Poetry on the last page of REPUTATION

When she fell, she feel apart.

Cracked her bones on the pavement she once decorated

as a child with sidewalk chalk

When she crashed, her clothes disintegrated and blew away

with the winds that took all of her fair-weather friends

When she crashed, her clothes disintegrated and blew away

She broke her bones on the sidewalk that had been painted with chalk as a child

When she crashed, her clothes were torn and she was gone with all her false friends.

When she looked around, her skin was spattered with ink

forming the words of a thousand voices

Echoes she heard even in her sleep:

"Whatever you say, it is not right."

"Whatever you do, it is not enough."

"Your kindness is fake."

"Your pain is manipulative."

When she looked around, her skin was splattered with ink

A thousand sounds formed that she could hear in her sleep Echoes of:

“No matter what you say is wrong”

“No matter what you do it’s not enough”

“Your kindness is false "

"Your pain is just to control others"

When she lay there on the ground,

She dreamed of time machines and revenge

and a love that was really something,

Not just the idea of ??something.

As she lay on the ground

She dreamed of a time machine And revenge

And a great love

rather than just a concept

When she finally rose, she rose slowly

Avoiding old haunts and sidestepping shiny pennies

Wary of phone calls and promises,

Charmers, dandies and get-love-quick-schemes

She finally slowly Stand up

Be wary of old friends, avoid temptations

Be wary of every call and promise

Charming people, playboys and quick courtship tricks.

When she stood, she stood with a desolate knowingness

Waded out into the dark, wild ocean up to her neck

Bathed in her brokenness

Said a prayer of gratitude for each chink in the armor

she never knew she needed

Standing broad-shouldered next to her

was a love that was really something,

not just the idea of ??something.

She stood, lonely but understood,

flowing into the endless blackness, drowning up to her neck of water,

Drowning in her sorrow

She is grateful for every chink in the armor she never knew she needed

Standing next to her with a shoulder width, it is a real love

not just a concept

When she turned to go home,

She heard the echoes of new words

"May your heart remain breakable

But never by the same hand twice"

And even louder:< /p>

"without your past,

you could never have arrived-

so wondrously and brutally,

By design or some violent, exquisite happenstance

...here"

When she turned to go home

she heard an echo of entirely new words

May your heart remain fragile

But never let the same person hurt you twice

The echo became louder:

"Without you

You can never be so cruel and beautiful

Out of carefully designed, crude and exquisite accidents

...you got here"

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Let go of the ones who hurt you

Let go of the ones you outgrow

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Let go of the words they hurl your way as you're walking out the door

In this hedge maze of life ( The only thing cut and dry

In this hedge-maze life

Is the fact that their words will cut )

But your tears will dry (but your tears will dry)

Hold on to the faint recognition of you in the eyes of passers-by. recognition in the eye of a stranger)

As it catches you in its lustrous net

Fate makes us doomed to each other (How quickly we become intertwined)

HOW wonderful it is to forget

All the times your intuition failed you< /p>

But it hasn't killed you yet

Hold on to childlike whims

Moonlight and moonlight swims

and your blazing self-respect

Don’t let go of any of these

If you open And if you drive the roads of this town

Ones you've gone down so many times before

Memory Flashback to all the times

Life nearly ran you off the road

But tonight you hold on tight But tonight your hand is steady

Suddenly you'll know

The trick to holding on

Open arms to embrace the world (Was all that letting go)

Goodbye Mr. "Perfectly fine" (Goodbye Mr. "Perfectly fine")

After breaking my heart , is your heart okay? (How's your heart after breakin' mine?)

Goodbye Mr. "Casually cruel" (Goodbye Mr. "Casually cruel")

Goodbye Mr. "Everything" revolves around you")

I've been Miss "Misery" for the last time (I've been Miss "Misery" for the last time)

And you are still the same Mr. "Misery" 're Mr. "Perfectly fine")

You're perfectly fine

2017.11.28

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