Guan Lu's talent is obvious to all. If, like Zhang Ailing, she doesn't go into politics, but works hard, she may leave many touching chapters. However, this can only be possible. Her writing talent was completely ruined by her political career.
One night in June, Guan Lu was making the final revision for the novel "Old and New Times", when she suddenly received a task from her superior, asking her to break into the notorious No.76 Shanghai headquarters of Wang Puppet, and to approach and rebel against the spy chief at that time.
This task was originally for Guan Lu's sister Hu Xiufeng, because Hu Xiufeng helped the victim's wife Li Shiqun. With this relationship, it should be easier to turn against Li Shiqun. However, Hu Xiufeng was busy with her work in Chongqing, so she introduced her sister Guan Lu to the organization.
The task was sudden, but Guan Lu, who was full of patriotic enthusiasm, readily agreed.
In order to successfully complete the task, she had to say goodbye to her lover Wang Bingnan for the time being.
When Guan Lu said goodbye to Wang Bingnan, Wang Bingnan sent her a photo, which read: You care about me for a while, but I care about you forever. Guan Lu gave him a book of poetry, Songs in the Pacific Ocean.
When shaking hands, Guan Lu's eyes were a little moist, and she remembered the first time they met: Wang Bingnan was taken to Guan Lu's house by a friend, and they chatted for a long time in her sweet boudoir. Wang Bingnan has experienced twists and turns. He once organized farmers to resist grain and taxes, became the first party branch secretary of Ganxian County, and studied abroad. Guan Lu admired Wang Bingnan's experience.
It was love at first sight.
All divorced people. When you meet in your thirties, you don't want that kind of young men and women. What they want more is a stable and mature emotion, so that their hearts can be put down.
Later, they enhanced each other's goodwill through letters, and it was this warmth that gave Guan Lu some comfort on the lonely beach.
Wang Bingnan is a revolutionary, and he is very supportive of the road closure work. In this way, two people in love separated for work.
Guan Lu had such a dialogue with Pan Hannian sent by the organization:
Pan: If someone calls you a traitor in the future, you can't defend yourself. If you do, that's too bad.
Guan: I don't defend myself.
Of course, when Guan Lu said this, she did not expect that she would pay a heavy price for the rest of her life.
Guan Lu quickly broke into the 76th hole as a benefactor's sister. Guan Lu looked very young then. He is very tall and good at dealing with people. She visits Mr. and Mrs. Li Shiqun once or twice a month to observe and understand the trends and seek information. Li Shiqun and his wife like Guan Lu very much. They send her 200 yuan money every month. Li Shiqun also asked Guan Lu to go shopping with his wife and treat her as one of their own.
After Guan Ju came to Li Shiqun's side, he soon found out some real thoughts of Li Shiqun. It turned out that the big traitor in the occupied area was very nervous about his future despite killing the people.
Guan Ju told Pan Hannian what Li Shiqun thought, and finally succeeded in turning Li Shiqun against him.
While closing the road to do these jobs, the news that she took refuge in Wang puppet spy has spread all over Shanghai. People in the literary and art circles are full of disdain for Guan Lu, and various related activities no longer accept her to join.
Guan Lu is very painful about all this, but she can't refute it. She firmly remembers what she once said to Pan Hannian. If she is accused of being a traitor by others, she will never defend herself.
She always thought that such a day would not last long and would soon clarify herself.
After completing the task of Li Shiqun Uprising, Guan Lu wrote a letter to the organization and asked to go to Yan 'an. Sister Guan Lu quickly handed the letter to the organization. I don't know the answer is that I shouldn't come back. Shanghai hopes Guan Lu will stay and provide them with useful information.
Guan Lu cried all night after getting the news. It's sad to think that even friends don't trust her and spit on her now, and the writing they love can't be carried out and lovers can't meet each other. Only after crying, she pulled herself together and continued to complete the task assigned to her by the organization.
The new task is to make her the editor of the Japanese-run magazine Voice of Women. "Female Voice" is a comprehensive monthly, and the first article in each issue is a fallacy provided by Japanese officials to advocate the glory of Greater East Asia. The president is a Japanese woman writer named Toshihiko Sato. The purpose of Guan Lu's going to the female voice is to get close to Sato, and then get close to the Japanese left through her, find party member, Japan, and get some information about Japan.
Guan Lu is in charge of novels, drama reviews and miscellaneous talks with female voices. In order to prevent the traitor's speech from appearing and protect his identity, Guan Lu can only make up some boring romantic articles as much as possible, which will take up many pages. This mindless job is really boring for Guan Lu.
Working in the "female voice" is poorly paid, and even life is a problem. Guan Lu lives frugally, hardly eats breakfast, and can't eat meat and eggs at all. She is semi-hungry all the year round, and she is very weak, sometimes even fainting. Not to mention in winter, the house rented by Guan Lu is as cold as icehouse, and it is too cold to buy charcoal. Guan Lu wants to sell blood for charcoal. When she went to the hospital, the doctor didn't draw her blood, saying that she was too weak to bear it. Without selling blood or buying charcoal, Guan Lu spent a winter in a cold rental house.
1August, 943, Guan Ju went to the East Asian Literature Conference, which made Guan Ju hesitate, because attending this conference to announce the list would mean that Guan Ju once again appeared in front of the world as a so-called traitor scholar. Guan Lu hesitated. However, the superior organization sent a message that if you go to Japan, you will see and hear a lot of things. Don't miss this opportunity.
So Guan Lu went. At this conference, the topic of Guan Lu's speech given by Japan was "Glory of Greater East Asia". Guan Lu changed the topic to "Sino-Japanese women's cultural exchange" and said some irrelevant topics, such as the language barrier between China and Japan, which made it difficult for everyone to communicate, so we should learn more languages in the future.
Sure enough, when Guan Lu returned to Shanghai after attending the meeting, she saw an article published in Current Affairs News: "When the daily newspaper tried its best to bluff for the honor circle of * * *, Guan Lu was honored as a representative and went to the enemy capital to hold a congress without shame. She is a female writer who grew up with deformity. " Guan Ju's career as a traitor reached its peak.
Guan Lu forgot how those days passed. There must be a stronger force supporting her heart. She struggled in the enemy camp for six years and finally waited until the Japanese army surrendered.
Guan Lu returned to the liberated areas in northern Jiangsu, thinking that he could speak out his grievances and exonerate himself. Who knew it was more painful to meet her?
Guan Lu wanted to regain his enthusiasm and continue writing, but found that the name "Guan Lu" had become a symbol of shame and he could no longer publish any articles. If you want to publish an article, you can only change your name, which means that all the literary achievements of Guan Zheng will be scrapped before this.
Guan Yu was very wronged, but said, Why can't you forget the name Lu Guan? You should consider the honor of the party newspaper, not your personal honor.
What makes Guan Lu more miserable than this is that she received a letter from her lover Wang Bingnan, which turned out to be a dear John letter. Of course, this is not Wang Bingnan's intention. He is going to marry Guan Lu, and he reported it to the organization. After repeated research, the organizational conclusion is that Guan Lu is a good comrade, but because of her special experience, she has a bad reputation in society. The masses think that Guan Lu is a cultural traitor, while Wang Bingnan has been engaged in foreign affairs for a long time, and the masses know that he is * * *. If he marries Guan Lu, it will have a bad influence on society and Wang Bingnan's future work. Wang Bingnan had no choice but to obey.
Guan Lu didn't expect that her fiery emotion turned into a mirage, which made her spiritual world collapse by half. She didn't know where she was wrong. Why did the humiliating years of her spy career end like this? When she walks in the street, some people who don't know the truth will still point at her and scold her, throw stones at her and spit. This really seems like an irony. Guan Lu returned to her residence, tears streaming down her face. What surprised her even more was that she became the focus of censorship in the rectification movement. Again and again, a heavy blow completely destroyed Guan Lu. Later, Guan Lu was jailed twice for his involvement in the Pan Hannian case. She suffers from mild schizophrenia and sometimes she is in a trance. When she is in a trance, she often sits on the ground alone, without eating or drinking. A little sober is to write those endless confession materials.
One day, Guan Ju was seriously ill. She was taken to the hospital for treatment and then returned to her cell for further examination. After eight years in prison, Guan Lu's already bad health was destroyed again.
She read the script of Red women soldiers in prison and deeply regretted that Hong Changqing and Wu Qinghua never fell in love. She thought: Heroes have feelings since ancient times, but Evergreen doesn't love Tsinghua? It's like she decided that although she can't be with Wang Bingnan, Wang Bingnan loves her. When she was most lonely, she held his picture in her arms. There are two poems written by her on the back of the photo: Who is close to a dream, I am infatuated with my eternal lover.
After Guan Lu was released from prison, he lived in a small room of 10 square meter. She used to love cleanliness, but she made a mess at home. The air was dirty and the smell was terrible.
1980 One day in May, Guan Lu suddenly fell unconscious. Was sent to the hospital for examination and found to be cerebral thrombosis. After the rescue, many memories became blurred, and she couldn't write any more, so Lian Bi couldn't carry her whole hand on her back.
1982, Pan Hannian got * * *, and Guan Lu got Comrade Guan Lu's * * * decision, which clarified for the first time that Guan Lu was sent to Shanghai by a party to do intelligence work.
Get this result, Guan Lu finally relieved. This year, she is 75 years old, and her beautiful youth is long gone. She was only accompanied by illness and loneliness. A few days later, Guan Lu swallowed a lot of sleeping pills at home, and finally she could sleep peacefully without being disturbed.
Before Guan Lu died, there was only a big plastic doll beside her. I can't imagine the desolation when she was holding the plastic doll.
After Guan Lu's death, the Ministry of Culture held a grand funeral for her, and the noisy crowd formed a sharp contrast with her loneliness before her death.
The funeral procession has gone far away, and no one knows Guan Ju's heroism when he wrote the poem "Better fight for the motherland than be a national widow". At that time, she was in the prime of life and planned to devote her life to the country with a man's mind.
A talented woman in life