Hometown
My hometown is a small village located on the earth.
People living in the village work at sunrise and rest at sunset.
That is a village that I often think of and miss when I enter the city later. It is the hometown of wanderers.
The place called hometown is never big enough. Because they are not big enough, some people always want to go out and make a difference in the larger world. I was a rebel in my hometown, and I walked out. There are also some people who have always been in their hometown and may never feel nostalgic for their hometown for the rest of their lives. My grandparents have lived in the village all their lives. I think they also have meaning in their lives. They gave birth to four children, three boys and one girl. They all got married and started families, and some of their grandchildren went out to live in the city. There will also be great-grandchildren and great-granddaughters who go out and live in the city. So do those who go to the city also mean that people who have lived in the village all their lives are continuing to live?
When I think of my hometown, I seem to be missing my relatives.
People who live in a city often cannot regard the city they once lived in as their hometown when they go to another city. The city is too big and there are too many people. It seems that I have no right to represent the existence of the city, so I cannot regard the city where I grew up as my hometown.
I have my hometown, but I am gradually losing it. However, this loss seems to be insignificant in the face of the bustling city and in the lives of everyone who comes here.
The city is ashamed of the village, and the wanderer is ashamed of his hometown.
Leave a name
"All the sages in ancient times were lonely, only the drinkers left their names." It is really admirable that Li Bai had this realization and expressed it like this. Although the poetic expression is that everything will flow in the past, and it is better to enjoy yourself in time than to do anything high-sounding. But truth is an invincible force that makes people self-aware and introspective, which is ultimately beneficial. The tone of this poem is gray, but the style is high. With his song "About to Enter the Wine", Li Bai will be famous throughout the ages. Chen Zi'ang's "I never see the ancients before me, and never see the newcomers after me. I think about the long journey of heaven and earth, but I shed tears with sadness" is the opposite. It is also a good and widely circulated poem, also in gray tone, but the style is lowered. There are high and low styles, which can be seen in knowledge, talent, and spiritual realm.
A poem is like a blooming flower in the poet's life, and the poem contains the poet's soul. Those who have left their famous names in the long history of mankind through literary works and great achievements are all miraculous. Life is full of vegetation and autumn, why should we leave a name? Because people are not willing to be lonely, but any extraordinary person will always leave traces of his life - future generations will continue to move forward into the future along the path he took.
Some people have lived, and thousands of years later they still make people sigh and move them. They really have not lived in vain!
I am also a person who is unwilling to be lonely.
Studying for Buddhist scriptures
The journey of writing is like the Tang Monk and his disciples who went to the West to obtain Buddhist scriptures. They had to go through ninety-nine and eighty-one difficulties before they could obtain the true scriptures.
You will encounter many dangers and temptations on the way to learn the scriptures, and you have to travel long distances and go through all kinds of hardships. It is really not something that ordinary people can bear. Therefore, if you want to become a novelist, poet, or artist, you must always be prepared for it. This involves spending a lot of time and energy, sacrificing a lot of entertainment time, and enduring physical and mental torture. Compared with those who live an ordinary and comfortable life, they are respectable and lovely, as if they are working hard not for themselves, but for more people, and put in endless work. Because to survive, many artists also need to do a job to make ends meet, which is even more valuable. Regardless of whether their motivation was to gain fame and fortune in the future, the results they created became the cultural crystallization of all mankind. They are different from farmers farming and workers producing. They do not produce material things. What they produce is spiritual food and they build spiritual palaces.
Undoubtedly, human beings need materials other than art to continue to survive and develop. However, those works of art endow and establish the meaning of human survival and development, and continue to provide invisible energy for human beings. The works created by artists are the contents of the scriptures.
We ignore those spiritual contents and blindly emphasize the magical effects of matter, which is like turning into monsters, even worse than animals.
Important
Once upon a time, the most important thing for me was writing.
Now, for me, the most important thing is still writing.
The difference is that when I reach middle age, my parents who are getting older are more important in my mind, and my growing children are important in my life, and I rely on them for survival. Work and relationships that cannot be completely escaped are also important. In this way, I evolved from a pure idealist to a realist. I folded my flying wings and got used to or had to get used to walking with my head down.
Everything is important. You must continue to work hard and move forward for the important things, but you are not that important. What if something goes wrong with your body? How could I continue to take on those responsibilities even though everything was important? Therefore, I am the most important. If my relatives do not realize that they should care and be considerate of me, then I should take more care of myself and solve the problems I encounter.
If people become strong, reality must force them to be strong.
If a person becomes strong, it must be dreams that give him motivation.
If reality and dreams are intertwined, then people need to constantly change themselves, improve themselves, and make themselves stronger. When a person becomes strong and achieves success, he often transcends reality and gets closer to his dream. In the process of pursuing dreams, many people give up halfway, and only a few persist, but they are also scarred - but it is worth it in the end, because only by getting closer to the dream, realizing the dream, being needed by more people, and being more important to more people Only those who are useful to people truly become important. For writing, it is important to write good works.
You should not expect care and attention from others, because on the way forward, others cannot keep up with you even if they are intentional.
Wandering
Only a wandering life can truly approach poetry and be a life worth living.
Wandering is also the life that every true poet desires in his heart. However, the vast majority of people choose to live a stable life, only to find out that they have been deceived once they live that life. The reason why many people like to live hypocritically is because they can only, or only deserve that kind of life.
Everyone lives two or more selves. Everyone lives multiple lives, living in the present and longing for the distance. Wanderers are always bidding farewell to the present. Although the present is the most important and real thing for everyone, everything in the present can only make people feel depressed or drift with the crowd.
I imagined that I had nothing, walking through the bustling metropolis, saying goodbye to everyone living in reality, and blending into the strange, lonely and beautiful scenery.
Freedom
People who are neither smart nor stupid are better off doing only one thing in their lives, such as working hard and making money to support their families.
I am the kind of person who is not smart and a bit stupid, but I just fell in love with writing. Not only did I fall in love with writing, but later I also fell in love with collecting and painting. I was tormented by my own hobbies and became anxious and miserable. I want to put aside my hobbies or pursuits and just work and live honestly. I believe that I will be happier, more normal, and happier that way.
It’s hard for me to let go. What's the reason why you can't let go?
I thought a lot, one of the important ones is: I am a person who loves freedom very much. Although all my hobbies make me not free to some extent, they make me feel outside of real life. of freedom. It is a kind of freedom that is rooted in life, spiritually, and deep in the soul. I need the kind of freedom that is imaginary like blue sky and white clouds, but can also be touched in reality; I need the kind of freedom that is far away, but can also be had close by. If you don't let me write, don't let me draw, don't let me do something I want to do, it's like letting a thrush not sing, and letting an eagle not fly.
I like a poem called "Love and Freedom", which is a reflection of my heart - life is precious, and love is more valuable; if it is for freedom, both can be thrown away. But people's freedom in real life is too limited. It is often a person's knowledge and cultivation and his inner kindness and virtue that make him restrain himself and live in embarrassment. Freedom is like a flag on a mountain that symbolizes life. Many people have sacrificed under that flag. For the beast that is reality, it just needs you to be a part of it, but there are always people like me who refuse to do that.
For the freedom I wanted, I kept struggling until I was exhausted.
Anomalies
The universe is not human and has no purpose. People are probably anomalies in the universe. If there is another kind of creature in the universe, it will be incredible to humans. Writers and poets are also rare among human beings and are not well understood by everyone.
Now, I gradually don’t know why I want to write. Sometimes I go back to the studio and turn on the computer after 11 o'clock in the evening. I am too exhausted to write anything, so I have to write in my diary. Sometimes I look back at what I have written. Writing, sometimes I want to have a chat with myself, is a resistance to real life, and is an attempt to live a life with my own soul; writing probably also means using writing to see myself from the real world... In short, I I will find a thousand high-sounding reasons for myself to continue writing, but I am still not sure why I continue to write.
If we say that people are created by self-antagonism, because the troubles of life take up a lot of my time and energy, I have not really established an antagonistic relationship with myself. If extraordinary people don't care about the world, how can I become extraordinary by deliberately not caring? If great writers must be rebellious, how can I become a complete rebel? If a successful person should know what is his own, then is writing my own? If talented people can try to be willful, then am I considered willful? If I keep writing and keep writing, it will probably be considered willful.
Flaubert said it well: "Art is so vast that it can possess a person." I want to be possessed by writing.
Artists are dominated by invisible things and believe in that mysterious thing, but most people only believe in material, things before their eyes.
Interest
Whether it is ancient people or modern people, writing is impossible without posting.
I've been there too, but I didn't like it. I know that becoming famous and having a family is too tiring, and I would never dare to dream of becoming a calligrapher. However, sometimes paintings need to be inscribed, and if the calligraphy is ugly, I will not dare to show the paintings to others. Sometimes I think, there are already so many excellent calligraphers in the world. If practicing calligraphy is painful, why do we have to practice calligraphy? Why don't I just write whatever I want? Having said that, you still need to practice, but you just don’t want to spend a lot of time and energy on temporary posts.
The same goes for studying painting. I bought many collections of paintings from ancient and modern times and admired them repeatedly. I also bought two versions of "Mustard Seed Garden", but I didn't want to start from the basics. I don't dare to think about it, nor do I seriously want to become a painter. There are already many good painters. I am a half-way monk, so I can't compare with other professionals.
However, I like painting from the bottom of my heart.
There were many times when I wanted to give up halfway because drawing delayed my writing - but interest is the best teacher, and in the end I still couldn't let it go.