Squid has been longing for an unforgettable love, so she met C in Seeds of Love. She loved him wholeheartedly, gave up her seat for him, accompanied him to class, borrowed books for him, and took care of him when he was ill. In order to meet him, she will dress up for hours, and in order to make him happy, she will choose his favorite taste. Squid has a fever and is lying in the hospital, begging him to see her. He stood for a few minutes and then left. Gherardini left a sentence when he left: "I thought it was disgusting." Don't be so delicate, okay? "Squid is very sad. She cut her long hair, threw away her skirt, abandoned her faith and persistence, and cried for a week. All right. The brave squid loves a little tragically. She works so hard, but she never gets a love.
Squid is reserved and evasive, but it still longs for love, especially for couples who look at libraries and study rooms. One day, in the library, she met her senior X who had always admired her. Since then, they have been studying, reading, discussing, eating and walking together. Her feelings for X are complicated, with respect, admiration, affection and rejection. But many complicated feelings sublimate into nostalgia and reluctance because X is about to leave. She watched him leave school, and she asked him if she was in his homesickness. X said that he likes her but doesn't love her. Squid is very happy. She told herself that one day, X would fall in love with herself. So the squid stays in front of the computer and the phone every day, and when X is online, it will be caring and attentive. But x is always busy. Words are either overtime or business trip, and I have been working. After a few months, the squid can recite it backwards. She knew that she couldn't wait for the day of falling in love. My heart hurts a little, but the story should be over.
Since then, the squid has become a different person. She has put up with it for too long in order to be a good girl that X likes. When she stopped suppressing her personality, she became more and more unruly, domineering, sarcastic, arbitrary and heartless. In fact, only those who know her know that her masculine appearance is still her soft heart. Squid used to be brave, but her proud heart died heroically in the sun. She had to pick up these dried flowers by herself.
As a student, squid's love life has always been such a mess, but she is embarrassed and crazy about C and X, and Z always hurts when she sees it. Z did a lot for her silently, just as she did for C and Z. He gave up the opportunity to study abroad for her, refused the pursuit of another girl for her, waited by the phone for her to finish talking with others first, became strong for her, made surprises for her, was ecstatic for her and was depressed for her. Z is so stupid and persistent. Squid knows that Z is good for her, and that kind of good is so heavy that it exceeds the weight that squid can bear at that age. Finally, she refused. The howling north wind tore at their youth, sobbed his vicissitudes, and cut her regret with a knife.
Year after year, day after day, the ignorant squid grew up. Those youthful poems and good times are becoming more and more distant because of busy work and survival. Squid is no longer eager for love, but she often works overtime until late at night and is also eager to find someone who can be hurt. By chance, the squid met Y. Y is not the type of squid, chubby, not tall or handsome, flat and light, and his work is average. But y likes squid very much. After the first meeting, I came to look for squid every three days. Wait for her to get off work, wait for her to go to work, wait for the street lamp to turn yellow, wait for dawn; Spring is green and winter is white. Squid finally wavered, but she didn't know whether she wanted love or companionship. Since their association, Y has been doubly good to squid and is dead set on it. He has always held squid in his hand as a treasure, and even he will get angry if others complain about squid. Squid is sick, Y stays up all night. Squid is tired from work, Y undertakes all the housework, washing and cooking, sweeping the floor and washing dishes. Y is a good cook and cooks delicious squid in different ways. Squid is in a bad mood, and Y will sneak out to call her in the middle of an important meeting. Y scrimps and saves, but always takes squid to splurge. With y, squid has not suffered any injustice. She doesn't need to pretend, she can do what she wants and be herself.
Finally, the squid agreed to Y's proposal. At the age of thirty, she knows what kind of love she wants better than at the age of twenty. In her love story, she experienced loss, injury, inferiority, screaming and despair. When she couldn't bear the lightness and heaviness of those lives, Y came to her world like a touch of orange morning light with tenderness, and shed fresh sunshine on every cloudy day. In the days when she got along with Y, she realized that when she met him and married him, she had no regrets and was not afraid of the future. This is the love she is looking for.