The sea water is saltier than tears. Will the sea also shed tears? Is the bitterness of sea water the condensation of sadness? Like the clear sky, there will be rain occasionally. ――――Inscription
1. No Tears in Heaven
"Grandpa, grandpa, why is the sky blue?"
"That's probably the sky It condenses too many people’s dreams. Blue is the color of longing, the color of heaven, right? ”
“The color of longing, the color of heaven...”
This. It was a long, long time ago that I asked my grandfather. Now when I see the sky, I think of my grandfather. I know that he must be guarding me in the purest heaven.
Grandpa is keen on studying history and his surname. When he read, he wore thick glasses and took notes meticulously. Live until you are old and learn until you are old. Grandpa has always practiced this saying. His calligraphy is vigorous and powerful. Although he has never systematically learned calligraphy, he is self-taught and has become a professional calligrapher. When grandpa writes, his hands tremble because he is very serious and hard; when grandpa smiles, he is very kind, easy-going, and warm, like the sun; when grandpa smokes, he puffs out smoke, which is quite charming. Majesty, like a dragon king; when grandpa is willful, he will say to grandma: "Today's meal is generally okay, but not as delicious as yesterday." Grandma will always glare at him: "Then you can cook tomorrow's meal, no?" "Served." "It's delicious." In today's terms, it's a show of affection, right?
Grandpa and grandma have loved each other for a lifetime. The most profound scene in my memory is: when I went to Jinci Temple to play, I quickly went down dozens of stairs by myself, with my grandparents behind me. I looked back and saw grandma's hand holding grandpa's hand tightly. The two of them stepped one step at a time. The sun was shining warmly on them, shining with noble and sacred brilliance. At that moment, I understood that "holding your hand and growing old together with you" will never change in this life.
Sometimes people don’t grow old slowly, but in an instant. Grandpa came back from Beijing for medical treatment. His energy was not as good as before, and the smile on his face was also gone. I was in my third year of high school at the time and was under a lot of academic pressure, so I didn’t pay much attention to it. However, in the summer vacation of 2014, my grandfather passed away, my most beloved grandfather passed away. I was the last one to learn that my grandfather had lung cancer, and I was also the last one to learn about his death. At that moment, I didn't shed any tears. It was obviously summer, the sun was warm outside, and the cicadas were noisy, but the cold wind poured into my warm chest like mercury, and for a moment, it tightened my heart. All the tears flowed back into my heart, and the sadness flowed back...
If I had a pair of wings, I would fly to heaven, visit my grandpa, tell him that I love him very much, and tell him that I miss him very much. , patiently answered the test he gave me, kissed him wholeheartedly, and hugged him wholeheartedly.
If I had a time machine, I would go back to the time when I had my grandfather, tell him that I miss him very much, tell him that I love him very much, tell the story of the future with a smile, and sing happily. Listen to your favorite songs and dance beautifully.
Don't be sad, don't be sad, because love never leaves, because there are no tears in heaven.
? Two and a half of you and me
The two people who are in love with each other and have the same heart and soul must have been destined at the beginning of life, right?
My world will always have half of you, and my future will always have your shadow. May you and I be treated gently by this world.
Even if there is no contact, the feelings are still the same, as bright as the moon, and as deep as the sea. You are another me, I am another you, and you are my whole meaning in this world.
This is the so-called best friend.
I am very lucky to have two of the most caring besties: Su Su and Ning'er.
In a world of three people, there is no mistress, we are all one-half of each other.
I went to see a movie with Su Su. When I walked into the cinema, I saw the trailer of "Gardenia Blooms". After watching it, Su Su and I said at the same time: "Is Li Yifeng handsome?" (Su) "Li Yifeng is handsome?" (Me).
Then he laughed instantly, "Oh my God, do you want such a tacit understanding?" (Me), "You stole my lines, please take out the script and read it carefully, you idiot." (Su). "Hahahaha..."
I can really relate to it. Whether I am watching "The Story of Hachiko", "Tiny Times 4" or "Charlotte" with you, every time I get emotional Wherever you go, you will be unable to control yourself.
With Ning'er, she won't be as funny as Su Su. Ning'er is not devoted at all, except for her parents, sister, me and Su Su. Whenever I mention my favorite anime or celebrities, I will be very speechless towards her. After three years of watching "Qin Shi Ming Yue", I became nearsighted and couldn't stand the lonely waiting. So I started watching "Black Butler". During that time, I kept talking about how cute Ciel was and how cute Sebastian was. Handsome and so on... I have recently become obsessed with Zhang Qiling in "Tomb Robbers Notes", but this guy is starting to get confused again: Do I like Yang Yang or Zhang Qiling? I fell in love with Zhang Qiling because of Yang Yang, so I like Zhang Qiling. Eh, that's not right...ah, I'm so confused, who do I like? I held her hand affectionately: "No need to doubt, no need to be entangled, just follow your heart, of course the person you like is me." "Go away, my sister's sexual orientation is normal." "Haha..."
When I encounter troubles, I will confide in them. Ning'er is my "first husband", who will vent my anger and complain, and bring me back to life in an instant; Susu is my "first husband" "Strategic Advisor" can help me analyze correctly and find solutions, so that I can clear up the clouds and see the sun.
Susu is like a rainbow, bright and beautiful; Ning'er is like a clear spring, clear; and I may be like a cloud, leaning lightly on the rainbow and reflecting in the clear spring. We have been together for seven years. For us, there is no "seven-year itch", only the "seven-year flair". We will continue like this, laugh together, cry together, and give our truest selves to Support each other without reason, trust unconditionally, and go through all the ups and downs of life together. This is our new bestie era!
3. The Catcher in the Rye
I once loved someone like this: for him, I exhausted all my self-confidence; for him, I buried all my ignorance. ;For him, I stopped all my madness.
Just once, please let me hug you;
Just once, please let me look at you again;
Just once, just one look Ten thousand years, no need to live forever.
I have thought many times: If the red line of fate were slightly deviated, you and I would not have met; if the gears of fate had turned at another moment, you and I would not have met. We know each other; if the sunshine of fate did not shine at the same time, you and I would not have met each other so tenderly, right? Do I exist in the future you describe? I want to be with you, look up at the same starry sky, and embrace the same future with you.
Unfortunately, that is impossible. Now, you are married and have children, and you are living a very happy life. You have always regarded me as just your lovely sister. However, I can't forget you, your eyes as bright as stars, your infinitely romantic eyes, your smile like the blue sky, and your natural gentleness and kindness.
When I smile, I always laugh in an awkward manner. When you look at me, you can’t help but laugh with me. But, that day, you said, I will definitely change, and one day I won’t smile like this. I want to tell you that I will never change. I will smile like this for the rest of my life, silly and stupid, just like I like you, just like my sister likes my brother. It will not change.
I really want to tell you now: I fell again, I stood up again, I was happy again, and I was sad from time to time, I fell in love with someone again, and I could feel it again I realize my haste and panic, but I am no longer reckless, no longer persistent, no longer eager to obtain, no longer just a natural pursuit. I want to tell you that I am no longer that me. I like you, but I like you even more - Like your version of yourself.
For you, I can only give up, not forget. Forgetting you is worse than forgetting myself.
Thank you for teaching me how to love alone.
Time boils the rain, the years sew the flowers, and there are no tears in heaven.