What kind of thoughts and feelings does another cloud express?

The necklace reveals the attachment to hometown and relatives. No matter how disappointed, angry and sad, the poet is very aware of the end of his life: "I know that spring is near." Life is coming to an end. What should the poet think? "It is difficult to leave home", why is it difficult for a poet to leave home? It turned out that there was not only national hatred in his mind, but also family hatred. Father was defeated in the uprising and died for his country. And he is the only boy in the family. Defeated by the enemy this time, it is natural to run away, and death is inevitable. In this way, his family is unfortunate and there is no heir. I remember that I have been away from home for many years and failed to be filial to my mother, resulting in my first mother "hiding in an empty door" and my biological mother "parasitizing in another surname". Family members "can't live together, and they can't ask each other when they die." I really mind that I left my new wife alone at home for two years. I didn't fulfill my responsibilities and obligations as a husband. Whether the wife is pregnant is still unknown. Thinking of all this, the poet naturally feels deeply guilty and infinitely attached to his family.