Pan Lanzhen and Chen Duxiu met in 1930. At that time, Chen Duxiu was no longer the all-powerful "Mr. Guanzhong". At this time, his children have died young, his original wife has been heartbroken, and his second wife has been separated from deep love. He persisted in the revolutionary cause all his life and expelled from the party. His once like-minded friends have long run counter to their ideals and beliefs.
Pan Lanzhen doesn't know Chen Duxiu, but the "Mr. Li" who lives next door is completely different from the people he used to know. He is gentle, bookish, proud all his life, and has an extraordinary temperament in dealing with others. Pan Lanzhen has been in Shanghai for many years, and many people of all kinds have met him, but the ambivalence like' Miss Li' is not contradictory to him. His clothes are worn out, but his eyes are firm and seemingly depressed, but there always seems to be a firm belief supporting him. In complex times, although he is only walking alone, he will not be seen.
Happy people always live the same life, while unhappy people are unhappy in their own way. Pan Lanzhen's life before he met Chen Duxiu was like dust in troubled times, just like "flying around, what am I like, but a sandpiper in a vast world!" She was born in a poor family and came to Shanghai with her parents in order to find a way out. In order to survive, she had to know how to read and write at an early age, worked as a child laborer in a cotton mill, was deducted from her salary, was abused, was exploited, and was infinitely drained of her value. These are common things. Even if she is dissatisfied, for her who has no background and only relies on this job to make a living, even if she is unfair, she can only gnash her teeth and promote blood circulation to remove blood stasis. She was raped! For a girl who is only 17 years old, this is unbearable pain, but what is more painful is that she got pregnant after being raped and tried to take care of the child, but the child died unfortunately. ...
Unfortunately, blows followed, bringing forth the new. Life is a sudden change of Sichuan opera, and it is a lightning and thunder in the changing situation. Her affairs are so common in such a troubled time, but unfortunately they are ignored because they are not unfortunate enough, and she can only choose to shoulder the burden on her shoulders and continue to maintain a difficult life. Anyway, she must go on! She continued to work hard, live and work, but it was only out of habit. But when she met Chen Duxiu, it was a Pacific storm triggered by a butterfly flapping its wings, a domino that was knocked down, a variable that appeared in all the orderly things, and the power that made her pick up the hope of life again.
In the process of getting along with her, Chen Duxiu learned about her experience. He sympathized with the woman who had a rough life experience, but he also appreciated her gentleness and tenacity. Life gave her a heavy blow. She accepted all this, but she didn't give in. This power is very touching! At the same time, Pan Lanzhen's thoughtfulness and careful management of his life made him full of love and appreciation for this woman. Two people who like each other soon show that their hearts are together.
Two people walk together, Chen Duxiu teaches Pan Lanzhen to read and write, and takes her to taste stories, while Pan Lanzhen is responsible for taking care of Chen Duxiu's daily life and keeping the house in good order. Although the material conditions are not abundant, everything is thriving. But it didn't last long. When Pan Lanzhen came home, she found her husband missing ... which frightened Pan Lanzhen. Where did he go? She wants to know whether her husband will give up on himself. Why did he leave suddenly? Things at home are similar to those before she left home. Will he be in danger?
Pan Lanzhen's heart is full of fear. She imagines all kinds of possibilities, and her thoughts are like boiling water, jumping with irregular bubbles. She suddenly found that she knew nothing about her husband. She always calls him Mr, but she doesn't even know his name. Why is she brilliant but partial? But now she has little time to pay attention to these problems. What worries her most is that her husband has met a bad guy, but she has no clue. Chagrin and fear occupied her heart, but the only thing she could do was wait. ...
In this way, she wasted and waited day after day, expecting her husband to return as soon as possible. Until one day, Pan Lanzhen saw a message in the newspaper, the title was' Chen Duxiu was arrested', and the photo happened to be her familiar husband, who was arrested? Is his original name Chen Duxiu? It turns out that my husband really met something bad. In the days when he was worried, his life was not easy. He's in prison! But in any case, she finally knew her husband's clue, and she decided to go to her husband at once, at least to let him know that even if he is in prison, he is still not alone and will always accompany him.
At that time, Chen Duxiu didn't know what Pan Lanzhen thought, but he was desperate to think that Pan Lanzhen would never forgive himself again. For a long time, he has been getting along with people with a fake face, and now he is an arrested prisoner. He disappeared for such a long time inexplicably that he couldn't find a reason for Pan Lanzhen to wait for him, but he obviously underestimated her determination. She looks weak, but she is always as tough and stubborn as when he first met her. Therefore, when he gave up on himself and was depressed, he looked up and saw Pan Lanzhen with food in his hand, with an anxious face. At the moment I saw each other, my heart that had been hanging seemed to be suddenly put down, and the breath that had been suppressed seemed to be much smoother at once. This feeling is called inner peace. Chen Duxiu confirmed that this must be his most inseparable woman!
He didn't know how desperate Pan Lanzhen was when she came home and saw that she was not in her heart, how shocked and worried she was when she was caught, and how many difficulties she had to go through to find him all the way over the mountains, but she came and came again. I'm still in prison, and I don't know when I can be released. Will it be shown? He doesn't think she should wait with him. All this is unknown. Pan Lanzhen should have his own life, not be imprisoned with him. He tasted the food brought by Pan Lanzhen and told her to go back to Shanghai after going out, live a good life, work hard and take care of herself. Don't wait for yourself in prison, because you can't bring her anything in prison. For Chen Duxiu, Pan Lanzhen just shook his head, didn't speak, and then kept giving him food. Chen Duxiu thought that he had successfully persuaded her, and this might be the last time they met. Although he is very reluctant, he still thinks it is wise for Pan Lanzhen to leave him to make a living, which is the best thing for her, but he is wrong.
After visiting Chen Duxiu, Pan Lanzhen found a house outside the prison, accompanied him, guarded him and waited for him. After learning her address, a student in Chen Duxiu invited her to live in her house, but she firmly refused. This student is in a high position now, and Pan Lanzhen doesn't want to cause trouble to others. Besides, this is also a debt of gratitude for Chen Duxiu. She doesn't want Chen Duxiu to have these unnecessary burdens, so he should always be proud. After this incident was later known by Chen Duxiu, he turned his initial love for her into more appreciation. This is a woman to be reckoned with. She has erin brockovich's tenacity, almost stubborn stubbornness, and does not bow to fate. She understands him, respects him and loves him. She is lucky to meet her!
1937, Chen Duxiu was released from prison. After he got out of prison, everyone thought that Chen Duxiu, who had been in prison, should know how to compromise. After all, he is a talented person. Chiang Kai-shek also wants to reuse his talents. In order to invite him to work for the Kuomintang, he paid100000 yuan, but this was rejected by Chen Duxiu. Although expelled from the party, I have always supported the * * * production party! After that, he faced the choice of either being a scholar who didn't talk about politics like Hu Shi or finding a friend Deng Zhongchun who had invited him for a long time. Chen Duxiu chose Deng Zhongchun to make a career.
However, after going to Deng Zhongchun's home, I didn't see Deng Zhongchun himself. On the contrary, he was snubbed by his wife. Coupled with cynicism, how can Chen Duxiu, who has always been proud, be so angry with Mrs. Deng? Soon, he and Pan Lanzhen left Deng Zhongchun's home together. When they left Deng Zhongchun's home, they faced a great test, that is, the problem of normal life. Chen Duxiu's life is often very poor, which mainly includes two aspects: one is low income, and the other is high expenses. Together, they naturally lead a life of waiting for rice.
A normal life costs money, and Chen Duxiu is an extremely stubborn person. His principles are very strong. No matter what happens, no one can let him go against his principles. His calligraphy is very famous. So many people want to buy his calligraphy works at a high price, but even if he is extremely poor, not everyone in Chen Duxiu will sell them! For people he doesn't like, he won't sell anyway! Therefore, usually a merchant comes to the door, and he chooses to be hungry and will not compromise! Only a few people are selected for sale in the endless stream of people, and it is inevitable that the income will be less!
Low income is one thing, high expenditure is another. In his later years, Chen Duxiu was deeply aware of the importance of family, so he took the Chen Songnian family and his stepmother to their home. One more person will have one more mouth, and the cost is inevitable. Usually, Pan Lanzhen is in charge of the details of life, so Chen Duxiu doesn't know the degree of embarrassment at home. It was not until one time that he accidentally bumped into his wife staring blankly at the rice jar at home, with a full face of melancholy, that he realized that the family was already very poor. He was very ashamed of it. He always ignored how much energy his wife had for cooking and taking care of the whole family, but he never knew anything about it.
Seeing his wife worried, he joked, "You are a smart woman!" " Pan Lanzhen with a wry smile, and then continue to be in a daze, in fact, there are twenty thousand dollars in the home, that is the money that the Ministry of Education paid Chen Duxiu in advance to compile languages and write books. Chen Duxiu wanted to name this book "A Textbook for Primary School Students", but it was rejected by the Ministry of Education. Chen Duxiu thinks this is his own work, his own intellectual property rights, and he has the right to name it. How can he tolerate arbitrary manipulation by others? In order to show his determination, he decided not to touch the money, but also severely warned Pan Lanzhen that he would never touch the money, even if he died of poverty or hunger! But in any case, you can't really stay at home without cooking and wait to starve to death. After careful consideration, she decided to pawn one of her few ornaments to cushion this difficult period. ...
For the Chen Duxiu family, Pan Lanzhen is devoted, dedicated and well-intentioned. Chen Duxiu's stepmother is blind, so she closely follows the left side of the robot, taking care of herself, eating and dressing, all by herself; Chen Songnian family, she is very caring; When Chen Duxiu writes, she takes care of her surroundings to make sure that Chen Duxiu is in a comfortable environment. She is quiet and hard-working, but she takes good care of everyone. No wonder Chen Duxiu is the most unforgettable thing for her!
After that, Chen Duxiu's health went from bad to worse. He knows his time is running out, but he always feels guilty about Pan Lanzhen. He is proud of his life, but he has never brought a good life to Pan Lanzhen. When they were together, Pan Lanzhen had been living a poor life, not to mention enjoying life, even unable to have normal food and clothing, but she had been caring for their family's life, paying even more than his immediate family. Although she didn't say it, everyone could feel it. She is very young, only two years older than Chen Songnian. However, Chen Songnian sincerely respects her and regards her as her mother. He also said, "Our children call her grandma." Her efforts have long been obvious to all!
Chen Duxiu said to his wife before he died, "Lanzhen, I am sorry for my husband. Besides being scared, you and I have suffered a lot! " When she heard her husband say this, Pan Lanzhen had already disappeared, even though she was really wronged. Holding back her tears, she said to her husband, "Lanzhen is lonely, like weeds on the roadside. My husband doesn't dislike me, and she can serve him all her life. Lan Zhen is satisfied! " She spent this short half-life with Chen Duxiu, and always called him Mr. in her mind. It was Mr. who didn't abandon her background, taught her to read and write poems, and gave her respect. These are far more important than material life, and that kind of spiritual identity is the good medicine to cure her!
At this time, Pan Lanzhen was still very young, and Chen Duxiu couldn't bear to leave him, leaving Lanzhen alone in the world, so he told him, "First, you should stand on your own feet. If you have the right person, you can remarry as soon as possible and spend the rest of your life together. Secondly, one thing to remember is that being a husband in the world is not a virtue, but it is also a virtue. The money issued by the Ministry of Education cannot be used (that is, the 20,000 yuan), and my reputation must not be used to sell money. " Chen Duxiu left her five porcelain bowls and the manuscript fee given by her friend, and then she died.
Chen Duxiu's death was a great blow to Pan Lanzhen. She lives in Lacrimosa every day, and the world is left to her alone. At Chen Duxiu's funeral, people from all walks of life donated funeral expenses to him and came all the way to see him off. Although he made mistakes, his contribution is still indelible, and he is a bright light for countless young people. They still respect and love him!
After Chen Duxiu's death, Pan Lanzhen's life became more difficult, but she kept in mind her husband's entrustment and never earned a penny in his name, no matter how difficult it was. She just used the donated funeral expenses to buy a decent dress for her husband and wanted him to leave this world with dignity. 1949, she died of uterine cancer.
This woman, like Pucao, has always accompanied her husband in her short life. She has never compromised her life because of any hardships, and she has never obtained any privileges in the name of Chen Duxiu. She is not only a good wife and mother, but also a very admirable woman! Her fate is bumpy, and it is admirable to keep her husband at the end of his life!