch on always online.
It's explosive rap and rock style. When I first came in, the atmosphere was lit and all the cells were beating with the melody. However, with the sound of this song, the lively voices gradually faded down and the whole hall gradually quieted down. Everyone's eyes stared at Liangyuan unblinkingly first, and then transferred to Nianxi who just entered the door.
It seems that from the moment she just entered the door, the whole song began to be earth-shaking, and the passionate rock became a gentle and slow lyric, but everyone could hear it. What Liang Yuan expressed in this song now seems to be her true feelings.
Yan Xi just stood there, probably didn't expect the store to be so busy at this time. I remember hearing friends say that this shop sometimes gathers friends from all over the world to play together, and I heard Mu Tao mention it during the day, but I was caught off guard when I suddenly saw this scene.
Just when she felt a little embarrassed, Liangyuan stood up and motioned for her to sit next to the next girl. She chatted with each other and felt quite harmonious. But when she saw Lengyuan who was seriously engaged in singing on the stage, she couldn't help but feel a stir in her heart. She has only known each other for two days, so she shouldn't feel this way, but the throbbing in her heart surprised her.
To her surprise, she agreed to his invitation and went for a walk by the sea after the break.
four
Two people walked in tandem on the path by the sea, saying that although they have some thick lines, they don't care about many things, but looking at this secluded and unmanned environment, if they say anything, they dare not come to this place.
But I don't know why, I have a lot of trust in this teenager around me, and even feel more at ease with him. Recalling the details of the first meeting in the car at the moment, I can't help but feel a ripple in my heart.
Probably I suddenly remembered the clear waves, so there was a clean and warm voice in my ear.
"Let me do it."
So I watched him gently take the suitcase from himself, then carefully move it into the trunk of the car and put it away slowly. A series of actions made Yan Xi feel gentle, considerate, delicate and so on, which are not enough to describe this clean and determined teenager. It's like a warm day after the dark clouds have cleared, like a gentle lake flooding the river bank, like a warm spring breeze blowing through my heart. In short, it is a very warm feeling.
Looking at the boy's strokes, his thoughts were gradually pulled back, and then he saw the sentence just written on the beach, and his eyes were firmly fixed there.
"You wrote this ... Think of your ex-girlfriend?"
When the mood is close/I miss it/what proof should I take/the traces I have left/the memories that have flooded in/there is no room for escape/I am addicted to feelings/what else can I wake up/If love is a scene/I can't appear/Please be cruel to the end before leaving/Let the time be quiet slowly.
In fact, it's not that attractive, but she only looked at it a few times in her mind, and she actually felt influenced by emotions. She stabbed the softest heart and her eyes suddenly began to wet. Perhaps those words awakened her deepest memory, recalling the past bit by bit, and staring at those words without words.
"Well, this is my last memory of my last relationship ..." Lengyuan said word for word.
She was immersed in emotion and a little sadness, still thinking about how to comfort him. He looked at her seriously and smiled a little bitter. "Let's go home." Suddenly, I felt that my throat was blocked by something, and then a lot of sad emotions poured into my chest like waves. All emotions are torn in the past memories and immersed in the past memories.
Walking back side by side all the way, Yan Xi smoothed her long hair in her ear, opened her mouth to say something, glanced at it casually, and her throat seemed to be blocked by something, so she couldn't say a word. Although it was only a flash, it was clear and true, and the word "cut" on the bracelet sparkled under the reflection of the sun.
"What's your name?" The seemingly casual question is actually extremely concerned, but when Liang Yuan said it, the hanging heart suddenly sank.
"Her name is Mozhuo."
These two words coincided with the name in her heart and were instantly printed in her heart.
But in an instant, it was already cold.
Mo Zhuo is her best best friend, and the ex-boyfriend was the one who mentioned the most from her mouth before. At that time, the whole dormitory was full of gossip, and everyone was clamoring to meet this spoony boyfriend, but Mozhuo made excuses again and again.
Then the boy really came and stood downstairs in the dormitory for almost a whole night.
Even the girls who were unfamiliar with the college next door were moved, but Mo Zhuo turned a deaf ear to this and let the boys stand downstairs without going out. Finally, someone couldn't stand it anymore and went downstairs to persuade the boy. When Yan Xi looked out of the window, all he saw was his lonely back.
It is strange that she doesn't know how to cherish the boy who is so kind and infatuated with her, and Mo Zhuo just sent her away with words that she couldn't force her feelings. It is also true to think about it. I didn't ask again. But I never imagined that the ex-boyfriend who was infatuated with Mozhuo, the boy who braved the heavy rain and waited downstairs all night ... turned out to be you.
Maybe she doesn't know how to cherish, but who can say her feelings? After more than a month, Mo Zhuo has a new date, and I heard that her ex-boyfriend is still sending her messages. I still felt sorry for the boy when I went out. Who would have thought that just a short trip would bring them so close?
The breeze blew and the leaves rustled. Cool the original seems to perceive what, carefully asked.
"What's the matter?"
"Nothing, let's hurry home." Yan Xi shook his head in detail.
His tone is as gentle as ever, but in the face of such gentleness, she can only abandon her helmet and flee at the moment.
On the third day, at dawn, Yan Xi packed his bags and went downstairs. I came to the front desk and put a thin notebook on the front desk. "Please give it to the boy who sang here last night."
The little girl at the front desk looked at the tears flashing in her eyes and nodded.
Walking out of the hotel, I looked back for half a ring. I was determined to annihilate the last trace in my heart and leave here with my suitcase.
I actually fell in love with the boy who was entangled with my best friend, which may be nothing in her eyes. Love should be firmly grasped and cherished, but now I can really feel his feelings for Mozhuo, which can never be diluted by time and distance. In that case, why meet again?
So I didn't talk, just in a bad mood. My mental journey in the past few days and those things in the past are all recorded in that thin notebook. After much thought, I decided to tell him what happened, but I just concealed my feelings.
Maybe this is the best ending.