She was born with cerebral palsy due to abortion and lack of oxygen, and could not move. 1995, she got married under "non-freestyle love" and was forced by life to marry someone she didn't love.
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About life
"I don't want to opportunistic, don't want to write poetry.
When they step on me, they always make me gasp in pain.
Of course, death is also an opportunistic thing.
When the moon rises,
It moved again. "
In her poems, apart from outstanding literary talent, I see more sadness, despair and bitterness. Happiness that occasionally seems almost childish is the snow in her heart, too white and too close to spring.
I used to think that God is fair to everyone, everyone can get what they want through their own efforts, and everything can be planned, implemented and finally completed.
Later, I found out that this is really the case: if you want to dance well, you must practice hard; Want to lose weight, eat less and exercise more; Read more books if you want to be poetic and conceited.
However, when we gradually come into contact with this society and come into contact with joys and sorrows, we will still find that natural and man-made disasters are inevitable, and everyone has their own difficulties.
In 1988, grandma deshan died. She saw that her father and aunts didn't shed a tear, and she felt that the adults were too cold-blooded. Until the guests dispersed, she saw the whole family crying together. There are many sincere sorrows, all of which are secretly crying behind the crowd, because they cannot be changed and controlled. If you can't understand, at least respect it.
In a work, the most painful thing is the kind and innocent victim. The emperor's decision controls the life and death of ordinary people. People who do wrong may not regret it, but innocent people will be hurt forever.
God is unfair to Yu Xiuhua. She was dragged away by fate, laughed at and bullied since she was a child, and could not have the right to choose her own marriage and self-esteem. Even though her achievements, her fame and her efforts have given her some compensation, I think what she wants most is a normal life.
There are many unfair things in the world, and many innocent lives are sad, painful and even desperate. I think, when you meet stray cats and dogs, if you can't give them food, don't kick them aside; If you meet tramps, beggars and disabled people, it is far more important to give them respect than sympathy and charity.
About love
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? I saw two souls not on the same channel meet. She married a man 19 years older than her, which is another unfairness in love. She once had someone she liked, but she was rejected because of physical defects. She also wanted to have a normal love, but she was rejected because it was unfair.
"But this does not stop it from being violently illuminated by the sun, and the more it shines, the whiter it becomes.
You see, my looks can't please you.
There's nothing that needs your pity.
I like the rust spots on my body.
Not just love you. "
What I read means: I love you very much. My looks can't please you, and neither can your looks. Your pity can only make me feel worse and worse. If I can't get anything, I'd better go with my remaining self-esteem.
She is like a child abandoned by God. She has many unfair things, and occasionally she can't help but see the light, but she doesn't know it.
Since you have suffered injustice, you should try to reduce the disadvantages it brings to yourself. I got it from her to ignore and settle what had happened.
As a healthy and capable person, we can earn everything we want with our hands. Only in this way can we have enough strength and psychological quality to stand beside the person we like, and have enough strength to love others and ourselves.
Calm down before you love others.