You are possessive, because you can't put it down, because you haven't really picked it up yet! Hesitation and deliberation are good. But it is wrong to always hesitate when things happen. Dare to think and do, be willing to give up and be a man. Only when you can afford it, can you really put it down (because you already feel' worth it' in your heart). If you don't have time or other reasons and don't want to consult a psychologist, I recommend a book written by a psychologist. It may be helpful for you to express all his psychotherapy experiences in words. Because at least you found your own problem. This book is called The Road Few People Walk.
Like you said, you are jealous. This is your character.
It's also a psychological operation for you.
Perhaps the best way is to learn to be tolerant.
Empathy, feel how others feel about you, this is the best effect.
Although it hurts a little, it can sober people up.