On the Mid-Autumn Festival of 20 18, my wife and I attended the CD certification class of Li Haifeng. At first I thought
On the Mid-Autumn Festival of 20 18, my wife and I attended the CD certification class of Li Haifeng. At first I thought it was just an ordinary course, but after three days, I can't remember how many times I was touched. My biggest gain from the three-day course is that I learned how to know myself, understand others and let go of my fears and pride. We will eventually meet a better self. Combined with the learning content, I combed and analyzed everything related to myself horizontally and vertically, which made me find that there are so many small fortunes in my life. As for the output of the course, I have no experience, only some stories, just to match everyone's wine.
? The moment when memory begins.
? In 2005, one year after the junior high school resumed, Lightning was admitted to an art high school in the city with full marks in art, mainly because most students in this high school were admitted through art, calligraphy, music and other arts. Ideally, they will all be admitted to universities in this way. School started in September 1, and after a morning of patience in a strange environment, lightning with strong S characteristics was carried into the dining hall by the crowded crowd. Surprisingly, all the 10 sales windows in the dining hall chose burning as the main business items, such as salty, sweet and spicy fish, eggplant and even Mapo tofu. It's like burning the Grand View Garden and burning every window. For lightning, who doesn't like excitement and choice, this became a test, so he chose a relatively small number of teams to line up. When there were only two people left in front of him, lightning suddenly found that he had to have a meal card to buy a fire. Looking at the queue behind him getting longer and longer, he struggled for a moment. Lightning finally got up the courage to say to the girl in front: "Hello, classmate." The girl in front turned around with a hot fire in her hand and even a smile on her face. Lightning asked, "Can I borrow your meal card and I'll give you money first?" The girl smiled and said, "Yes." . At this moment, the love thread of lightning has a starting point. Later, lightning found out that he was in the same class as this girl. Her name is happiness.
Seeds planted quietly.
Time has nothing to do with lightning except that the calendar is getting thinner. In the first year of high school, he lived a monotonous life every day, feeling that life was dull but also leisure, except that the art teacher was appointed as the monitor of the art class because he could consciously change the briquettes for the stove in the art classroom. Of course, the monitor's biggest role is to change briquettes. His grades are average. Once, because God opened his eyes, he answered several questions correctly, and his academic performance jumped from more than twenty to the top ten. However, when he went to study in the evening while the iron was hot for a month, his grades returned to more than 20, so he began to believe in fate as before, that his parents were obedient and sensible, that his classmates were fearless, and that he no longer believed in himself. The seeds he planted grow up slowly, but he always looks at happiness from a distance, just like their seats. Happiness is in the first row, and lightning is in the last row. He looked up and could see it, but he was afraid to walk on the stage. However, happiness and lightning have more or less some intersection, because of the good popularity necessary for S characteristics.
? A casual long talk
Blink of an eye is the summer vacation of senior one, and lightning and happiness signed up for summer art training together. In fact, 90% of the students in the whole class have signed up for the same art class, which is also because this class is run by an art teacher. During my study, Lightning once bought pencils for my classmates to draw. When riding a bike, I accidentally tripped over an empty bottle of mineral water and slipped out for a long time on the road. Both arms were punctured, and lightning got up and cleaned up briefly, without making a sound. To cover up the wound, he wore a long-sleeved plaid shirt for the next two weeks. One day after dinner, Happiness suddenly ran to Lightning and asked, "Why do you always wear long-sleeved clothes?" Not hot? " . Lightning said, "No, I like to wear it like this." Next, lightning and happiness had a long talk for the first time after they met. They take the training class as the center and walk around again and again. Lightning can't remember the specific content of the conversation. The only thing he remembers is that at the end, lightning's arm was rolled up by happiness. Lightning was a little surprised at that time, and his nervousness covered up the pain. He froze for a while. Many years later, lightning and happiness talked about the experience of that conversation, and happiness had no impression at all. Lightning took a sip of beer, but his eyes were still full of tears.
A tentative confession
I was still in the same art class in the summer vacation of my sophomore year. Happiness found an English morning reading class in the university near the training point. Inviting lightning to participate, lightning subconsciously agreed. The content of morning reading is to shout out "I can believe that my dream will come true". Many years later, Happiness gave up studying art for 8 years and began to engage in English education. There should be a large part of reasons. Every morning, lightning rides a bicycle and carries happiness back and forth. Happiness shouted loudly in English, attracting strange eyes from passers-by. After the morning reading class, other friends invited them to attend an English summer camp at 700 yuan's expense. Happiness can't make up her mind to discuss with lightning. Until now, lightning still clearly remembers the conversation at that time.
Happiness: Do you think I should attend this English summer camp?
Lightning: Go and join if you think you can.
Happiness: Then whether you go or not.
Lightning: I won't go. It's too expensive and I can't afford it. If you attend, I can give you all the expenses. (At that time, one month's food expenses for lightning 120 yuan. Because he works in the school cafeteria every day, he can praise all the food expenses. )
Happiness: I can't use your money.
In the end, lightning didn't go and happiness didn't go. This is the first tentative confession of happiness by lightning.
An encounter doomed to failure
Before the winter vacation in senior three, all the students in the class are preparing to take the art college entrance examination all over the country. This is a great migration in Art Candidates every year. The school has an early holiday for everyone to prepare for the exam. Because of lightning and happiness, they are going to different provinces. Before the holiday, lightning pretended to be calm and walked towards happiness and goodbye like everyone else. Happiness still smiles. After saying goodbye, Lightning rode his horse to his hometown in the countryside 50 miles away. Just out of a school intersection, lightning suddenly remembered that he had something to say, so he immediately turned around and wanted to catch up with happiness and create an encounter. The extremely fast wheels and the extremely fast bicycle heartbeat drive each other's rhythm, making the bicycle and heartbeat faster and faster. Riding 4 kilometers in the opposite direction, Lightning finally found no shadow of happiness, so he slowed down his heartbeat and speed and went home with inexplicable depression.
Never started, but it's time to end.
At the end of the winter vacation, Lightning returned to school after taking entrance exams in eight art colleges. While waiting for the admission notice, the students also devoted themselves to the intense cultural examination preparation. Anxiety, fatigue and expectation fill everyone's brain. Soon after, the admission notices of the students around us flew like snowflakes, and everyone shared the joy from all over the world. However, none of the snowflakes fell on the lightning, which made him wonder if his mailing address was wrong. After repeated confirmation, lightning quickly accepted this arrangement of fate. After a week of struggle, when the students around him were preparing to fill in the college entrance examination volunteers, Lightning threw away his bike, his bedding, all the materials related to his study, and his love that he had never opened. He walked alone for ten hours and returned to his home 50 miles away. He had hoped to use these ten hours to sort out the route and then return to China, but he never thought that hunger and fatigue on the way would make his already confused thoughts more confused. In this way, lightning's study and love are over.
Seemingly hopeless, it lit a little star.
After dropping out of school, Lightning undertook the mission of his own furniture workshop. He keeps company with wood and chainsaws every day and has a beard. Every time he appeared, he brought his own movie special effects of flying sawdust, and he has become a real carpenter. 19 years old, it's time to get married and have children in the countryside. At this point, lightning also dispelled all delusions, and went through several blind date procedures with disapproval and conflict. Because of his personality, he left his phone number, and he dropped it every time, because he didn't take the initiative, and then it was gone. In August, the municipal armed forces department called home and asked if Lightning had no intention of being a soldier. Lightning disagreed at the time. He seems to have confirmed that he can only be a carpenter in his future life, and subconsciously resists this change. Mother Lightning then mobilized all relatives of the lightning family who had been soldiers to bomb in turn, but her inner stubbornness failed to resist the powerful environment, and lightning began to adjust her state and prepare to join the army. Three years later, Lightning went home as a soldier and asked his mother why she urged Lightning to join the army. Lightning's mother said, "I just want you to move to another place to exercise." You haven't seen your old age at first sight. "
Three years of silence? Finally reached the passing level.
At the end of 2008, Happiness went to college in the south, and Lightning followed the train to Beijing. Because of the discipline of the army and the worry of inner uncertainty, lightning has no other way of communication except to send happiness a photo with Tiananmen Square within two years. 20 1 1 In August, lightning couldn't restrain his excitement when he received the admission notice from the military academy. I was happy to tell the news at the first time, and finally I had the courage to express my thoughts all along. "Happiness, I finally have the ability to give you a happy future. Would you like to be my girlfriend?" Happiness has neither agreed nor refused. On the other end of the phone, happiness was a little surprised to hear the confession of lightning, because before that, happiness had never found any signs that could be related.
From school to graduation? Love is so same frequency.
When I was a freshman at Lightning University, Happiness had graduated from college and chose to continue studying in the same province. Lightning depicts a seemingly clear future through a series of telephone signals. Every winter and summer vacation, lightning always arrives at the station one step ahead of happiness and waits for her arrival. 10 minutes later, he will be sent to the car to go home. But holidays are always short, and there are only a few common topics on the phone. With more and more complaints about happiness, the idea of staying in the south is gradually revealed in the discourse, and the lightning with good appearance and stubborn heart is only silent in the face of a series of complaints. Finally, during the winter vacation of my junior year, I didn't go home because of the internship of Lightning. After several quarrels, the two acquiesced in the fact that they broke up without contact. But even if they broke up, lightning didn't understand the specific reasons for breaking up. Four months later, before Lightning graduated, he suddenly received a watch from Happiness. After writing four big words "Everything goes well" on a card, there is nothing else. Lightning is a little frustrated, but I don't know why.
There is only one result.
After graduation, all the work of Lightning began to be busy, and there seemed to be less things about happiness. 20 14,10 In June, Lightning took two days off after his job was stable, bought a high-speed rail ticket and went to his happy province. There was only one purpose at that time-to say goodbye in person. The night before leaving, Lightning suddenly received a happy phone call from 10 months later without any connection, which surprised Lightning. Even during his love, happiness only called lightning a few times. The content of the conversation is all aimless greetings and revolves around a topic that I don't know how to speak. After two hours of long talk, I vaguely remember happiness asking Lightning, "What if we are together?" Lightning was silent for a long time and didn't know how to answer. During the call, Lightning never revealed that he had bought a train ticket. Until now, lightning and happiness don't know why the phone call of happiness is so close to the time when lightning buys tickets. The next day, when lightning arrived at Happy School, it was already half past eight in the evening. According to the address where I mailed something to Happiness before, Lightning came to the downstairs of Happiness Dormitory and dialed the number of Happiness. The phone didn't get through, and soon, lightning sent a message saying, "I'm in class, wait a minute." An hour and a half later, all the lights in the dormitory went out, and lightning didn't get a happy call. When Lightning called again, Lightning said he was downstairs. Happiness was once suspicious. After seeing the photos of the dormitory sent by lightning, Happiness went downstairs. After a year and a half, the two met again and smiled at each other and said, "Hello, long time no see." Yes, long time no see. At that moment, lightning no longer had any doubts.
Ten years later, I finally got a chance to draw a full stop.
20 15, Happiness came to work in Beijing. Two years later, lightning and happiness got married. Lightning meets happiness, and slowly it meets happiness itself. Other people's rest time is shopping and watching movies, but lightning is happily shuttled through large and small classes and clubs, and then greeting each other: "Hello, classmates". Lightning is slowly discovering that life can really be as you wish.