After traveling through mountains and rivers, we finally arrived at Changlin School. Five or six primary school students came and took away my big and small bags. I suddenly felt like Sun Monkey and was warmly welcomed by the children.
When I walked into my room, it was a bit shabby as expected, but since I had participated in two summer vacation trips to the countryside before, I was not surprised. The most impressive thing is that the principal’s wife, Teacher Huang, personally cooked a bowl of noodles for me. There was no meat or vegetables, but it warmed my heart. This teacher was also a person who had a great influence on me later. From cooking to teaching Chinese, she taught me many things. If I could use one word to describe her, it would be virtuous.
When passing by the classroom, the children cast curious eyes. The principal told me that I teach third grade and gave me a full schedule of classes, including Chinese, English, music, art, and moral character... I just remember a teacher telling me that when it comes to third-grade children, I have to be both cruel and coaxing. I listened in confusion. Some nervousness, some anticipation, some hope...
The weather was sunny on Friday, October 21st
The first time I shed tears
That day, I was in the hospital for the first time Tears were shed in front of the students. Although, looking back now, it seems a little naive and a little unreasonable. However, as Teacher Huang said, new teachers can do it all.
It may have been my menstrual period that day, and my mood was a little unstable. The first two classes were Chinese in my own class. I didn't drink a sip of water and was a little tired. After class, I hurriedly copied the lyrics, because the last class was a music class for the third and fourth grade students.
When it was time for music class, the children were chirping, well, this is not the first time. But when I saw two students doing homework, I suddenly became emotional. I feel like I have worked so hard and can’t even get their respect. Okay, maybe I did the same thing when I was a kid. I also divided the courses into main subjects and minor subjects (to be precise, they were divided by the school), and I also did my homework in the class of the minor subject teacher. However, what happened to me at that moment was... It’s full of grievance! Tears welled up, but I held back and did not shed them. However, some students still saw it.
I know that now, if something like this happens to me again, I will never cry. Looking back, I picked up my young shells. My heart was sweet and sour...
The weather was sunny on Monday, November 7
After the mid-term exam
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The midterm exam results are out. Our class’s Chinese score is very, very poor: the average score is 51, which is probably the worst score in the school. To be honest, it hit me hard. Made me very, very self-doubt.
I used to be quite confident in myself as a teacher. Because I have taught some mental health classes, most of the responses have been okay. I think I am humorous, creative and popular among students. Now, the midterm exam forces me to reflect on myself again and again.
Actually, now, looking beyond the situation at that time, many of the problems are indeed my own. From the perspective of teaching methods, my Chinese teaching is very immature due to lack of experience.
The basic knowledge of students is not strict enough, and they read less texts... However, the most important thing is my own attitude. Because of my own fight for postgraduate study, I lived in uncertainty. I was very anxious every day and was unable to fulfill my responsibilities as a teacher wholeheartedly. To put it bluntly, I was a little distracted. However, after the midterm exam, my own affairs are almost settled, and I have to wake up and reflect on my own problems! Wow, what a “rebirth”!
I constantly consult with other teachers and try my best to constantly revise and improve my teaching. I don’t know whether I am suitable for teaching or whether I am suitable for teaching Chinese. However, I will try my best to do this well. Semester Responsibilities.
The weather is sunny on Thursday, November 24th
Confusion about the meaning of internship
Sometimes I think about my internship. First, I have tried hard to adapt, learn to cook, and learn to teach. .
What I think about every day is, how can I teach better? My cooking went wrong this time. How can I avoid the same problem next time? But as I gradually adapted, I began to worry about new questions: Why did I choose to live such an empty life?
Yes, I don’t know what other interns think, but living in the mountains and forests, we can’t access the Internet, and our living circle is very small. Every time after school, we take a walk and return to the dormitory, because the classes are all busy. I prepared it during my free time and could only watch TV. I feel empty and suffocatingly empty. On the other hand, I hate myself for being so depraved. Since I'm already insured, I don't have to worry about work. And the graduate students in the school went to Beijing one after another to get busy, or started working on some projects at China Normal University to prepare for their graduation thesis. I feel that I am far away from academics and scientific research, and far away from my peers. I was alone, blaming myself for my depravity, and questioning why I chose to come here.
My roommate works hard every day because he is preparing for job fair interviews and some exams, which makes me blame myself even more. I feel that I am far behind others. What's the point of me coming here? If I don't teach in the future, will I waste my youth?
Sunny, Saturday, November 26
Discussing primary school class management from the perspective of behavior modification
Now that I think about it, primary education and psychology are closely linked, especially in the In terms of behavior modification.
Behavior modification is a field of psychology that involves the analysis and modification of human behavior. Problem behaviors exposed by students require the application of some important basic principles in behavior modification: reinforcement, extinction, punishment, etc., so that bad behaviors can be corrected and good conduct can be shaped.
1. Problem Behaviors
(1) Poor class discipline, speaking indiscriminately, and not sitting properly.
This third grade class has many bad habits during class. They did not raise their hands when speaking, and spoke to each other without the teacher's permission. Although they actively answered questions, the class was noisy and always forced the teacher to increase the volume. And students are more dependent on teachers. For example, when I ask them to take notes, someone will always ask, "Teacher, which pen should I use to write?" "Teacher, where should I write?" and other naive questions. Everyone also likes to complain during class. Although it serves a supervisory function, my lecture ideas are often disrupted. There are a few children who like to stand in class. It may be because the benches are uncomfortable, so they stand up unknowingly while listening to the class, or they sit there with their legs awkwardly crossed, making them unable to sit down.
During lunch break, the teacher takes a break and the students study by themselves in the class. The discipline of our class is very poor. When I come in the afternoon, I always receive a long list of people who talk nonsense from the class monitor and the students on duty who are in charge of discipline. There were only a dozen people in the class, and only three or four people survived. Classroom discipline is my number one headache.
(2) Failure to complete homework on time and independently.
The problem of not handing in homework on time should be relatively common, and every teacher should face it. In addition, there is also the phenomenon of not completing homework independently, such as plagiarism in essays. Since the third grade is the beginning stage of composition, there is a transition from picture composition to proposition composition. Some students struggle with compositions, so they plagiarize when writing weekly diaries. Although copying compositions is also a kind of learning and is conducive to imitation, the issue of plagiarism involves integrity education and cannot be ignored.
(3) Not polite and disrespectful to the teacher. Fighting, bullying of young children, lack of unity among classmates.
Children in this class do not have a strong sense of politeness. For example, they do not say hello to the teacher; they speak casually during class and interrupt the teacher's speech; they enter the classroom during class or the teacher's office and barge in directly without shouting a report. ; Not knowing polite language when talking to the teacher, etc. A few naughty boys in the class would get into fights from time to time, although most of the time they were caused by joking, and sometimes they were bullying the children in the lower grades. There is no unity among the classmates. They often come to my place to make small reports and make fun of classmates with poor grades. Clearly, effective moral education is urgent.
(4) Failure to abide by school rules and disciplines, such as bringing toys into the classroom.
We do not allow students to bring toys into school to prevent them from playing during class.
For some children whose families are slightly affluent, their parents will give them some pocket money, and these students will buy snacks and toys to bring to class.
2. Correction strategies and effect analysis of problem behaviors
(1) Maintenance of classroom discipline: from reprimand to reward
Regarding the maintenance of classroom discipline, like Like all new trainee teachers, at first I always reprimanded loudly in class, or even got angry. However, although the students were quiet at that time, I soon found that the time for students to be quiet became shorter and shorter, and the teacher was very tired and emotionally vulnerable. Influence. The same is true for the phenomenon of talking randomly and failing to sit still. The teacher said it but the students refused to change it despite repeated instructions.
Later I started to try rewards. I would select five "Discipline Stars" every week. Those who spoke randomly in class, had poor discipline during lunch break, or did not submit their homework on time would not be selected. Those who were selected would receive small prizes. As a result, after a few weeks, the low-cost small prizes did play a certain role. More people raised their hands to speak in class, and the "long list" finally changed from more than ten people to three or four people.
The reinforcement principle in psychology is used here. Reinforcement is the process by which a behavior is reinforced by an immediate consequence that immediately follows it, that is, it makes the behavior more likely to occur again in the future. Reinforcement includes positive reinforcement and negative reinforcement [1]. For example, for students who abide by classroom disciplines, the "Discipline Star" serves as a positive reinforcement; for students who received the "Discipline Star" last time and then spoke randomly or violated discipline in other ways, they will not be selected. Therefore, Increasing the disciplined behavior of these students acts as a negative reinforcement.
(2) Reduce the phenomenon of not turning in homework: Punishment should also "drug people"
Of course, teachers hate the phenomenon of not turning in homework, and sometimes they are helpless. There is a fat boy in my class. He is not stupid, but his grades continued to decline for a period of time. Later, his scores in the three subjects of Chinese, Mathematics, and Foreign Languages ??were stuck in the 40s and 50s several times. He often failed to complete his homework and was late in the morning. . He was called into the office by the math teacher and I for countless training sessions. Has rebuke become an ineffective punishment?
This involves a common misunderstanding about punishment. In fact, the definition of punishment in psychology is functional, that is, you cannot define punishment in terms of whether the consequences of a behavior appear to be unpleasant or aversive—you can only do so if future behavior is actually reduced. concluded that this was punishment [1]. Therefore, punishment is based on effects. For example, for the boy mentioned above, reprimanding does not actually constitute punishment for him.
Later one time, he failed to do his homework again. The math teacher and I were very angry and decided to visit his home. We got to know each other briefly at his home and didn't sit there for too long. But he was so scared that he never failed to turn in an assignment again. It seems that the home visit is an effective punishment for him.
(3) The shaping of polite behavior: the extinction of bad behavior
Like reinforcement and punishment, the extinction of behavior is also a basic principle of behavior. Extinction occurs when a previously reinforced (encouraged) behavior no longer leads to a reinforcing outcome. For example, when dealing with student discipline issues mentioned above, there are still some naughty students who interrupt the teacher at will without raising their hands. I later realized that I had mishandled the issue: I always turned my attention to him, answered his questions, and then scolded him for the behavior. In other words, non-compliance can gain the teacher's attention (albeit with mild criticism and a gentle pat on the shoulder), so it is likely that they are reinforced by another form of "reward". In order to eliminate this "encouraged" behavior by me, I pretended not to hear them when they did not raise their hands to speak, and asked other students who raised their hands obediently. As a result, this behavior gradually decreased. Of course, polite behavior itself involves every detail. When getting along with students, you need to pay attention to their polite education at all times, strengthen their awareness of respect for teachers, and sometimes give appropriate praise and punishment. Politeness is a very important part of moral education. It is also an important part of the application of behavior modification in primary education.
(4) Use confiscated items wisely: use their own things to make prizes
For things that violate regulations, teachers usually confiscate them and then return them to them after a period of time. . In fact, confiscated things can also be used as incentives (in psychology, reinforcements). For example, for different students, trading with them how many points they can get in stage exams and mid-term exams can take back their beloved yo-yo, which may indeed improve their grades. In fact, primary school students' learning motivation is relatively external, so rewards are king.
The above are some of my thoughts on the education of primary school students since my internship from a psychological perspective. There may be some tests of immaturity, idealism, and lack of experience, but the path of reflection will not stop. "Practice is the only criterion for testing truth." I will continue to explore in practice and learn from experienced teachers.
Wednesday, November 30, the weather is sunny
Internship and Growth
In fact, I have never stopped questioning the meaning of internship. I think "meaning" and "function" are not the same. The latter is more utilitarian.
I spend all day in the world of children, filled with joys and sorrows. I believe I will miss this place very much in the future.
It is different from the previous trips to the countryside. There are mature teacher responsibilities here. The regular schedule here not only exercises the ability to survive independently, but also serves as a natural therapy pool for "Internet and computer dependence" - we are far away from the hustle and bustle of the city, and we experience loneliness intensely. And because I am far away from the Internet, I can finally read and think quietly here. Because we make our own dinner, we can choose what to eat according to our taste and physical condition, and it is all low-cost, green and healthy food...
However, despite writing so many benefits, I have been in the past Two and a half months later, I still feel a little uncomfortable, and I still don’t agree with it—that feeling of inferiority when talking about my position or internship. When I look back on this period of time after my career is successful and even gray-haired, what will it bring me?
I kept looking for the answer. Well, let’s go back to the era of writing diaries with pens, watching TV, and reading books; the era of taking responsibility, living independently, and controlling emotions.
This is growth!
The weather was sunny on Thursday, December 22nd
I was very emotional again
Being a primary school teacher is actually quite physically demanding. Maybe I just started teaching. Today I feel emotional again. He was so emotional that he didn't even hide it in front of the students.
Let’s talk about exercise books in English class. Everyone is a little absent-minded. Many times I found that students were looking at another place where I was talking. Someone else interrupted. Even good students are absent-minded. Because I wasn't feeling well, I couldn't bear it anymore.
I said: "You don't want to listen to the class, right? Then let's all be quiet!" I closed the front door and the back door. Start my heart-to-heart talk. In fact, under normal circumstances I would get angry or silent. Other teachers are also accustomed to me losing my temper in class and then returning to the office to chat happily - that's the realm! But this time, I kept talking, pointing the mistake at myself, blaming myself, feeling sad, and finally crying.
"I'm very sad. I've been teaching you for so long. From the beginning to now, I still haven't corrected many of your bad habits. ××, you still interrupt in class. ×× still stands up in class. What I like most The failure is, XX, the teacher still has not cultivated your interest in Chinese (the student's math test score is 98, but the Chinese is only 10 or 20 points). There is also XX and XX, a semester has passed, and you still don't pay. Homework. Looking at the countdown to the final exam on the blackboard, there are only ten days left. I don’t know what I have brought to you during this period. I feel like a failure..."
At that time, I really don’t know if they in third grade can understand it, but they are very quiet, very quiet. The child looked like he had made a mistake, with a somewhat sensible and distressed look in his eyes. Later, the bell rang and the class was over.
Of course, after the afternoon, there was still a lack of discipline. Rescue sick and repeat offenders. Later, I told other teachers about this incident as a funny story.
But in my heart, I am grateful that I really stood in front of my children so sincerely. I avoid commenting on whether such disclosure of my heart is good or bad, and whether it is "effective". I remember that one of my high school teachers once bowed to us with red eyes and said he was sorry for not teaching us well when I was "rolling out" of the key class. Now, I unknowingly pass on this sincerity, and I am touched by myself.
The weather was sunny on Saturday, December 31st
Farewell notes
Today is the last day of 2011. I gave each of the children a tang as a gift. New Year's gift. Because my roommate and I had decided to leave on January 7, we made an appointment with the children to take photos as a souvenir.
However, the situation is really difficult to control. We chose to take pictures after school, and children from all grades came running over. They were very excited and naughty and did not listen to us. When taking photos of this class, other people would deliberately wander in and out, causing me to still have an angry face in some of the photos.
Yes, when I was writing this diary, I was already a teacher who often lost his temper and accidentally lost his ladylike demeanor and yelled, ha! So bleak. In fact, these are not the sad things. I can still forgive them in my heart, they are very cute. It's me, I can't bear to leave anymore. Starting to feel sad. Starting to feel like I'm going to leave them. At first... I felt, like everyone who is facing farewell, that time flies by so damn fast! I'm rude, I really can't bear to leave you...
The photos show familiar bright smiling faces. The time I spend with my children is getting shorter and shorter. Reluctant to part with it. Reluctant to part with it. Reluctant to part with it.
Internship experience for normal college students
Internship is an important lesson for normal college students. I am honored to participate in this internship at Huai'an Experimental Primary School. Looking back on these two weeks The internship life is full of emotions, and it also makes me take a step forward in my understanding of the teaching profession. This internship has benefited me a lot. I would like to write down my experience here. I believe this will be of great help to me in my future career.
Let’s talk about this school first!
The cultural atmosphere of the entire school is good. Some famous books and celebrity files are posted on the wall at the entrance of each class... There is a small "library" behind each class. , there are various books donated by class students in the bookcase, which can increase students' reading volume and broaden their horizons. Primary school students do exercises twice every day in the morning and afternoon. In addition, they practice calligraphy at noon on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays, and read the school textbook "Chinese before the Age of Twelve" on Tuesdays and Thursdays. It can be said that this school pursues the moral, intellectual, physical, and aesthetic education of students. comprehensive development.
Let’s talk about teachers!
When I really entered primary school and approached the teaching profession, I discovered that teachers are not as sacred as I thought. In fact, teachers are just like ordinary people. When several female teachers are together, they talk about their children and mother-in-law. , clothes, and also bring some snacks and fruits to the office to eat. But I have to say that my instructor, Teacher Ding, is really amazing. Her due date is next Tuesday, but she still insists on going to school to teach students. She only has a Chinese book and a piece of chalk, and there are no ppt, music, or videos. With this kind of teaching assistance, a Chinese class was extremely exciting. Listening to her normal classes "Helen Keller" and "My Grandfather and My Garden"... I really felt that I learned a lot. She stood on the podium, and her aura deeply affected every student. Another person I admire from the bottom of my heart is Teacher Zhu Junzhu. He is an outstanding graduate of our school and has been working for ten years. Last year, he held a personal calligraphy exhibition on the second floor of Teaching B in our school. In fact, he not only writes well and teaches well, but he is also very kind. Fortunately, during the two weeks I went to the elementary school, the fifth-grade Chinese group happened to be holding a teaching activity called "Happiness Classroom". Teacher Zhu had been carefully preparing lessons a few days ago. "All hard work pays off." His class was very successful and was unanimously praised by other teachers.
Let’s talk about students again!
It is really different to treat your classmates as primary school students at school and to actually have a class with a group of primary school students. It takes a lot of time and energy to maintain classroom order.
So far, how to maintain classroom discipline is still a headache for me. I also hope to learn good methods of managing students from regular teachers during the internship. The monitor of Class 13 left a deep impression on me. She looks like a little teacher. She understands everything in the class and is a good helper to the teacher. But on the other hand, she was a bit arrogant and even disrespected those "underachievers". She beat and scolded them at will and threw their books and pencil cases. This may also be the habit of the teacher. But it is undeniable that the students listen to this monitor very much, which makes me, a trainee teacher, feel ashamed.
The internship life in the past two weeks has made me truly realize the importance of help from others. You are the "important others" and my "noble people" in my life. Maybe what I said is a bit pretentious, or even a bit disgusting, but thank you very much. ~O(∩_∩)O~
Thanks to my head teacher, Teacher Shi, for encouraging me when I was panicking. "There is nothing right or wrong about internships. Now that you have decided to choose the internship path, go on boldly and confidently. Don't be afraid or panic. There is nothing to be afraid of..."
Thanks to my instructor, Teacher Ding, for respecting and helping me. When other teachers called me "little girl, kid, little beauty, little girl...", she always called me "Teacher Li". These three words are the greatest affirmation and encouragement to me.
Thanks to the teachers of various subjects for their understanding, tolerance and help.
Thanks to my father, mother, sister, and Zhutou for their love and care for me. It makes me feel very warm when I think of you. No matter how difficult it is, as long as I have your support, I will have the confidence to do it.
Thank you to my dear roommates for sacrificing yourselves, cooperating with my work and rest time, and creating a quiet and harmonious study and living environment for me. I have wronged you, and I am truly grateful.
Thank you Anfang, because of your company, I can persist in doing it. Every morning you are so full of confidence and energy, which invisibly gives me great encouragement. I will never forget the scene when you held my arm across the street every day. You are my friend for the rest of my life.
Thank you to all my classmates and friends who helped and supported me...you helped me explain to the teachers of various subjects, conveyed to me the matters in the class, and relieved my worries.