"I waved my sleeve and didn't take away a cloud."
"I never take back what I promised you, but from now on, it has no place to store it!"
"I will use my life's energy to pursue my true love, and I am lucky to get it; No, my life! "
"The gentleness of the bow is the most, like a shy lotus that can't be overcome by the cold wind. Take care of it, take care of it, there is sweet sadness in that treasure. Shian Lana. "
"Life is a journey, you don't have to care about the destination, you care about the scenery along the way and the mood of watching the scenery."
I am a cloud in the sky, which occasionally projects into your heart-you don't have to be surprised, let alone happy-and disappears in an instant.
To Xu zhimo
That day, you left quietly. You rode the wind and quietly flew to the endless Yun Shenchu.
From then on, people on the ground can no longer see your smiling face like a spring breeze, taste your innocence like a clear spring, and feel your flame-like feelings.
From then on, you no longer look at the moon in the lonely mountain, you no longer seek dreams in the wind without direction, you no longer bury hope in the dark, and you no longer listen to the sound of your heart falling in silence.
That day, you left quietly.
You have really become a cloud, drifting towards freedom, tranquility and distance. Sure enough, you become a star, heading for the night, heading for glory and heading for eternity.
I don't understand whether fate played a trick on you or you played a trick on fate.
Are you a moth? It embodies all the persistence and enthusiasm of life, just for that gorgeous flame. Are you snowflake? Full of expectations of past lives, just to melt in a warm palm.
Did you shed tears?
In this land full of grass, you should not be a white flower; On this beach, you shouldn't be a crystal pearl; You shouldn't be a bright moon in this starry night sky.
Yes, you are stupid. In this cowardly and mediocre world, there is no room for rainbow-like beautiful dreams. This quiet world can't hold an ideal as beautiful as crystal.
Yes, you shouldn't be crazy. Pure love is like the reflection of the golden willow in the sunset of He Kanghe, which can never be held in the palm of your hand.
But, but why do my tears flow from the softest place in my heart?
I didn't say goodbye to the western clouds. You left. You left quietly.
You are like a gorgeous meteor, which instantly cuts through the dreary sky; You are like a boat, making the calm water lively and beautiful and sinking; You are like a nightingale, soothing countless lonely hearts with songs and sadness.
You are a real poet. You wrote a sad poem with your heart, your feelings and your short life.
Decades later, facing the grave covered with grass, I silently guessed your eyes and your smile.
Did you sleep well? Did you weed the Hekang River as you wished? Do you know that this sky is still the original sky, this pine forest is still the original pine forest, but the world is different, just like the sea has become a mulberry field, and there are no rainbow dreams, no grass flowers with dew, and no stupid people like you.
I looked up and looked at the sky with wet eyes. In the sky, there is a cloud floating leisurely. Is that you?
That must be you, because I heard a voice: "I will look for my only soul mate in the vast sea of people, and I am lucky to get it;" No, my life. That's all. "
Xu Zhimo-Butterfly Dancer
Bing Xin said that Xu Zhimo is a butterfly, not a bee. Yes, Shima is a butterfly.
In the world of poetry, it is a dancing butterfly, light and elegant, clean as jade. With graceful dancing, he danced the same light and elegant lines. Gently dancing sleeves are the most beautiful pictures of human parting, which have been fixed in every tender soul; The gentleness of bowing one's head, like the shyness of a hibiscus emerging from the water, is the pearl shadow of the moment in the world captured by him with the delicate feelings of dancers, and is still gentle with the eyes of parting people. The happy snowflake that would rather "dissolve, dissolve, dissolve/melt into her soft heart" is his dance to love. Modern poetry is more colorful because of Zhimo's dance.
Zhimo is a butterfly, a butterfly burning in love. He burned himself and Lin with fiery poems. The emblem, with beautiful words and amazing appearance, feels the same feeling as his fire, and also warmly welcomes him with fire, allowing him to indulge himself in the April day on earth. But in the end, Hui chose to escape and escape painfully because she was afraid that her life would be burned out by love. Hui chose Liang Sicheng because he left Zhimo, who was burning with passion. Such a choice, for Zhimo, may really be as he said, "Fortunately, fortunately, fortunately, fortunately." So what is it for Yin Hui? Maybe it's fate. If she joins Zhimo, there will be one more poet in China's poetry circle, but a glorious page will be missing in the history of architecture!
Shima is a burning butterfly in the Lu Xiaoman. If he danced beautifully for Yin Hui, he danced heavily for Xiao Man. When love flourishes, Xiaoman, who was once passionate, is also tired. Xiaoman empathizes with others, and Xiaoman is decadent. However, Zhimo still used his burning life to pull Xiaoman through fire and water. For Xiaoman, he traveled between Beijing and Shanghai, and sent all the money he earned in the universities of the two places to Xiaoman to squander, but Xiaoman didn't care much. Zhimo abandoned Xiaoman not because of Xiaoman's illness, but also because Xiaoman used to be good. Shima said that if Xiaoman can forge ahead, which one will not bow, which contains much love and regret! Yes, if Xiaoman really works hard, China will have one more poet and one more painter. However, Xiaoman didn't cherish the happiness gained from his struggle with the secular world, which made the beautiful love and flower of life wither rapidly. So sad!
Zhi Mo said, "Quietly is Xiao Sheng's farewell, and Xia Chong is silent for me. Silence is Cambridge tonight. " Yes, when Zhimo was tired of jumping on the road of love, he really left quietly, silently bidding farewell to the love and hate of the world of mortals for 34 years, without saying a word, only that loud noise saw him off.
Butterflies have a short life span. Although he failed to reap the sweetness like a bee, he sipped the nectar of the world and left a beautiful dance for the world, just like Zhimo. I think he should be very satisfied with these.
Xu zhimo in the forest heart
June 10 is Lin's birthday, which reminds me of a relationship with Xu Zhimo when she was young. After reading her related stories, I deepened my understanding of Xu Zhimo and praised his love. This blog post is to commemorate Lin and Xu Zhimo in her heart.
Zhimo left, hoping to save his life and see more deeds, but he reluctantly left. I came to the end of my life with endless yearning for the forest and longing to listen to lectures on architectural aesthetics. He was born in a hurry and went in a hurry, just like Pushkin, a famous Russian poet, who died young, with the same poetic pride and love. Everything a talented poet does in the world, every step in his life, may have a fate or a mystery, but we can't say much. Even we don't know what kind of hint God gave Shi Ma when he was alive and dead. We just repeated over and over what Shi Ma said before he left: "The plane is very stable. If something happens, it will be my luck." However, the fact is so sudden, incredible and cruel that it is before us. Without even giving us a little warning, a little preparation and a little room for hope, he suddenly broke out from this world and fell into eternal silence.
Death is often not the misfortune of the dead, but the real misfortune of the living. The news suddenly poked Lin's heart like a needle. She doesn't believe that everything in front of her is fate, because Zhimo came to attend her architectural speech and was killed in the air. An unprecedented sense of loneliness made her extremely sad. For the first time, she felt that in the face of the struggle against fate, human strength is weak and wisdom is limited. Otherwise, such a sweet, reasonable, kind, tolerant and compassionate person can't just leave. In her sadness, she firmly believes that Zhimo has entered a new journey with her childlike romantic innocence and her beautiful poetic belief. He went to the distant sky to see the rainbow after the rain, or observed the starry sky in the vast space, and it is very likely to study and understand Einstein's theory of relativity of the Milky Way in space. Maybe there are many things in life that he is very interested in, including art, music, mathematics and so on. However, the most embarrassing thing for Lin is the eternal silence and the dark and painful days when I miss him without any light.
Zhimo, who has been smiling and kind, really left. We lost more than just a friend and a poet. What we have lost is a few lovely people in the world, both at home and abroad. Mo Chi's life was extremely generous and compassionate. Whether he knows or doesn't know his friends, or has rejected people who have abused themselves, as long as he knows that he has emotions, he can show some sympathy rationally. He believes that all kinds of emotional actions of human beings have their own differences, and the eyes of people who magnify value should not be limited to the scope we have delineated. Everything that has come over proves that he is right, but on the other hand, his own life rarely gets people's sympathy. Although Zhimo's contribution to poetry is obvious to all, his interest in life and moral cultivation are criticized from time to time. It is puzzling that a great poet who appeared around 1930s, after receiving the dual education of eastern and western cultures, braved social challenges to fight for his freedom of love, which not only showed extraordinary courage and boldness, but also reflected the personality gathering of Zhimo. What can he do wrong? It's a pity that people don't understand and sympathize. In fact, Zimo is more serious than all of us. His persistent pursuit of Lin love is so pious and stupid! However, he had his own views on the importance. Lin's common literary hobbies and artistic feelings made him break away from the secular principles and urged him to get rid of the shackles of feudal marriage and seek a free marriage. This is Zhimo, and only Zhimo can do this so-called "violation of China's ethics". In fact, what he did was a breakthrough in the feudal concept of marriage in the East and an attempt at the modern new concept of marriage. Although he can't get people's sympathy repeatedly, his infatuation has never changed, but he is more enthusiastic and naive than us living people, and believes in everything, including spirit, people, spirit, nature and art!
After more than half a century of wind and rain, Lin and Xu Zhimo's emotional aura is brighter than ever. This is because Xu Zhimo is the representative of talented women poets in that era, and Lin is strange girl, who Hu Shi called "the first talented woman in China". If literature and architecture are regarded as a whole of Lin's life, then losing Xu Zhimo is undoubtedly losing half of her literature. Therefore, in this sense, the relationship between Lin and Xu Zhimo is far beyond the atmosphere of love and friendship, but a higher level of tacit understanding.
Zhimo's departure is the eternal pain in Lin's heart. For the sake of eternal yearning, Lin wrote an immortal essay "Mourning Xu Zhimo", which is the truest portrayal of Lin's feelings for Xu Zhimo and the most brilliant work in her life. Full of love and admiration for Xu Zhimo, it fully summarizes Xu Zhimo's life and shows us that vivid history and a real Xu Zhimo, his great personality. I admire Lin's talent, her career and her eyesight. I love Xu Zhimo in her heart!
Xu Zhimo, deep in the dust, is full of sadness.
Xu Zhimo is regarded as a tragedy, and most of his tragedies are attributed to his untimely death.
The end of life is undoubtedly the greatest misfortune. A romantic poet ended his short and legendary life in the air. This unique and final death is so shocking that it still deeply impacts people's hearts many years later.
But I don't think his tragedy is because of his 35-year-old life I even think he will give a praise to life when the plane hits the ground and smoke is everywhere. Although, in his romantic thoughts, there may be too many lingering concerns.
As a poet and a scholar studying in Europe, Xu Zhimo was deeply influenced by western humanitarianism at that time. Humanism seems to be a sharp sword, which makes him gallop in the north and south of China, crisscrossing his youth. He is the perfect combination of idealism and romanticism, aestheticism and humanism. He catered to the poet's soul full of spirituality, fantasy, aestheticism and romance.
This is also an important reason why Xu Zhimo, an early youth, was so passionate. At this time, the poet's poems are bright and fiery, full of fighting horns. As he wrote in "Looking for a Star", "I rushed into this dark night to look for a star; In order to find a star, I rushed into this dark wilderness ... this time, the sky shone like crystal! " In the 1920s, humanitarianism gradually rose in the West, humanity and humanitarianism gradually recovered in China, and the May 4th New Culture advocated democracy, freedom and human liberation. At this time, Xu Zhimo was not satisfied with studying at Peking University, and then turned to Europe and America. At this time, the poet is pregnant with the great ideals of "saving the country", "rejuvenating the country", "rejuvenating the people" and "establishing the people". At this time, Xu Zhimo is passionate, "lively, romantic and humorous." His poetic style is romantic, beautiful, gorgeous and exaggerated, and his statements are like waterfalls and streams, and his strong feelings are irresistible.
192 1 year-old 16-year-old Lin, "gorgeous as a flower" met Xu Zhimo unexpectedly in the romantic foggy city of Cambridge. The flower produced by this wonderful pen is brilliant, pure as snow and beautiful as the bright moon among flowers, which ignites the brightest, sunniest and brightest desire and ideal fire in the poet's life. Lin's beautiful face, fluttering like cherry blossoms, conforms to the poet's definition of the most perfect and mellow love. In the poet's 24-year-old youth, Lin undoubtedly appeared as a fairy sister coming to the world, which was earth-shattering and thrilling. A perfectionist poet who only wants romance can no longer refuse the irresistible charm of this beautiful and naive girl who is both internal and external.
He fell into endless love, like a prisoner trapped in love, unable to extricate himself. Although the poet at that time had his first wife, Zhang Youyi, Lin Zi also had a man she could not leave behind in her life, Liang Siqi, the son of Liang Qichao, Xu Zhimo's mentor.
That exotic romantic love became an indelible classic in the history of literature. In the end, they lived far apart and missed the end of holding hands, which also made Xu Zhimo feel great sadness all his life until the final bell rang.
Although Xu Zhimo later fell madly in love with Lu Xiaoman, choking with love and desperate, I always thought that in the poet's short romantic life full of tragedy, only one woman was his favorite, and that was the painful and sad past that he had to cherish, care, think and forget all his life, and that was the Woods.
The love that finally ran aground in the gentle waves of He Kanghe is a pain that the poet can't let go of all his life. The poet's almost irrational love for Lu Xiaoman is precisely the truest portrayal of his blood drop, and he transferred all his love for the woods to Lu Xiaoman. The poem Ai Za, which he soaked with painstaking efforts and tears, is not so much written for Lu Xiaoman, but I prefer to think that it is written for his dream lover Lin.
Fragmented love directly affects Xu Zhimo's mood and creative style. He experienced the transformation from primitive passion full of the fighting spirit of the May 4th Movement to lingering love. Compared with his previous works, his social significance has been weakened, he lost his enterprising spirit and revealed more melancholy feelings.
1922, Xu Zhimo, who was ordered to marry Liang Siqi after returning from the woods, was torn to pieces by love and ended his study abroad career.
In his sentimental but gloomy years, another woman, Lu Xiaoman, burned her heart like a winter fire.
In his love letter to Lu Xiaoman, he wrote: "Even if Mei's heart changes one day (I can't imagine it) and you don't love me anymore, it will be like a lotus flower, and all my blood will flow out of these holes." In the following letter, he wrote: "But what I want to know most is, May, am I absolutely necessary for you?" The poet's passionate love jumped from the page and was vividly portrayed. Today, it still makes people feel surging, and there is an irresistible strong heart.
I can't say that Xu Zhimo doesn't love Lu Xiaoman at this time. Lu Xiaoman's gorgeous temperament can deeply touch the poet's romantic feelings, but I prefer to think that Lu Xiaoman filled Xu Zhimo's unfathomable sadness and loneliness after he left the Woods.
The deeper you love, the more painful it is. Who can understand the poet's heart that is still bleeding with love and pain? Who can understand that only one woman, from beginning to end, has been deeply occupying the softest corner of the poet's heart, stubbornly spreading the helplessness of love into a bloody mountain and river throughout her life?
When the passion of love gradually faded, when Xu Zhimo's fantasy of love in the Woods was like a rainbow on the horizon, it finally disappeared after the storm, and when the former angel Lu Xiaoman finally betrayed the poet's love like the blood of the sun and moved on, his humanitarian ideal was blocked in China at that time, and the China revolution at that time was also at a low ebb. A poet who cares about the world but is beautiful and affectionate collapsed, and his ideal building could no longer bear it. The poet's thoughts and feelings have become decadent. He wrote in his poem: "Why are you haggard everywhere? It is not easy to live these days! It's not easy to live these days! " He wrote in the poem "Can Chun": "The wind and rain outside the window reported the fate of Can Chun, and the sound like the death knell sounded in the dark. The flowers in your life bottle have also changed. Who will receive the gorgeous body? " The poet's disillusionment and despair of love can be seen from I don't know where the wind blows: "I don't know where the wind blows, I am in a dream, her guilt, my sadness." I don't know which direction the wind is blowing. I am in a dream, and my heart is broken in the sadness in my dream! I don't know which direction the wind is blowing. I am in a dream, and darkness is the glory in my dream. " The poet's helplessness, wandering and sadness are all manifested in the form of singing and sighing.
Therefore, I insist that when Xu Zhimo's poetry moved from passion to melancholy or even decadence, his poetic expression reached a peak, and he pushed the crescent poetry school he founded to a new height, which had a far-reaching impact on later poetry.
193 1 one morning, 35-year-old Xu zhimo said goodbye to Lu Xiaoman. In order to make a living and earn enough money for opium smoking and extravagant living expenses, Lu Xiaoman had to teach in Peking University at the invitation of Hu Shi.
It was a cold winter, and the ice age of that season was as long as the ice age of the poet's mind. There was a faint sunshine that morning, and plum blossoms bloomed quietly that morning. Xu Zhimo, who is romantic and beautiful but extremely sad inside, looks at the sky in Liao Kuo outside the cabin. What is he thinking at the moment, the forest that once made his soul tremble? Or betray love and his wife now?
He wants to be beautiful all his life, but why does he get only a dress that looks gorgeous but is as light as a dream?
When the swan song of life is at the moment of crackle, does the poet groan in pain or praise happily?
I seem to hear the poet singing: "when I die, dear, don't sing sad songs for me;" I don't need roses or cypresses on my grave; Let my green grass be covered with rain and dew; Please remember me if you like, and forget me if you like. /I will never see the shade of the earth again, and I will never feel the sweetness of rain and dew again; I can no longer hear the nightingale's voice, and I pour out my sad tears in the dark; Lost in the long twilight, the sun does not rise and does not need to fade; I may, maybe I remember you, I may, I may forget. "
My dear poet, I am a romantic, beautiful and sad poet. Did you cry when you sang such a poem? Tonight, when I read such a sad poem again, my eyes gradually moistened and my screen blurred.
I can't sleep tonight. I'm reading your romantic poems. I'm thinking about your thrilling but bloody love from afar.
There is a dead silence outside the window and a sad Bruce inside.
My dear poet, in the deepest part of the dust, in my lonely waiting in the morning, you came from that distant winter, just like a slowly flowing blues.
Blues, melancholy, romantic, but beautiful through time and space, endless echo.
"The gentleness of the bow is the most, like a shy hibiscus out of water, which is overwhelmed by the cool breeze. Take care, take care, there is sweet sadness in that treasure-"
Approaching Xu zhimo
On the autumn morning, looking from the balcony, a pale green drifts across the distant Qingshi Road. Looking closely, it turned out to be a young woman passing by. The slender and light figure was like a water dragonfly suddenly standing on a lotus leaf on a calm lake. I can't help but think of that well-known poem: "The gentlest bow is like the shyness of a lotus, and the cool wind can't blow it down." It says treasure, treasure, and there is sweet sadness in that treasure. "
I admire him very much, not only because of his poems, but also because of his unruly temperament. That kind of affection is not accidental, but the release of freedom in his heart. He is romantic, has a special understanding of life, likes to accept his romance and loneliness in words, and admires his affection. This struggler who truly realized his ideal spent all his years transcending the world. He is not only talented, but also affectionate.
He has been pursuing "love, freedom and beauty" all his life. He lives for poetry and love! During the twenties and thirties in China, I swam comfortably in the ocean of poetry and wrote the most beautiful poems of China in modern times. After reading his poems, I realized the true meaning of the birth of words. Those profound, wise and elegant poems have fascinated me and made me want to go back.
In fact, the most fascinating thing is his love. His belief in love and freedom doomed his life tragedy. When I was young, I struggled in my marriage as the matchmaker said, and then I met an unforgettable love. A woman named Lin met him in a foreign land in England. True love came, and he was crazy about it. Unfortunately, she is not a passer-by, but a passer-by who haunts his life. They have only one wonderful April legend in the world! Affectionate poet wrote a famous poem: "You and I met in the dark sea, you have yours, I have my direction, you remember, you'd better forget, meeting here is the light that releases each other." The extraordinary woman murmured, "It is a beautiful and wonderful dream to know that this exquisite life dies peacefully." This is the footnote of their love, and this sad love radiates strange light.
At the age of 28, his second love happened. His lover is Lu Xiaoman, a Beijing celebrity, who was later called Xiaomei. At that time, she was a woman. This is an earth-shattering love. The crusade of secular morality made them have nowhere to hide, so they joined hands to face the storm and wrote a declaration of love. "Love, you follow me, let thorns pierce our ankles, let hail break our heads, and you come with me." This time, the emotional poet surpassed himself, and fate fulfilled love.
But a person with a keen sense of life is doomed to encounter misfortune. That little eyebrow is not like the pure beauty in his heart, nor does it cater to the tastes of other literati, so love becomes tangled and hateful. He used to feel dejected and confused, but he comforted himself by saying, "I will guard against looking for my only soul mate in the vast sea of people, and it is my luck to get it;" No, my life; That's all. "This is his explanation of his fate.
At the age of thirty-six, he died in a car accident in Jinan because he went to Lin's lecture. Sure enough, he answered Lin's song: "Linglong was born and died calmly, and this erratic journey is a beautiful dream", just like talking, he left silently!
"I left quietly, just as I came quietly, waving my sleeves and not taking away a cloud." This is a famous sentence handed down from generation to generation in Farewell to Cambridge. He really didn't take anything away, but left everything on earth. His words and feelings, loneliness and confusion, he abandoned his troubles in the world of mortals and flew to a place where he could be given love and freedom. Mr. Hu Shi said: "His life is a symbol of love, and love is his religion and his God." This is the romantic crescent poet Xu Zhimo, a person who really lives for himself and interprets his life with unprecedented pure humanistic beliefs. His beautiful Cambridge is the acme of romance and talent. He made a classic of human poetry!