The college entrance examination ended today. The weather was irritating and sultry throughout the afternoon, but a dark cloud passed by in the evening. Facing the fierce sunshine and strong winds, a storm started. In the cafeteria, I looked at the gloom that God had brought to the college entrance examination students, but my heart felt gloomy and scary. Looking back four years ago, I was in my prime, and it was the same back then. After two tense days of college entrance examination, a rain took away the irritability caused by the college entrance examination, and a brilliant rainbow flashed across the sky just like today. , at that time, it seemed that the future road was full of light, which made people feel happy. That night, I became one of those who stayed awake in the middle of the night. It was an expression of excitement and a feeling of happiness.
The heavy rain I saw today really made me feel so heavy. After four years in college, when I was about to graduate, I looked back on everything in the past, and suddenly I realized that the rain might have just been a brief spell of sunshine. Although I have been happy in the past four years, my sadness has always outweighed my happiness, and now I am even less happy. My four years of sharpening my sword in college has given me a lot of sadness, and sometimes I keep questioning it. Is it right or wrong to follow the choices made by your parents? It took the people around me four years to sharpen a sword, but I felt like "drawing the sword and looking around at a loss". What exactly should I learn to do? Watching the heavy rain pounding on the cafeteria window, it seemed as if the sound kept rising in my heart, and all kinds of sad thoughts kept springing up, causing ripples of sadness.
I am not interested in what I have learned, and I have no interest in the road to take in the future. When my goals were severely deprived by my parents when I was a child, I felt that I had become a puppet, and everything was in vain. They are constantly interpreting what their parents want. I am not interested in my major, which results in me completely losing my positive attitude. No matter how hard it is to have the pride of "I am born with talents, they will be useful", no matter how hard it is to have the mentality of "reducing talents regardless of one style", no matter how hard it is to say "Why don't men bring it?" Wu Gou" ambition, let alone the youthful mentality of the prosperous Tang Dynasty. In this moment of heavy rain, I have the kind of sadness that is different from the literati of the Southern Song Dynasty. I am worried about where my home and country are. I am worried that I do not have the emotion of "seeing all the flowers in Chang'an in one day" .
Once upon a time, I was so envious of the grand blueprint of "collecting the fifty states in Guanshan", but now, the completely different thing is that I have the vicissitudes of life like "sitting up in shock while dying of illness". There is also no goal in life, and in the vast world, there is a feeling that there is no place for this ephemera like myself. I can only ever hate myself, and sigh that "if a young man doesn't work hard, he will be sad when he is old".
I continued to admire the rainy scene outside the window. Although it was very peaceful, I couldn't calm down. It was difficult to choose the path of life. Young people don't know how to worry. The four years of muddling along made me sad. But it also sounded the alarm for me, "If you are proud of life, you must have all the joy, and don't let the golden cup empty to the moon." This can only be achieved when we have the ability, but now we must move forward in a down-to-earth manner, and don't miss anything. A step. There was a crack of thunder in the sky, and I was so shocked that I instantly understood that I was still young and could still fight again. Even if I wasted four years, it was just a joke that people said, and it could be explained by youth and ignorance, but in the future I have to walk my own path. Road, you must listen to what your parents say. After listening, take what is useful and choose your own path instead of blindly obeying them. Maybe you will become a disobedient child in the eyes of your parents, but you have to choose your own path after all.
I stood up and walked out of the cafeteria, facing the wind and rain. Although the wind and rain hit me wantonly, my heart no longer wavered as before, but I firmly walked towards what I wanted. direction to move forward.
Finally, I hope that future college students will choose their own direction, decide the path they want, and be firm in their own choices. No matter what happens in the future, they There is always nothing wrong with the choice you make, it's just about what your heart desires and what you can do with your strength.
I would also like to advise parents, who doesn’t want their children to become dragons and phoenixes, but don’t design too many paths for them, give them their own space to think, and let them make their own choices. Even if there are some detours, they will still have to pay for their efforts on their own path. The efforts made by children are completely different from the efforts put in by their parents on the path pointed out by their parents, and the light that will burst out in the future is also completely different. Taoism emphasizes following one's heart, so let the children have some choices and give them a Their own space and their own life belong to them. Like me, I chose the path pointed out by my parents, but now I feel regretful