2020-05-18 Day16
I just finished steaming 10 steamed buns and steamed buns, and I feel so tired that my back aches. I used to cook and do housework when I was working, but I have never been so dedicated to it now that I am raising a baby full-time.
Now all the trivial matters at home are my main theme. No matter how big a decision I made at the beginning or how much reluctance I had, now I am here and I belong here.
And in order to serve the protagonist of my life now: my children, I can still do my best to do my best.
There is no simple role in life. No matter how outsiders view full-time mothers and housewives, I want to say: this role is not easy, not easy.
Those mothers who can truly perform this role are not easy. I sincerely admire them!
Seize the time to complete the daily update and get ready for bed. I saw a pop-up window from Dangdang.com saying there was an event, and I was itching to buy books.
This time I bought a 30-volume set of English picture books for my children. The introduction said they are accompanied by audio readings, so I will teach them while learning.
My heart aches when I talk about English. I should have given my daughter English lessons long ago. Unfortunately, my level is limited. Not only is my pronunciation inaccurate, but the number of words I master is too limited. Therefore, my daughter’s English enlightenment only limited to a few words such as 情香, apple, and monkey.
I know very well the importance of the environment that parents can give their children. So I tried my best to buy as many books as I could, and read all the Chinese story and picture books to my daughter that she wanted to hear in my Mandarin, which I can at least count as Grade 2A, with rich voice and emotion.
The gratifying thing is that my daughter recognizes my efforts. She makes me giggle every time, and she loves reading books. Wherever you put in your efforts, there you will gain.
By the way, I bought myself 10 handwritten copies of the Heart Sutra (by the way, I haven’t finished practicing the copybooks I bought), as well as the regular script version of “Bringing the Calligraphy Teacher Home” by Tian Yingzhang. Can't wait to pay.
Yesterday I was hesitant about buying a set of pajamas worth 148 yuan, but when I saw the book I wanted to buy, I couldn’t control myself. What you like is where your passion lies.
I promised not to stay up late, but before I knew it, it was the middle of the night again. My stomach was growling and my throat was so dry that it was smoking. I drank a bottle of mineral water in one breath, but it didn't relieve it.
My daughter turned over in her dream, crawled from the head of the bed to the end of the bed, then fell back to sleep. Every few minutes, she suddenly screamed "Mom, Dad" in her dream, crawled back to the bedside, and I quickly hugged her tightly to comfort her: Mom is here. She instantly showed a down-to-earth and warm smile, closed her eyes and fell asleep.
Every time this happens, I remember that when my son was a child and I was not with him, he always had his own room and bed. He said that he would often wake up from nightmares. How did my baby fall asleep again in that dark terror? Feeling distressed.
No matter how much love you give your children in the future, it will be difficult to make up for the shortcomings left in your childhood. This is my great helplessness and regret. So now for my daughter, I will do my best within my ability to make her feel safe and loved.
My son has been at school for 8 days, and I dare not ask him how he is doing. He relaxed a lot during the online class period. The teacher said that he would not retake the old classes after returning to school. He hoped that he would not be overwhelmed and could get back to his learning state.
I can no longer preach or punish my son too harshly. Dealing with boys in the rebellious period requires me to control my emotions even more. We can only patiently explain to him the importance of right and wrong, and the consequences of any behavior. More importantly, he needs to be aware, proactive, and self-disciplined. There's really nothing I can do to help. All I can do is accompany my son well so that he can go through his adolescence smoothly.