The distant "you":
Zhan Xinjia, seeing words is like meeting each other.
I boldly write this letter for you in a scrawled handwriting. It is very simple but also true and crude. I only hope for your safety. Thank you very much for your attention and love, which gave me the idea of ??writing this letter. This you is far away and strange to me. Although unknown, you are indeed charming. Because of the warmth you gave me, my life at this stage has become more graceful.
I like to write letters very much, but I rarely receive letters. What about you? When I write letters before, I always like to write at the beginning. I want to write a very long letter to you, so that you can’t read it to the end and never forget me. But I don’t think so now, because on the road of growing up as a human being, there are always some important people who cannot be with me, and not every miss can be answered, but it is a blessing to have them. When we met on this platform, we just greeted each other across the surging crowd. After all, you have warmed me and I have warmed you. For this existence, we should be happy, just like the song "Accidental" we shared, No?
First, let me assume your gender, but as if that doesn't matter. Because no matter what, I want you to be happy. Compared with being excellent, warm, and smart, which are complimentary words that need to be judged by others, I hope that your happiness will be determined and defined by yourself. Your feelings are the most important.
Next I want to guess your age. Are you younger than me? I will receive many private messages from high school students. When I am called my sister in the true sense, I will feel a different kind of emotion in my heart, as if I am doing something great. So I want to tell you quietly, it is better to study as much as possible, and at least give yourself a small goal. There is an old Chinese saying, if you ask for the best, you will get the middle, if you ask for the middle, you will get the lower, if you ask for the lower, you will not. This isn't entirely true, but don't let your guard down. But don’t be too nervous. If you have questions that you don’t know, you can ask me. If I don’t know how, I will ask the teacher or my classmates for you. In short, you should calm down and work hard, hehe.
So, what if you are slightly older than me? I have not completely stepped into the adult world. It seems that the people around me have protected me very well. I can only have a partial understanding of the pressure from adults through the Internet and books. But I think you are amazing. It’s amazing in your career, it’s amazing in the place you are in, it’s amazing that you also have poetry and dreams at my age. I am even more impressed that you are willing to pay me to read history books for the sake of your children. I don’t know if you are included in them, but I can feel youth, love and responsibility.
Now that I have written this, I also want to tell you what I am saying. But I don’t have any worries. I only worry about why my aunt turned on the lights but didn’t turn them off when she checked the dormitory hygiene. I only worry about why I can’t buy original Assam milk tea. For example, some worries are about whether the late night snack I ate today counts as a cheat meal this week. But all these worries disappeared as soon as I slept. Of course there are times when I feel like crying, such as feeling homesick, homesick, and homesick. There are many things that have no reason to let them stay overnight. If you want to be beautiful and handsome, you must learn to make peace with your troubles and become friends, right?
Of course, I was panicked growing up too. There must be people in this world that I can never catch up with, and there are people that I will never be able to catch up to in my entire life, but even if they are ordinary, I still hope to live a slightly different light. It seems that you have also seen it, and I can also feel the wings spread out behind you and the light emitted. Look, good luck will come, and we will definitely be loved by fate. If not at this moment, we must never give up. A single spark can start a prairie fire. You already have poetry in your heart, and I just lit it up.
In fact, I have written a lot, but I have not written any thanks. I am grateful for the personal messages, the long paragraphs of text, and the distant “you” who will receive this letter that gives me strength. I don’t want to add anyone’s contact information because I often think that I care about my friends even if I don’t tell them. But now that I add you, I will add the next her/him. Over time, I may have gotten to know more people and seen more different lives, but I have lost my love for my friends and it is just superficial politeness and officialdom. Sorry, I often feel that I am indifferent, but I really think that "every time, for a while" it is beautiful and exists like this.
The most important thing is that we should first be kind, secondly be honest, and thirdly never forget it in the future, right? Thank you, maybe because you are many, many kilometers away from me, maybe because we are not stationed in the same land, or maybe because our occupations and identities are different. There is a passage in the postscript of "When You Pass by My Bloom" that fully expresses what I think. I want to copy it here for you: The name of the book is "When You Pass by My Bloom", which is really a bit strange. I'm sorry, it's actually not in full bloom yet, so I passed by you, but thank you for not being disappointed. But what I really want to say is that when we walk, we have to work hard to get along with the world. When we are in full bloom, We have to work hard to get along with ourselves. Only in this way, everything external and internal, whether it is pain or joy, will not become an obstacle to us, but will become our strength, so when you pass by my bloom, please don't stop. I also want to say, thank you for witnessing and accompanying me, allowing me to grow. I'm glad you came and I'm not sorry you left.
Finally, we come to the end of this letter.
I almost forgot, I wish you a Happy New Year in advance, I wish you happiness every day, and I wish you, as Mr. Huang Yongyu wrote, "clear love, direct disgust, sincere love, stand magnanimously in the sun, and praise yourself loudly and unashamedly." , after all, "The trees are here, the mountains are here, the earth is here, the years are here, and I am here, what kind of better world do you want?". Don't worry, I won't change myself because of changes in those numbers. I will only grow because of you and your warmth. The days are long, isn’t it?
Of course, anything makes sense under certain conditions. For example, this is our last day in 2019, and this is my last handwritten letter in 2019. Thank you, really thank you. Happy New Year in advance
The frost and dew are heavy, I hope you will cherish them.
Picking up tofu with chopsticks
Early morning on December 30, 2019
(Hello, I am very happy and thank you for listening here and reading with me. Here. But I'm sorry that I read too few books and my articles are terrible. But I thought about it and started over again, because I hope that in 2020 I can start from the "heart" and not be timid. Read more books and see more different scenery and lives. I want to tell you one more thing. When I grow up, I will never miss your ex-girlfriend, because life is for the future, not the past. . Let go of the past and welcome your new and bright future.
Finally, I would like to give you a poem from Rilke, who said, "If spring is coming, the earth will come." Let it be completed bit by bit." I am very happy to accompany you to 2020, and I wish you a happy New Year. Good night)
(I typed out the manuscript while listening to the video. Although this letter is recent I wrote it a year ago. Although I have made some changes in my thinking now, many of the contents are still the same. So I want to tell you, forgive my laziness, and I will post it here. "you", handwriting a letter belonging to "you".