Is there any poem that expresses what you want but can't get it?

If this poem goes on, it will be more than just ordinary friends. Something that always works. It is destined to be hard to forget that cloudy afternoon, and it will rain until late at night. You left a mystery, leaving suddenly is a bit like coming suddenly, a little lost. I dare not look back, afraid of bitter study, afraid of the beautiful sunset! If, perhaps, you close your eyes, don't let the intoxicating confusion disappear, and let loneliness push me to the cashier's office tonight. I don't hate being a guest in this world. I talk about loneliness with an ethereal accent. I held a vivid spoonful of solitary wine and fascinated my eyes. Peach blossom turned into plum blossom and slept on my pillow, still feeling sad. I still have to wait for the season. Flowers compete for spring, summer, autumn and winter, and push the boat with the current until the deep sea asks about the mercury flow.