If I don’t see my beloved, it’s three autumns in one day. What does it mean to be hateful when I was alive?

Not seeing the one you love is like three autumns.

Not seeing my beloved’s face, it’s three autumns in one day, how hateful I was when I was alive is a verse from the ancient poem “Cai Ge”. The meaning of this poem is that without seeing the face of the one you love, one day feels like three autumns have passed. The author feels hateful about his life time and does not know when this long wait will end.