In ancient Roman mythology, there was a gatekeeper named Janus, who had a pair of eyes on the front and back of his head. He focuses on the past and the future. The past represents death, and the future symbolizes life. In mythology, Janas looked at all this coldly, watching all the people enter the door where he was waiting for his life, and then come out. "The secluded room is closed, and I will not see you again in a thousand years." Always send people away and return to their homes. Relatives are still sad, others have finished singing. "This is the fate that no one can change. Once reborn, you can only face it. Death is everyone's destiny, and its huge tragic color can not only crush a person, but also make a soldier rise up and ride forward like a knight. Ye Zhi's life, it is such a brave knight, a knight who pursues true love in fantasy pain constantly bears great pain of the soul. The image of this knight in Dostoevsky's Idiot is like a flash in the dark, and I don't know how many poor people are touched:
There is a poor knight in the world,
Silence, unusually simple,
You Lan looks pale,
But he is brave and straightforward. He once appeared before his eyes.
An incredible sight,
He was deeply impressed by this.
Left an unforgettable impression on him. Since then, his blood has been surging.
Don't look at women.
He will do us part until death,
Don't say a word to a woman. He tied the rosary around his neck,
Except for that scarf,
Never take it off again
Take off the steel mask on your face. His heart is full of pure love,
He is loyal to sweet fantasies,
He wrote on the shield with blood:
"Holy Mother, may you be glad."
At that time, brave soldiers,
Galloping on the wasteland of Palestine,
Shout the name of your lover,
Charge between cliffs. Holy rose, the light of heaven!
He shouted,
His shouts were like thunder,
Defeated the Muslims. He returned to the distant castle,
Since then, I have lived alone behind closed doors.
Without a word, full of sadness,
Like a madman, the soul went to heaven. This poem constructs the image of a lonely Europa knight. He is naive, but loyal to love. He fought for his lover and lived alone in the castle in his later years. Ye Zhi's life is just a copy of this image in reality.
Ye Zhi's lifelong crush is Ryder Gunn. She is one of the main leaders of Irish autonomy movement at the turn of the19th century and 20th century, and is a famous beauty in Ireland. She was born in the upper class, and her father was a British colonel in Ireland, leaving her a lot of legacy. 1889, Ye Zhi met 22-year-old Ryder Gunn, and Ye Zhi later described the impression at that time in detail: "She stood at the window with a large group of blooming apple flowers beside her; She is dazzling, like a petal full of sunshine. " This aspect changed Ye Zhi's life from now on. However, because of her "immaturity and lack of achievement" and shyness, and because she thought it was impossible for her to marry a poor student, at first, Ye Zhi buried this love in her heart, but she dared not express it despite suffering from love.
Ye Zhi wrote many poems for Ryder Gunn, but Ryder Gunn kept aloof from him. Her ideal is in the street, in the stormy applause of the masses and in the stormy revolutionary movement. Because of his sympathy for the Irish people, Ryder Gunn gave up the social life of Dublin's upper class and devoted himself to the movement for Irish national independence and became a leader. In her eyes, Ye Zhi is just a slender, sensitive, poorly dressed, obscure and talented bourgeois scholar.
In order to get close to his lover, the descendants of this noble also betrayed his ancestors. In order to prove his loyalty to his lover, 1896, Ye Zhi joined the Irish Revolutionary Organization. Although Ye Zhi gave up a lot of happiness for her lover, she turned a blind eye to compliments from other women and tried to adapt to this radical and barbaric revolution step by step. However, Ryder Gunn does not agree with this. /kloc-one day in 0/903, Ryder Gunn betrayed her promise to Ye Zhi and married Major McBride, the leader of the Irish autonomy movement. After hearing the news, Ye Zhi wrote "Cold Sky" that day: I suddenly saw a cold white-billed crow in full bloom in the sky.
It seems that ice is burning there, and ice is not just ice.
So fantasy and emotion drive people crazy.
This idea or that idea, each one is insignificant.
All have disappeared, and the only thing left is the blood of youth.
Seasonal memories together, long-lost love.
I blame him for all my feelings and reasons.
Finally, I let out a cry, trembling all over, and kept shaking.
The whole body is penetrated by light! When ghosts start to speed up their steps
The chaos of death is over, isn't it?
As punishment, being left naked on the road—
As this book says, hit by the injustice in the sky? 1965438+The Easter Worker Uprising on April 24th, 2006 was an important event in the Irish national independence struggle. In May, uprising leaders, including Ryder Gang's husband and other dignitaries, were executed by the British. Afterwards, Yeats proposed to Ryder Gunn again with Don Quixote's stubbornness, but was rejected again.
In constant fantasy disappointment, in 19 17, Ye Zhi turned to propose to Isabel, the illegitimate daughter of Ryder Gunn, and was rejected, although this rejection was not easy for Isabel. /kloc-at the age of 0/9, Ryder Gunn gave birth to an illegitimate child with an elderly politician, Lv Xian Millavoy, but died at the age of two. In order to bring his son back to life, Ryder Gunn had sex with Millavoy's son in the cemetery and gave birth to his daughter Isabel. Although Ledegang once pointed this out to Ye Zhi, and although Ye Zhi was struck by lightning, in his heart, his lover will always be a pure goddess. Even if she made a mistake and was unfaithful, it was not the fault of the goddess.
19 17 At the beginning of this year, Ye Zhi purchased an ancient pagoda and renovated it, naming it Balita. In his later years, Ye Zhi lived in this tall tower, staring at the rising twilight in Ran Ran with muddy eyes and watching Bai Niao frolicking on the water. Does he still want that man to turn around and look back? Although he married the writer George Hyde Lise at the age of 53, the yearning for Ryder Gunn still torments this sentimental and sensitive soul. Just like this song "Deep Vows":
Because you didn't keep that deep oath,
Others will fall in love with me;
But every time, when I face death,
When I was asleep,
When I was at the party,
I always meet your face suddenly. When Ryder was 7 1 year-old, she mentioned her lifelong admirer in an interview with John Phillips, a world-famous photographer: "Ye Zhi hopes that drama is art for art's sake, and I hope that drama is propaganda. ..... He is a mature man. "
That's enough. Maybe two people are two parallel lines. Perhaps, Ryder Gunn lacked patience to face Ye Zhi's enthusiasm for Slim, and she rushed straight ahead. This is the footnote of Ye Zhi's life tragedy, and it is also the cause of many human emotional tragedies that have happened, are happening and will happen soon.
In her life, Ye Zhi proposed to Ryder Gunn four times, but she was rejected four times. Nevertheless, Ye Zhi's love for her was lifelong, and the intractable pain filled Ye Zhi's life for a long time. These emotional setbacks are unfortunate for poets, but lucky for our descendants. In Ye Zhi for decades, Rydegang constantly inspired Ye Zhi's creation from various angles; Sometimes it is passionate love, sometimes it is desperate resentment, and more often it is the complex tension between love and hate. Therefore, Ye Zhi left many poems and plays for Ryder Gunn that are still touching today. The most famous is when you are old: when you are old, your head is white, you are sleepy, and you doze off by the fire.
Please write down this poem and read it slowly.
Think back to the tenderness of your eyes in the past,
Recall the heavy shadows of their past; How many people love you when you are young and happy,
Worship your beauty, hypocrisy or sincerity,
Only one person loves your pilgrim soul,
Love the painful wrinkles on your aging face; I hung my head, by the red fire,
Whispering sadly about the passing of love,
On the mountain overhead, it walked slowly.
A face is hidden among a group of stars.
Remember to adopt
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