I haven't found it for almost a day or two. It is estimated that only TV stations have information. However, it may be useful to find a written message.
On the afternoon of June 15, 2002, Phoenix Chinese Channel was playing "Lu Yu has an appointment to tell your story", and the picture moved slowly in the background music, from the white clouds floating in the sky to an antique bar in Beijing. Here, Mars, a female writer, is talking with Lu Yu, the host of Phoenix TV's Chinese channel. Li Ying told us her story slowly to the camera.
Mars, 39, is still a beautiful woman who makes people shine at the moment. During the conversation, Li Ying's quiet face showed a bitter expression many times and stopped to wipe her eyes several times. But she told her story very firmly. Although she didn't really show her life in those lost years, we can see that her heart was hurt from her narrative. These injuries come not only from the feelings with Gu Cheng, but also from people's long-term incomprehension of her. (This is of course hard to understand. )
Modern poetry was the most popular in the 1980s. People like to read poetry and worship poets, especially the younger generation, who have a fanatical feeling for poetry. Gu Cheng, a Beijinger, is one of the main figures in misty poetry. Together with Shu Ting, Gu Cheng was once rated as the most popular young poet in China. 1987 invited to visit European and American countries. 65438-0988, went to New Zealand and was employed as a researcher in the Department of Asian Languages at the University of Auckland. He finished his 37-year life journey in Riptide Island, leaving a sad love song. This is the story in the early 1990s. For those of us born in the 1970s, we should not be unfamiliar with Gu Cheng's poems. However, due to the early death of the poet, most young people around the age of 20 now don't know who Gu Cheng is, let alone the terrible story that once happened in Rapids Island.
If we ever felt sorry for Gu Cheng, it was because he represented poetry and a spirit. We remember his name not because of his extreme behavior, but because his pure poems touched us. In the poet's short life, he thought that "love is quite unnatural, and love is never natural." The poet died of love. He believes that "death is not a terrible thing. For you, death is the most terrible, so you don't know that there is something more precious than death. " In the poet's mind, what is more precious than life is love.
1979 Gu Cheng and Xie Ye met on the train, and Gu Cheng fell in love with gentle, demure and talented Xie Ye. After they got married, they had the same life circle and friends in Beijing. From 65438 to 0988, Gu Cheng went to New Zealand and lived in Rapids Island, and Xie Ye followed. They have a fat son named auricularia auricula. In life, Gu can't speak English, but only write poems. Gu Cheng said that he was a lonely man, he didn't like the real world, he lived in a space of self, and it was his personality that led to the later tragedy. He wrote in Echo of Nature:
Everything, life and people have their own dreams.
Every dream is a world.
……
I also have my dreams, distant and clear. It is not just a world, it is a paradise above the world.
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If possible, I will be happily lost in the dark.
Gu Cheng is a talented poet with beautiful dreams and romantic feelings. On July 1990, Mars, who loves literature, was invited by Gu Cheng and his wife to bid farewell to Liu Zhanqiu, a lover poet at that time, and came to Riptide Island. From the moment she set foot on Riptide Island, she didn't know what kind of tragic fate she and Gu Cheng and Xie Ye would have. She looked at Gu Cheng with adoring eyes, and then involuntarily intervened in his and Xie Ye's life. Looking back at that time, Mars said that he was in a hypnotic state. She is an emotional person. She doesn't pay attention to any form, so she always feels guilty about Xie Ye.
Xie Ye is also a poet. After she married Gu Cheng, she changed from Gu Cheng (as Gu Cheng likes to call her) to Remy, his eyes, his hands and his feet. Xie Ye helped Gu Cheng put away his clothes and even socks. In his last autobiographical novel Yinger, Gu Cheng also said, "Ray, I love you …" But in his bed with his wife, Gu Cheng had Yinger, and they betrayed Remy when he drove into town to buy things. What kind of person Gu Cheng is! He said he didn't like the real world. He felt that he could not live in a normal society. He plans to build a house for Yinger. He wants to have Remy and Yinger at the same time. He even told Yinger that Remy liked her, too. Gu Cheng lives in her daughter country.
I can't understand their relationship. Two women have a man, and they can live in harmony. Even Xie Ye laughed at what he bought with Remy in a small box, which was very expensive. I feel very sad. How can Xie Ye be so tolerant? Why didn't she leave in time when she found out? I can imagine Xie Ye's mood, where there is a broken and bleeding wound. What I can't understand most is Xie Ye. Doesn't she love Gu Cheng? In many people's minds, loving someone means having him or her completely. But Xie Ye knew the relationship between Gu Cheng and Yinger, and told Gu Cheng that Yinger might be pregnant, so I would help her.
Gu Cheng said that he had two generations of love, his wife's and Yinger's in the same world. Perhaps a long time ago, men always dreamed of having wives and concubines. But usually women can't stand it. "Ray, I'm so emotional with you. I left the devil. I am with myself, just like being with the devil. " Yinger is regarded as his own life by Gu Cheng.
199 1 year1October, Gu Cheng took Xie Ye to give lectures in Germany. Before leaving, Xie Ye and Li Ying strolled to the seaside and said, "After we leave, you should leave!" ! None of us can live like this. "Li Ying was of course in pain, so she accepted the proposal of John, a New Zealander. 1993 Gu Cheng returned to Riptide Island and found that Li Ying had disappeared. He was in great pain. As a man, he can't accept this reality. He said his life was taken away by Yinger. Although the Iraqis said, "Eiko still loves you, and you are her life, that's why. She wants to leave you. "However, attend to city or wandering in the state of madness again and again, he knew he was going to die.
And Xie Ye may also want to leave Gu Cheng at this time, which further stimulated the poet. It is natural for Gu Cheng to have another woman in his wife's bed, but Yinger can't be with other men, let alone his wife! Besides, poets value love more than life. The poet once lost two women, a wife and a lover. He has nothing but hysterical anger and an axe in his hand. 1June 8, 993, the poet raised his axe and waved it at his wife. Remy fell in a pool of blood and Gu Cheng hanged himself.
Tragedy happened. Who is the culprit? Is it Yongri? Is it Xie Ye? Or the poet Gu Cheng? Yinger is not dead, but those sad memories, like tree rings, are engraved on her body, and the years cannot be erased. ...
For Gu Cheng, Xie Ye and Li Ying, they are all tragedies. The two protagonists in the story, Gu Cheng and Xie Ye, are no longer in this world. Only Li Ying is still alive, but she also died after killing her wife and hanging herself in the ancient city. After the death of Mr. and Mrs. Gu Cheng, Li Ying lived in pain for a long time. She couldn't believe what happened on Rapids Island was true. She said that the time when she lived on the island was simply a fairy tale, and it was certainly not a beautiful fairy tale. Her seclusion is just a way of life, but it is actually an escape way that she dare not face herself.
1994, the poet Liu Zhanqiu went to Sydney to meet Li Ying again. Mars began to have a desire to speak. She wrote a short essay "The Disaster of Destiny", and Liu Zhanqiu also wrote "A Talk Before Dawn". Published in the newspaper. Li Ying reviewed the story for the first time, and then wrote "Lost Soul Riptide Island", which was written from her own point of view. Therefore, after publication, she was criticized by the public, thinking that death tells no tales, and she was talking to herself. Li Ying disappeared from people's sight again. However, she appeared again. This time, she launched Love Yi Meier and participated in the signature activities of the release. She finally stood up bravely and faced the story that happened. At this time, she really walked out of the black hole of the soul and embarked on the right track of life.
Mars said that she is an emotional person. In her life, she has many feelings. She is most grateful that after all this, the poet Liu Zhanqiu is still with her. Li Ying said that she is very happy now because she has a precious feeling. I hope this woman who has experienced hardships can feel this happiness forever! "Those who drag out an ignoble existence are dead!" Tragedy happened, which is a fact that no one can change. As Eiko, she is also a tragic figure and should not bury herself like this.
I remember the first time I finished reading Yinger, I was shocked because I couldn't understand it. Reading this book now still feels heavy. I can't judge whether they are right or wrong with sober reason. A friend once told me that Remy is from heaven, Yinger is from earth, and Gu Cheng is from hell. This was originally a different space, but it gathered in the same time and space, colliding with a sad track.
"Life is saturated, and when you think about it page by page, it is longer than life." Gu Cheng wrote in his last autobiographical novel, "Life is publishing books." It's a pity that Gu Cheng's poems and essays are wonderful, but the book Life is a failure!