I am like this too and have been practicing for ten years.
As a result, I got cervical spondylosis.
Large paper and ink pen bowls were wasted, causing pollution. Of course, up to now, words are not worth much.
The only thing is that I have formed a group of so-called cultural people.
My bragging skills have improved a lot every day.
Now,
I have opened a calligraphy and painting shop to make ends meet.