However, during this time, I enjoyed too much freedom, no pressure and no motivation. Even if I take someone else's job, I'm lazy and put it off until the end. That was not the case. I barely finished writing the class review this morning, and I feel a lot rusty.
I still want to be lazy. It's really good to do nothing with the play and stay in the comfort zone. No pressure, go to bed on time every day, wake up normally, and almost never lose sleep again.
However, I met Brother Wang Zhongming in the headlines yesterday, a big brother with the same occupation and similar interests as me. He listened to me and tried to help me. He said, I can totally go to their school. If I like, I'm always welcome. He can take care of me at school, give me some interview opportunities, and make my literary dream come true faster.
I am very entangled and hesitant. After all, the temptation is not great. If it is the salary of Qinglanshan, then I may want to leave right away. But I still don't want to move with the same salary and the same pressure from famous schools. After all, at the age of 4 1 year, there is really no need to leave home unless special treatment is given. Teacher Liang also advised me not to change my job. Husband is even more blunt, don't you want children and mothers? To tell the truth, I was just moved and didn't have the courage to leave!
Brother Wang Zhongming said that you can never lose your love for literature. You are lucky to be a sheep. He is my noble man. As long as I insist on writing. He made me famous first.
To tell the truth, the motivation to write is getting smaller and smaller. On the one hand, newspapers and magazines are too difficult to publish, on the other hand, even if the manuscript fee is published, people can't move. It's really boring to post on WeChat platform just to make wedding clothes for others. More importantly, there are too few scholars, and words can only warm themselves. Too few people really want to study. As Teacher Liang said, writing is mostly for myself.
That's it. I don't need readers. I just record my feelings and leave footprints. If there is a reader, let him go.
Anyway, life is your own and has nothing to do with others. Then continue to write and keep it as a memory when you are old, to commemorate those years that have not grown old!