Yu Xiuhua, a famous poetess with cerebral palsy who has been silent for a long time, was searched for many times in two months because of her foul language, and even was named "Keyboard Man's nemesis" and "Fighting Poet" by netizens.
The reason is that Yu Xiuhua unscrupulously confessed to the singer Li Jian on the Weibo, which caused some netizens' dissatisfaction. And attacked her physical disability with harsh words, she went back angrily and even used rude words without stint.
Some netizens euphemistically advised her that it is good to be clear in her heart, which will bring trouble to the parties. Never thought, Yu Xiuhua directly responded to netizens' self-affectation by swearing.
Her desires can always be cut naked and shouted openly without any shyness. This is not the first time that Yu Xiuhua has scolded her netizens. Whenever a "bully" verbally insults her, she always jumps out and sincerely insults each other.
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At birth, due to abortion and lack of oxygen, cerebral palsy, slurred speech and occasional drooling are inconvenient. Everyone in the village said that she had committed a crime in her last life and had come to pay her debts in this life.
She hates this statement, but she can't change the eyes of the outside world. Even her parents don't think she deserves to be loved.
At the age of 19, her parents decided to marry 32-year-old poor Yin Shiping. Yin Shiping, who has no fixed abode, was directly adopted to Yu Xiuhua's home and became a son-in-law.
Yu Xiuhua's most longed-for love was thus shattered. Yin Shiping didn't study. He didn't know what poetry was. He mocked Yu Xiuhua for not only cerebral palsy, but also brain damage and daydreaming. He went whoring, and when he got home, he laughed at Yu Xiuhua for not being interested in women. She is not as good-looking as Miss. When you make love, you only know how to cover your face with a quilt, and you won't wake up. She got excited and directly picked up her hair and hit her head against the wall.
Yu Xiuhua rebelled and ran away, accidentally fell down, and he laughed loudly at the back. Yu Xiuhua is worse than a pig in Yin Shiping.
The pressure of life oppressed Yu Xiuhua from all directions, and Yu Xiuhua had nowhere to pour out his pain, so he could only keep reading and writing poems, and vent his anguish in words.
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In 2009, Yu Xiuhua began to write poems. She refused to accept her fate and had to continue writing. Those painful moments in marriage were recorded by Yu Xiuhua's poems. Love in life, the desire to have nowhere to put it, can only be vented through poetry.
She no longer sleeps with her husband. Every time he asked, she said coldly, "Take the money, 500 once." Her husband left in despair, but she was glad that she was not forced to "engage in prostitution". At the same time, she fantasized about love in poetry: "Come on, let's go to the back hill and put the spring flowers to shame."
The inconvenience of life and emotional problems caused by cerebral palsy continue to merge and erupt, permeating the mutual hatred between body and soul, life and time, and the mutual hatred between individuals and the whole world. Poetry became his sustenance and emotional outlet.
No matter what others say, Yu Xiuhua has always insisted. She laughed at herself in a circle of friends and said, "Hum, my aunt writes poems by herself, and I try my best to write as well as possible." Forty minutes later, she wrote on her blog, "Thank you to everyone who passed by me, and thank you for your warm encouragement."
20 14, 10 In June, she wrote a love poem "Going to sleep with you through more than half of China", which became famous overnight. In June165438+1October of the same year, Yu Xiuhua Poetry Magazine published her poems. After that, she was known by more and more people, and Yu Xiuhua felt the long-lost recognition and respect in her life. She didn't want to put up with her old life any more and offered to divorce her husband.
At this time, her husband, Yin Shiping, thought that Yu Xiuhua was rich, so he resolutely refused to agree to divorce. Parents disagree.
Until Yu Xiuhua's mother got cancer, Yu Xiuhua asked her husband to take care of her for a few days, but her husband smiled and talked to her about the conditions: "Give money, according to the long working hours." Yu Xiuhua flew into a rage and said directly on the phone, "Divorce! I will give you 1.5 million when I come back today, and only give you 1 10,000 when I come back tomorrow. "
Yin Shiping immediately came back for a divorce, and took away most of the property that Yu Xiuhua earned by writing books. From then on, Yu Xiuhua never thought about getting married again, saying that he was not suitable for marriage. She said: Love is far away from me, so I have so much sadness.
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Some people say that Yu Xiuhua is a good poet, not "endless homesickness" but "Don Quixote is still challenging the windmill". Yes, Yu Xiuhua really has a valuable and simple understanding of many things in the world. Singer Li Jian said: I like Yu Xiuhua's poems. His poems are organic poems that grow on the land. "Write poetry in the clouds, live in the mud", which is also a sentence I borrowed.
In my opinion, the desire in Yu Xiuhua's poems, however grand and rich, is just a call for unattainable love. Just like she described her life: a flower fades when it is full, but I can't.
When someone asks: Are you willing to exchange your talents and works for your health and beauty? She shook her head and said, no, this life is too vulgar.