Occasionally, I think of myself in the past and think it can be described as "ignorant and fearless". There was a sentence in the summary at the end of last year: A person's stubbornness when he was young is really commendable, and it is a kind of cocky mood of "I can't die anyway", and this mood also has a shelf life. Not afraid of hardship, trouble, uncertainty, but afraid of wasting time, wasting time. Yes, along the way, we have gained and lost. Do you still have courage and vitality, perseverance and flexibility that few people can appreciate?
The age of early twenties is really a wonderful time. We can be as beautiful as the characters in fairy tales, or we may turn around and get into a quagmire accidentally. Every time I brush the space and Weibo, I will forward the good content to my collection. I can ask myself, how many times will I go back and read it carefully? I am eager for a beautiful and unrestrained day, and I am eager for myself to shine, but in reality I have been entangled in laziness and indulgence.
get up
Some people say: the more self-discipline, the more freedom. I didn't understand it before, but now I always feel that I know it too late. If you indulge your body, you will eventually become a frequent visitor to the hospital. This is my personal experience. Because of loneliness and boredom, I seldom go running in the playground again; Because I don't like light, the taste is heavier; Because the online world is so magical, I stay up almost every night ... because of too many reasons, I almost broke my body, got angry, got wet, was in poor health and had a toothache ... I was like a machine that had been in disrepair for years. There are flaws inside and outside, and it costs money and loses money to decorate once! If I know this, why should I know it?
Who doesn't want to have a bright future? But if you don't have a healthy body and a sound personality, what can you strive for? Once upon a time, I was consumed by a bunch of trivial things and almost fell down. I can't see any vigor and vitality, and my basic cognition and reason are occasionally lost. Now I only feel ridiculous at that time, but I still secretly admire myself for trying to find an exit and light in the dark. I know that I have never been a normal child, but this does not mean that I am mentally deficient or "sick" in general, but I am weak in all aspects, so sometimes I deliberately ask myself to live a transparent and peaceful life, try to see clearly and think clearly, and don't always let myself go.
It's winter vacation. For various reasons, I didn't go out to work or practice as before. I'm always lazy during my stay at home. It is a bit contradictory to enjoy stress-free comfort and miss the courage to go out. I seldom went home in the past three holidays, but I didn't realize it until I ran for so long? ! Did you ask me anything? I dare not say that I made a lot of money, but I also gained some calmness and calmness; Do you ask me if I have any regrets? I only hate myself for starting too late and paying too little attention to knowledge and pattern. The plan is to stay at home and study hard this winter vacation. I never thought that toothache would follow after another wave of unrest, before the moisture was discharged. When will I stay in bed?
I think I am a person who has healed the scar and forgotten the pain. I was ill for a long time a few years ago, but later I forgot the money I spent and the crimes I suffered, and I couldn't extricate myself from the false "freedom" of self-indulgence. Now, I almost dare not touch all kinds of bitter, salty, cold and greasy flavors, and began to focus on health care liquid intentionally, in order to cure and recover! Is it for better health in the future? Not exactly. I know what virtue I am. I am really not responsible for my body! But isn't there a saying that "I will be born after death"? I have been seriously ill twice, so it's time to wake up. Knowing that your body is different from others, you should take good exercise and take good care of your body. My body can walk dozens of kilometers a day and climb Mount Tai back and forth. How can I ignore it?
on the way
Speaking of outdoor activities, I haven't participated in many activities for more than two years, but compared with my classmates around me, I have to say that these activities, which cost money and are meaningless to most people, have really brought me a lot. Special thanks to the 9th T60 Tour around Mount Tai. Thanks to myself for walking the whole course step by step, let me fall from the sky and give me enough strength to face setbacks, difficulties and setbacks. If I knew in advance that my ankle would be damaged for half a year, and I had to resist the contempt and incomprehension of too many people, would I not hesitate? Not necessarily. However, despite these negative effects, T60 has brought me more wonderful growth. Although others can't understand it, what I need to do is to secretly remember this little wealth.
A classmate once said a very sharp sentence to me: living a life like a pig, but wanting a body like a monkey brother. It's annoying, but the truth is basically the same. When I was a freshman, I did insist on exercising and dieting, but it didn't take long for me to lose patience with this boring life ... but it was my heartfelt love for running that year that gave me enough motivation and confidence to take part in hiking in the future.
A few days ago, I went to Qingdao to participate in an activity challenging Qingdao Station in China. In a small group of more than 20 people, I tried group building activities, cultural exploration, a hundred-mile night trip, and zero-dollar survival. Generally speaking, it is not too tired, but the long-lost body does have some difficulties. In addition, other challengers are all from excellent universities, which has caused some pressure on themselves, so although they always have a smile on their faces in those days, their mood is inevitably heavy. However, this activity also brought me new horizons and broad horizons, and gained something.
In the future, I want to run more marathons and take part in outdoor activities such as hiking, because I find that I really seem to live in such activities that are not understood by most people. This is probably a living method that suits you.
clamber
I come from the grass-roots level, and sometimes it takes a lot of effort to reach the starting point of others. Looking around, I feel proud and inferior. In retrospect, I am sorry and sorry. No matter what happened in the past and now, I can't change it. It is important to live in the present better, have a clear understanding of yourself and the environment, and open up a bright road.
I haven't been to many places, but listening to other people's stories about unknown, strange cities, people I don't know and new things is fascinating and shocking. With positive thoughts and the pursuit of dreams, I have been to Qingdao and Beijing in addition to my hometown and school. I really want to go to more places, experience more interesting things and see more interesting souls in the future.
I never believed that my life would stop here. I tried to find all kinds of exits. I believe that only by seeing the world clearly and finding the gap can we get rid of the confused self at the moment and understand that life is infinite. Your peers really live the life you want, and those "other people's children" who should have appeared in newspapers and TV are actually around you.
There will always be a road under your feet, but what kind of road you can take is only the result of your choice. A dull life needs more excitement. Nothing is still. If you don't prepare for danger in times of peace, you are likely to be eliminated in the next step. There is pressure to be motivated. My trip to Qingdao told me that if I continue to be lazy, I will find no place to live in the vast China.
The classmates around me say that my thoughts are too profound. Think more and do less, but action and thinking complement each other, and the balance can only be grasped by yourself. Sometimes I wonder, am I deliberately pursuing a full and clear life? The truth is not always beautiful, and there is nothing wrong with being confused.
It's no use talking too much, and it's no use thinking too much. Let's go ahead and cherish the next road.