Let us continue to appreciate Zhu Shuzhen's "heartbroken" heartfelt words.
Twelve railings (railings): Quoted from "Bicheng Twelve Railings" in "Bicheng Three Poems" by Li Shangyin. Losing and: Not as good as. Fangcao, this refers to the person who misses the traveler.
Meaning of the word:
It is half past the spring, and as far as the eye can see, the flowers have withered. Leaning on the railings and wandering around, I feel the boundless spring sorrow filling the sky and the earth.
Although the wind is gentle and the sun is warm, my soul is not as free and comfortable as the pairs of orioles. As I lowered the curtain and thought about people far away, the courtyard was filled with broken flowers.
Zhu Shuzhen did not give up her pursuit and fantasy of love.
"Old friend, the grass is green in the sky, and the sky is as far away as possible to stir up confusion in my heart." ("Feelings of Late Spring") "When we first joined hands to learn to draw eyebrows, we didn't know whose thoughts belonged to whom. When I will fully embrace the Mid-Autumn Moon, Give Xiao Lang ten thousand poems." ("Autumn Day Comes Together") These are the portrayal of her girlish feelings, and she wrote all her longings and good wishes for the future into her poems.
However, fate did not favor this sentimental woman, and love failed her beauty and talent.
The Song Dynasty was indeed an open and elegant society, but romance was mostly reserved for men, especially the literati class. In addition, decades after the humiliation of Jingkang and the migration of the Song Dynasty to the south, Neo-Confucianism represented by Zhu Xi became popular. The focus was on strengthening the ethical doctrine of "Three Cardinal Guidelines and Five Constant Virtues", stricting women's etiquette and behavioral norms, and using feudal ethical ethics such as "Three Obediences and Four Virtues" to Confining the minds of women.
Seeing her daughter's bold and explicit or ambiguous and euphemistic expressions of love in poems, Zhu Shuzhen's parents first admonished and reprimanded, but to no avail. Growing increasingly anxious, they discussed it over and over again and decided to put this careless thing into practice. His daughter got married, thinking that as a married woman, she would be able to live in peace and contentment.
When Zhu Shuzhen was sixteen years old, her parents made the decision and betrothed her to a grammar clerk named Wang with a marriage contract.
When Zhu Shuzhen saw this man, he could be regarded as a talented person, but he was a bit dull. She thought, now that the matter is over, let’s just marry and follow the hen, and go through the ups and downs of life hand in hand with her husband.
In the beginning, their married life was quite sweet, which can be seen from a piece of "Quan'er Ci" written by her.
It is said that on the occasion of her wedding, Zhu Shuzhen sent a letter to her husband who was working in a foreign country. The letter had no words and was full of circles. The husband didn't understand its meaning, but he suddenly realized it when he saw the "Lovesickness Ci" written in small regular script in the spine of the book.
Seeing his wife's love letter full of lovesickness and remembering her humorous and playful charm, Xiao Wang was so anxious that he hired a boat to return to his hometown in Haining early the next morning.
However, good days are always so short.
Zhu Shuzhen’s husband was just a grammar clerk, which was equivalent to today’s non-professional staff, and was not an official, so he had to work hard and try his best to deal with the officialdom. Therefore, he and Zhu Shuzhen were always together less and more apart. When she was living alone, Zhu Shuzhen could only use poetry to resolve her longing for her husband, such as the last sentence of "Butterfly Love Flower·Send Spring", "Sending wine to spring without saying a word, but it rains at dusk."
Obviously, there was no resentment at the beginning, but a touch of sadness between the lines. However, as the passion of newlyweds subsides, the differences in personality and hobbies between the two gradually become apparent.
Zhu Shuzhen is destined to be a woman born for love. She hopes to spend her days spending time together, accompanied by poetry and wine, and playing the piano and the harp in harmony; while Xiao Wang values ????fame, wealth and career. So the number of times he went home to visit relatives became less and less. Even when he comes back, he still doesn't know how to care about her, or understand her charm. He became increasingly disdainful of his wife's petty bourgeois sentiments, and became increasingly impatient to listen to her voice.
Zhu Shuzhen originally expected her husband to be considerate and gentle. Unexpectedly, her husband did not care at all and instead often made sarcastic remarks. "How can a little woman have so many thoughts and melancholy?" Zhu Shuzhen argued: "The east wind does not control the flowers, when will they stop growing and combing the branches? There are thousands of painful notes, but there is no understanding at all." But her husband I think she is being unreasonable.
Zhu Shuzhen was heartbroken and extremely disappointed. She did not expect to marry such a vulgar, boring man who smelled of copper.
She finally realized that they were two straight parallel lines running in opposite directions, and could never have the intersection of love; she knew that even if they were close at hand, the distance between their hearts would be as far away as the world; She clearly predicted that her marriage had no future. As a result, she couldn't help but miss the "him" who once touched her heartstrings!
Although the weather in late spring is sunny and sunny, the flowers are beginning to wither. The falling red blossoms rolled in the wind and fell into the courtyard one after another. This kind of scenery and images can easily evoke the melancholy of spring, not to mention the orioles calling their friends and the swallows cooing and snuggling, as if they are proudly showing off their happiness and sweetness, which makes the solitary protagonist even more unbearable.
So, she had no choice but to close the door behind the curtains and let her longing and resentment follow her to the edge of the grass.
My lover, how could you be so heartless and leave without saying goodbye? Do you know my loneliness and my pain? My beauty should only be appreciated by you, and my fragrance should be tasted by you alone, but you gave up so easily before I could bloom brilliantly, you enemy! Thinking of this, Zhu Shuzhen's heart was broken and she burst into tears.
She knew that she was far from strong, and she felt that she could not hold on any longer.
So, will he appear in her life again?