As for your reluctance, "just to study, go to a good high school and a good university?" I really don't understand the meaning of this existence. " After all, I shouldn't think about such a question, that is, what I want to do, what kind of person I want to be, and what kind of life I want to live.
Maybe you will say that you want to "go to Japan and live a life you really like". I'm curious about why you want to go to Japan and what kind of life you like. From my personal understanding of Japan, it is really not advisable to live a life I like in Japan, which depends on considerable strength and ability, especially for a foreigner. Japan is a country that respects science and education, worships the strong and the wise, and advocates hard work and dedication. Even an actress should have a certain level. For example, Teacher Cang wrote a good calligraphy that made China people feel ashamed. Imagine if we go to Japan, with what attitude and ability?
Of course, you know you want to do this now, "but you don't have the ability." Recognizing this shows that you still have a certain depth and know the importance. So, let's start here. If you really want to go to Japan so much, you must strive for it. Don't just think, do more.
First, write down your own ideals. After ten years of hard work, maybe you can contact us in Japan.
Second, regard your present study as a part of your goal in ten years, which is also the pleasure and hope brought by unchanging study.
Third, study, first test a good high school; Studying again, getting into a good university, or studying, you can go to Japan.
Learning is the fairest choice for human beings to improve themselves. Whether poor or noble, old or young, male or female, as long as we want to learn, we will be rewarded. Please cherish.