Divorce twice in half a year, what should I do?

D and I got married in free love. At that time, the family conditions were not good, the wedding was simple, and there was no wedding room. We have to go out to work after marriage, so we have been renting a house outside. From the beginning, we barely made ends meet and dared not have children ... I am a competitive woman. At first, I wanted to help my husband's family pay off the foreign debt of 20 thousand yuan, and then I tried my best to save money to buy a house and have children ... to live the life I wanted alone. My mother-in-law ran me off the day after I got married. It's wrong to say that it's just to pay off the foreign debt ... obviously it's to separate from her ... As a new wife, I was wronged by ........... at that time. Because D and I both work in small units and earn little, we have to rent a house. If we don't pay ... we dare not spend money for a month. We are all moonlight people. However, our in-laws have to compare with our neighbors. Whose son gave thousands of holiday expenses ... it's not that I don't want to give them, but that I really can't afford it. I have 1,000 yuan left all year round, so I can unconditionally pay my parents-in-law a holiday fee and worry about the rent for next month. I really can't do it. ..........

More than two years have passed, and it seems that with our diligence and thrift, life can barely pass. In addition, I was full of energy, and I was pregnant ... At that time, I was stupid and didn't enjoy the treatment I deserved like other pregnant women ... I took a pregnancy test myself, because I couldn't bear to ask for leave, I had to deduct my salary, I couldn't bear to eat a meal outside, and I cooked from home every day at work. It is said that the electromagnetic oven radiates a lot, so I put on a radiation protection suit. I had to grind my teeth ... during this period, when the pregnancy reaction was the most serious, my mother-in-law not only didn't take care of my pregnancy, but was hospitalized to regulate my blood sugar, and also named her son D to sleep with her. When her son didn't come, she died to show him ... without saying anything, D threw up on me and turned away. I was alone in the rental house, spitting bile with a basin ... because of the order at home and the children. I just want to try to buy a house. When we were seven months pregnant, we had 15,000 yuan and bought a 70-square-meter house in a small county. Because the down payment is 70,000 to 80,000, I am under great pressure, so I borrowed it from my relatives and friends. No matter how much pressure you put on me, I still want to realize my dream ... getting married, buying a house and having children ... fortunately, my relatives and friends helped me get the down payment smoothly. I scrimp and save, which is within our power. We just want the baby to be born smoothly, and we can have milk to eat ... However, things are often not satisfactory. When I was pregnant for nine months, I took maternity leave, and my mother-in-law came to live with me in the county, fearing that I was in danger. The contradiction began here ... Some people say that pregnant women should move more and have a good baby. But as soon as I went out for a walk, my mother-in-law came to live with me. I had to turn around near the hospital not far from home, just in case ... I had to check once a week last month. Every time I go to check, my mother-in-law follows me. It was myself who queued to pay the registration fee. She sat in the rest area and waited ... Another time, I sat on the big sofa and chatted with others. On a whim, I pointed to my stomach and said that the whole village is better looking, more capable and stronger than you. I would be foolish if you didn't come. My pregnant mother-in-law wants to take care of me, but I do everything by myself, and I still have to say such things that I don't care ... Later, when D came back, I had a quarrel with D, and I didn't show my dissatisfaction with my mother-in-law. A few days later, on Monday, my mother-in-law came downstairs. I didn't pick up what was in her hand, so I poured her water and began to howl as soon as I entered the door. She stood up, slammed the door and left ... I hugged her with a big belly and asked her to explain why. She broke me off and called me d, to the effect that I am ok now, so you treat me like this. If I can't do it, what will you do ... I thought it was unreasonable at that time, so she hung up and left, and I didn't stop her ... That time, I was ten days short of the due date. My blood pressure suddenly changed from low to high ... since then, my mother-in-law has never appeared again until I gave birth to a child. The next day, when I had a caesarean section, D asked me to call my mother-in-law the night before to apologize, saying that otherwise my mother-in-law could not come. ........