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19 years old, studying in an ordinary second-level university, majoring in management, not serving as a class cadre in the class, with average ability, average appearance, and even average name. This is how I rate myself.
I once tried to ask myself, don’t you want to learn something new to enrich yourself? Such as photography, traveling, and playing guitar. The answer is no time and a waste of money. I don't know how. I'm afraid that nothing will happen in the end.
Because I thought I was ordinary, I gave up the opportunity to learn new things. I stayed in my dormitory watching TV series, scrolling through Weibo and TikTok throughout my freshman year. Because I felt like I had nowhere to go and nothing to do.
What I called having nothing to do was actually just an excuse for my laziness and confusion.
02
I have been invited many times to learn Japanese, computer applications, and calligraphy with my friends. I have refused. I said, go ahead. , I don’t want to learn. As a result, after the freshman year, the students who studied Japanese will work as Japanese teaching assistants in the next semester, the students who studied calligraphy are getting better and better, and the students who studied computer are able to operate various daily computer applications very skillfully, but I am still the one who only knows how to I was giggling while holding my cell phone.
Every time late at night, I would ask myself, how can I make progress and what should I do? However, the next day, I still got up and turned on my phone as usual, looking at the daily details of celebrities on Weibo. , watching funny videos on Douyin, continuing to waste my day, and continuing to waste my year.
It’s not that I haven’t reflected, I’m afraid of reflecting, because reflecting will make me suffer. I’m afraid of pain, so I chose to fall.
03
I believe that many people don’t work hard for the same reason as me, because they are afraid of failure, fear of other people’s eyes, or feel that they are just okay, and feel that the future is still far away from us. , I even feel that tomorrow is very far away, so I sleep in the dormitory, play games, and watch TV series. From time to time, I still despise the top academics who get up early every day and go to the library.
It’s so easy to be lazy, who can’t do it!
But is this really your ambition? Your current comfort is equal to a cheap rental house after graduation, equal to considering a piece of clothing worth two hundred yuan and finally giving up, equal to seeing the snack you want to eat but stopping in front of the glass window because of its price.
You have no family background, no extraordinary talent, and no stunning appearance. You have an upward heart but have lost the motivation to truly practice.
What is the meaning of your existence?
04
At the age of 19, I hope I can love life and all new things. I deserve all the good things. Every day from now on, I will do what I really want to do, follow my heart, and not waste the time I should cherish. The same goes for you, whether you are 19, 29 or 39 now, we are all obliged to do what we want to do, travel, read, and see all the good things we want to see.
We never let down our years, which is the greatest reward for ourselves.