Wu ruizheng
After graduating from college, I was assigned to the most remote grassroots business office of Agricultural Bank of China. My girlfriend who fell in love for several years broke up with me, and I often quarreled with my family because of my bad mood. Colleagues in the unit are all demobilized soldiers and get together like a group of Liangshan heroes. Every day after dinner, I shut myself in a single dormitory, take a cold bath, and then lie naked in bed in a daze. When the moonlight draws black and white stripes on my uneven ribs, I will howl at the moon like a wolf.
My only contact with my colleagues in the institute is to be on duty one day a week. Because the vault is sealed, there is a bathroom, and the strong fishy smell makes people unable to breathe, so I fall asleep early every time I am on duty, and I can't wait to escape from the vault at dawn.
My colleague Lao Zhou was on duty with me that night. Lao Zhou is a disabled person with a slight limp in his left leg, but among more than a dozen colleagues in the institute, Lao Zhou gave me the best impression. He is not only handsome, but also writes well. Reading his cursive script always reminds me, a person who doesn't know calligraphy, of the poem "The old vine is dying and the bridge is flowing", which makes me feel that I am in the same boat with Lao Zhou. Nevertheless, my conversation with Lao Zhou in recent months has been limited to pleasantries.
I put on the quilt and just wanted to sleep, but Lao Zhou on the opposite bed woke me up. I opened the quilt and saw Lao Zhou handing me a cigarette. Lao Zhou said, "Shall I tell you a story?" Out of courtesy, I took the cigarette and nodded.
Lao Zhou said: "I was very timid when I was a child. Every time I walk at night, I always feel the sound of kicking behind me There seems to be something behind me, but when I look back, there is nothing. The more I do this, the more scared I am. I think ghosts must go hand in hand. "
I smiled and said, "I was like this when I was a child."
"Later, grandma told me a story. She said that everyone who walks at night has a three-light area, one on his head and the other two on his shoulders. This is the "three flavors of real fire" of people. No matter what sound you hear when you walk in the dark, as long as you don't look back, your light won't go out, and the monster is afraid that your' three flavors of true fire' can't get close to you. And if you can't resist the temptation to turn around, every time you turn around, the ghost will blow out one of your lights. When the three lighting areas are all bombed, they can do whatever they want. Grandma said that no matter how scared you are, nothing can hurt you as long as you don't look back and go straight ahead. I did what grandma said, and I'm really not afraid. "
Lao Zhou added, "Guess what I do in the army?"
I said, look at your white handwriting. It's probably a file.
Lao Zhou said, "You can't guess twice if you guess ten times. I am a literary soldier and dancer in the army. "
Lao Zhou is right. I guess ten times I couldn't guess that he was a dancing literary soldier.
"Later, Laoshan fought at the front, and we went to the front to express our condolences. During a performance, a shell landed a few meters away from us, and three of my comrades became martyrs. Although I survived, my legs are disabled and I can't dance anymore after I leave the hospital. "
I heard that dancing is a cruel art. For a dancer, legs are undoubtedly more important than life. But Lao Zhou didn't see any sadness when he said this.
Lao Zhou went on to say, "Later, I transferred to the Agricultural Bank. Because my culture is relatively low and my handwriting is ugly, bookkeeping often makes people laugh. If there is a joke, I will say,' Zhou Xiao, you can't write well until you die!' I think I really can't write well? I don't believe it. There is a teacher in middle school who writes very well. I asked him for advice. He said that even Wang Xizhi couldn't teach me in the near future. I found a copybook and copied it myself. At that time, our Qing son was just born, and the unit had no dormitory, so the economy was difficult. We rented two adobe houses abandoned by farmers. Mosquitoes became thinner in summer and the air was ventilated in winter. Your sister-in-law also advised me that I am in my thirties, never married and have children, and I can't practice any words! "
I was surprised when he mentioned the name Qing Er, because I only knew that his son had just turned one year old, and I had never heard that he had another child named Qing Er.
"Children are small and there are many things at home. I have to wait until Qing 'er and your sister-in-law fall asleep every day before I start practicing calligraphy. It takes four or five hours to start writing, and I have to practice when I have time at work. A new pen will be changed in less than a week. Do you know Gong Sundaniang and Zhang Xu in the Tang Dynasty? "
I said I knew Gong Sundaniang could dance swords and Zhang Xu could write weeds.
Lao Zhou said, "Yes, in fact, calligraphy and dance are interlinked. After Zhang Xu saw Gong Sundaniang's sword dance, the cursive script made great progress, and when I wrote it, it looked like dancing again. Three years later, I won the first prize in a national calligraphy competition and was accepted as a member by the Provincial Calligraphy Association. "
"When we moved into our new house, Qing Er had just entered the first grade of primary school. Others say that Qing Er looks exactly like me, but Qing Er is smarter than both of us. When he was five years old, he could recite dozens of Tang poems and settle accounts faster than me. But he was destined to have no fate with us and got acute hepatitis, which took less than a month from discovery to death. "
Although I have never been a father, I know Lao Zhou needs comfort at this time. Such a smart and beautiful child suddenly encounters misfortune, even a stranger will be heartbroken, but he doesn't know what to say.
"After processing the affairs of Qing son, your sister-in-law and I went to work. The old director asked me to rest for a while. I refused, and then I hung out with everyone. Do you think I'm not well now? "
Lao Zhou seemed to look at me easily: "You must think I am heartless. In fact, when I broke my leg, when Qing Er died, and those nights when I started practicing calligraphy, I often felt desperate. But as long as I think of the story told by my grandmother, I will summon up the courage to move forward again. " Do you know the name of Sanduang District? That is self-confidence, courage and perseverance. "
From that night on, I felt my life suddenly lit up, because from that night on, the lights in the Sanduang District have been shining on me.
[Covering up and thinking]
Inferiority and disappointment put us in a dark world. Should we also light up the three-light area at night and light up the future of life?
Perhaps, we are not as Gao Fushuai as others, but we have a confident heart and smile at everything; Perhaps, there are too many thorns on the road, and we are bruised all over, but we have the courage and perseverance to meet success.
Light up the night walk in the three-light area and light up the brilliant journey of life. (reed)