You should practice calligraphy because you love and pursue the art of calligraphy, and keep imitating the ancients. Don't be fooled by the so-called modern masters. In the end, you will gain a lot!
You have to be conscious for more than ten years or even a lifetime. Maybe you can mix some tricks in a few years if you are lucky, but it doesn't mean that you have understood all of calligraphy ... Remember that.