? It's raining lightly at the airport in the middle of the night, and your laughter is so crisp. You put your palm in a corner, shouted your brother's nickname in the wind, ran a few steps after his car, picked up the big box and threw it into the suitcase. There are old clothes you brought in that box, but you said, "There are so many clothes! Enough to wear for a whole year! "
? That's it. It's full of joy.
? Good boy, you've changed. This book is safe and bright, so it can't be known.
You talked a lot after a long flight. The whole family is asleep, and you don't want to rest. You quietly put on headphones and listen to music.
Fourteen hours later, you wake up and find yourself lying motionless on the floor in the corner of the bed with headphones hanging on your head. This is the first night's sleep after returning home. No dreaming, no tossing and turning, no memory of anyone sleeping, and two sleeping pills beside the bed did not move.
This is always a good start.
? Since you wake up in such a stable world, there is no phone or sound around, so I want to talk to you. I'll tell you before mom Chen realizes you're awake and she hasn't fed you yet. After all, we don't have much time to talk. Beiqi is in Taiwan Province Province, isn't it?
? There is a familiar sound of rain around, falling in your ear. Don't look at the gray wall in the neighbor's back alley outside the window. It doesn't rain there. This is your psychological function. When you go back to China, when you wake up, the rain will come.
We don't want to listen to the rain. It's just the dripping sound of the air conditioner. It won't wet your pillow again, really.
You came back this time, not as a guest. This time is different. You've lived here for a year.
A year is not long?
It can be very long or very short. Are you afraid of being long or short? I guess you are afraid of how much time you have?
For three years, we avoided each other and refused to talk face to face. You talk to everyone, but you dare not tell me.
You avoided me, and I left, and I didn't go looking for you persistently. But now that you have just woken up from a long sleep, and your limbs and brain can't move flexibly, I'll tell you quietly, just once, and I won't say it again, okay?
Of course, this year will be a new year, a new year. Although the Mid-Autumn Festival has not yet passed, we should regard this autumn as the New Year, don't you think?
You don't talk. Three years ago, you died on a bright Mid-Autumn Festival. I haven't forgotten this point. What we are most afraid of from now on is the autumn moon at sea. Now, I tell you, "Let's celebrate the New Year. The weather is cool in autumn and New Year, and it is no longer hot. What's so unhappy about it? "
? Believe me, I have lived like you, not only you, but also me and everyone else, to some extent. Although we have different experiences, different feelings, different growth processes, and everyone's ability to love and vitality can't be measured exactly the same, we all survived, not just you and me, but everyone and all human beings.
We have experienced the past, but we don't know the future. Because we don't know, life is getting more and more magical and beautiful.
Don't ask me about the future! Echo, please leave everything to nature.
Life is a slow process, just like water in summer. We should not be anxious. When we are 30, we should not be anxious about being 50. When we are born, we don't have to expect death. Well, it will come.
I want you to learn to wait for the right time, and I want you to keep working hard and persisting outside of waiting.
Echo, we don't give up anything, including memory. You know, I never wanted you to bury the past. In fact, the past is unnecessary and it is impossible to give up from life. Today, including a look, is it not the shadow caused by the overlap of past lives?
Speaking of which, you smiled at me, so calm. I don't know what you are thinking. Maybe you didn't think about anything. You just woke up from a tired rest, so you smiled and looked a little fuzzy.
If you believe that your life is a wildfire that has never completely burned them, and they are tall again in the spring breeze, please tell me that you have been released from the past if you really want to start all over again and live your life sincerely.
Release, not forget the past.
Now, when you talk, you tell me with a smile that sadness can be repaid in installments, if you can't afford it all at once.
I tell you, sometimes, I want you to say, sometimes, we should be hard on ourselves and not indulge our sadness. Sometimes we have to be hard on the people we love, and put aside love, responsibility and memory.
? Because each of us is a unique individual, we have the obligation to shoulder the responsibility for our own life.
? The first element of this responsibility, Echo, is the joy of life. Take this step and pick other responsibilities!
? I believe that what burns a person's soul is the love of life, and that is death.
No one really knows the limits of his crazy love for life. The limit is not determined by us, but is extracted from the constant exploration of life experience.
If you don't love life and value yourself, then all the vitality will not come, Echo, do you understand?
Believe in life and time! If time can take away the pain, then we don't have to feel guilty, let it take away! What you can't take away is naturally rooted in your heart, so you don't have to force it.
Life is beautiful, with twists and turns, and there will always be different scenery ahead.
I tell you quietly, Echo, people all over the world like to watch tragedies, but they just watch the plays. If your tragedy comes true, they will not only watch it, but also throw soda bottles at you. If you are smart, put down the curtains and don't show them to anyone, not even a hair, let alone anything else.
Then you might as well stop crying behind the scenes, because you won't show it to yourself, okay?
? Although I didn't know you very well for many years, I always thought you were a person with great potential, which I think you know better than me.
However, potential does not guarantee that you will experience all the hardships in the future. What's more, you've only been gone for half your life.
? In our past relationship, what happened for the first time, you don't all think it is the limit of your own pain, and you can't suffer any more.
? Then, the second time, you think this is the end of life, and this time it hurts even more. Yes, your wounds again and again are actually treated by time. Although you spend more and more time, you live well.
? After the cure, you became a new person. When you came, you couldn't turn back, but on the way to the future, you came out unconsciously. All this is homework and fairness.
? However, I am not who I used to be.
? Why do you want to be yourself? Can you still be the same as last second? Just ask the dying cells in your body!
? Every rebirth is a new person. This new person, better equipped than the previous soft shell, will have greater strength to endure the pain.
? Maybe it sounds terrible when I say this, and it's hard to imagine whether I will experience a bigger blow in the future. Echo, when you listen to me, you just laugh silently. You have grown up a lot. You understand, wait, prepare, and be fearless, don't you?
This is a new year, and you are facing a brand-new environment. This is your familiar and unfamiliar China. Echo, don't be too careless China is complicated. You said, you deal with it, you know how to solve it, you are not angry, you are not disappointed. However, don't forget that you love it, which is your achilles heel. Your loved ones, people, family and country have all hurt you, because under this premise, you simply refuse to defend yourself.
Every time I go back to China, I struggle with excessive tension and refuse to take protective measures to be true to you and simple to you.
? You are grateful, you are nostalgic, and you are weak at home. It is precisely because you can't forget the endless hands of sympathy and care that you have extended to you, and you expect yourself to be crushed to repay these kindness. Finally, you forget that you are only flesh and blood. There is a limit to the return of love, but your love is not enough to be all the lotus flowers.
Echo, your Chinese name is not very good. My father called you Ping. You don't love this word. That's actually the word you see today. You can accept such a suitable name with confidence! Including unrequited love, let it be paid by heaven and earth for you. Do your best, don't force it, okay.
? I know you should be more and more stable. Like everyone else, I dare not expect to help you. I believe that your need for life is definitely not a miracle that fell from the sky. All you want is a support of confidence, so that you can walk more easily on the unstable mountain road in the future.
You wake up here, quietly awake, without even moving your eyes. Next to you, there is a table. On the desk, there is a telephone-the thing you are most afraid of. Next to the phone, there are two bags of mail, which you saved before going abroad and have not been opened. These things will become a part of you from the first day you wake up completely and put into life, and will always be on your shoulders.
? It is these that make you unhappy and make you escape again and again.
? Son, you forgot one sentence, at least when you return to China: it is courage to insist on what you should do and courage to insist on what you shouldn't do. Apart from a sincere sense of society, you have no reason to pay too much for fear of breaking other people's hearts. In fact, you underestimate others, because others will not be hurt by your refusal, because they are better than you.
? Echo, many times, you are depressed because you can't meet the requirements of all the people around you who love you, but you forget that your biggest task is life.
? Although everything around you has influenced you at an appropriate time, and through this medium, you have also let people around you know their desires and needs from you, but you have forgotten one sentence-in your life, you are your own master and you are the protagonist.
? For other people's lives, at best, we are only a hint, a little inspiration, which enriches other people's lives in some cases, instead of acting for others' lives beyond our authority-even if others ask, we can't help them in good faith, which is not good for you or others.
Echo, speaking of which, mom's footsteps are approaching, and the first day of your first year in China will begin. We don't have much time. Let me tell you quickly.
? What many people do in their first life is actually to constantly repair their lives. Life would be more interesting if we had a chance to rebuild ourselves besides repairing, wouldn't it?
? Sometimes let yourself be extravagant, concentrate on not living for a few days for the requirements of others, lay a good foundation for yourself first, then discover others and cherish your useful body. One day you can do much more than you do now.
? Besides, it wasn't intentional.
Finally, I hope we all choose to believe that there is goodwill and beauty in this world.
It's good to be a fool all your life.