Secret Love
——This article is for the girl I like
I would like to commemorate the beautiful secret love life in high school
Her name is Xiao x, my classmate.
She has big eyes and long eyelashes. She is a beautiful and lovely girl.
From the class member registration form, I learned her birthday, address and phone number.
In an English class, the teacher asked her to make a sentence using "like". From then on, I knew that she liked swimming.
That's all.
Everything I know about her.
x represents knowledge and mystery. Maybe because of this reason, I don't know how to get to know her better.
If...why...?
If we are just classmates, why do I want to know more about her?
If we were just classmates, why did her image linger in my mind the first time I saw her?
If we are just classmates, why do I feel so upset when I see her?
If we were just classmates, why would I feel my face heat up, my heart tremble, and my hands so nervous that I didn’t know where to go when I looked at her?
If we were just classmates, why would I accidentally get distracted and look at her secretly?
If we were just classmates, why would we act like clowns and try to attract her attention?
If we were just classmates, why would I watch her leaving after school from a distance and softly hum a song about love?
If we are just classmates, why when I watch "The Legend of the Condor Heroes", I can't help but think that I am Yang Guo and she is the Little Dragon Girl?
If we were just classmates, why would my eyes smile when she opened her eyebrows?
If we were just classmates, why would I hope that one day, when all the scenery is gone, I could accompany her to watch the long stream of water?
…
If… why…?
I searched and searched, hoping that someone could answer these one hundred and one "why"?
This person can only be myself. One day, I found the answer. This is their unique and only answer: It turns out that I have a crush on her.
I don’t know when it will start, nor when it will end.
I don’t know where it starts and I don’t know where it will end.
I don’t know how it starts, and I don’t know how it will end.
I don’t know the cause or the result.
Love is blind, and secret love is even more confusing.
Because it is no longer important to determine what is, as long as there is a small world that exists, and I am secretly in love with her, this is enough.
When you have a crush on someone, the essence of life becomes performance art, full of emotional beauty and rational meaning.
I fell in love with the HKCEE inexplicably. To be honest, exams are a very ridiculous and boring thing, and sometimes they are so stupid. Our thoughts and feelings actually change around this thing from time to time. This is our sorrow. There's nothing in itself that I love about it. It's just the side effect it brings that makes my world wonderful.
Since the college entrance examination is always held in a place quite far away from home - whether it is my home or her home - and there are no suitable buses to take, so taking a taxi may be the best option. choose. Just when I finally found a car and was about to get on, I heard someone calling my name. It's her. She smiled and said she wanted to join me, and asked me if I was okay. It's a smooth road, of course it's a smooth road. Even if it's not a smooth road, I'll say it's a smooth road. So we sat in the car and chatted randomly along the way. The car stopped. It was time for her to get out of the car, give me money, and wish me good results in the chemistry test in the afternoon. I was probably so happy that I actually accepted the money from her, and then smiled and said I wish her success. The car had already driven a long way, and I realized that I accepted the car money from her without any hesitation. . Although I am not a chauvinist, this really made me embarrassed for a long time. There was no reason to let her spend money. She is my favorite girl. By the way, I didn't mean to show off in front of her, I just... always felt that I was stupid that day and did something I regretted. In my brother's words, it's disrespectful. Later, because it was difficult to park on a one-way street and other reasons, the driver left me at the intersection, and I went home alive and happy. My grades in chemistry in the afternoon were quite satisfactory.
Later, there was another college entrance examination. She and I walked for a long distance while chatting, and then we each took a car to go home.
I found that as long as I could talk to her, I would be extremely happy.
One time, it was drizzling on the way to school, and I saw her while walking up an open-air staircase. She didn't fight. I wanted to move up to protect her from the rain, but I didn’t know whether it was because the road was slippery or because I was nervous, so I almost fell to the ground. She smiled and asked me, are you okay? I kept saying, "It's okay, it's okay..." She quickened her pace and walked away.
Author: The Day of Blowing Water Together2006-6-5 17:30 Reply to this statement
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2 〖Repost〗Secret Love
Now that I think about it, there are quite a lot of people who can make a fool of themselves. But I was so relieved to see her smile again.
During the days when I went to Shanghai, I often thought of her. Later, I bought a local handicraft in Wuxi - a clay doll, but I didn't know how to give it to her. The poor clay dolls are still lying on the bookshelf, and they can't find their new home.
When I registered at the beginning of the semester, I saw the column she filled in and realized that her birthday had been missed. There was a time when I suddenly wanted to call and hear her voice, but she hung up immediately after finishing seven digits.
These are the things I thought about her. They are basically true. Please allow for slight memory errors.
I love you so much that the tigers in the forest turn to butter.
The closest distance in the world is not the eyes or the moment, nor the thoughts or philosophical words, but your and my hearts no matter where we drift, because I love you.
If I have to add a time limit to this love, I hope it is - ten thousand years!
These are the words about love that I can think of at the moment. I don’t know why I remembered them, read them out, and then wrote them down.
Some people say that secret love is not love.
So, the above seems to have nothing to do with me.
Secret love is not love.
I didn’t understand what this sentence meant at first, but later I learned that it was based on this logical reasoning: people who have a crush will never fall out of love, but only people who are not in love may never fall out of love, so secret love People are not in love, that is, secret love is not love.
Secret love is a right, a right given to me by God.
Once a secret love is expressed and rejected, it will turn into unrequited love.
This is not the result I want
So I have to protect this right, at least for now, maybe forever.
Although doing so is very cruel to yourself.
Having a crush on someone is very tiring, and sometimes even painful.
Adam’s rib was transformed into Eve by the Creator.
The seventh weapon hidden by Gu Long is called love.
My crush on her was essentially a form of self-harm when I couldn't see her. I felt a dull pain in my left chest. It was because I had no ribs, and it felt like a weapon directly hurting my heart.
This is an internal injury, just like the cold poison of Xuanming Divine Palm that makes you extremely painful from time to time.
Secret love is self-torture.
Crush is self-abuse.
In fact, this is only a minor injury. The greater pain lies in the way I choose to express it. Its name is "secret" love.
Therefore, all the pain I have suffered must be digested by myself. I cannot expect anyone to share it with me, even my best friend.
People who have a crush have no confidants in this regard.
I can only let the pain accumulate in my heart and let it ferment little by little with chemical reactions.
I endured everything silently.
This is my only secret.
This is my own pain.
This is my painful secret.
This is my secret pain
If a person has a secret in his heart but doesn’t want others to know, he will run to the mountain and find a tree. Dig a hole in a tree, tell all the secrets in it, and then plug the hole with mud. The secrets will remain in the tree forever and no one will know.
Then, the pain associated with the secret will naturally disappear.
I once naively thought that this method was brilliant and that it would definitely stop the pain of my secret love.
It turns out that I am as naive as a child who has not grown up.
I unfortunately found that the more I tried to get rid of the pain, the more painful it became.
I heard that in this world -
There is a kind of water called Wangqing water:
There is a kind of water called Mengpo soup;
There is a kind of wine called drunken life, dream and death
Perhaps, only they can completely and completely eliminate the pain of my secret love for her.
However, this is terrible.
What a terrible thing!
They not only make me forget the pain, but also cruelly make me forget the happiness - I secretly love her unique happiness in the world and forget everything about her.
This is absolutely not allowed!
Life is worse than death!
I would rather have a secret love and have a secret love with "pain and happiness".
Do you need a reason to have a crush on someone?
Don’t need it?
Need it?
No need.
I would rather have a crush on her for no reason.
This article is excerpted from "The Fourth New Concept Composition" - Liang Qiao - "Secret Love". Slight additions and deletions.