Later, it was said that there are some pure and pure desires and some thin and uneasy sins in this world. Such desires and sins are rare and live outside the worldly pleasures. Originally, I realized that my desire is pure, pure, perhaps that reluctance is a thin and uneasy sin!
The town where I live is said to be an ancient town, but I have never found a stone road that can move me, nor can I see the eaves of pavilions and the ruins that tick after the rain. Often open a window in the morning, and you will see a newly decorated building, which is neither luxurious nor ancient. Disappointment will come from the heart and cover the whole body.
Maybe what I saw was not what I wanted. Really, there should be a dream that I have never found. That dream is fate, far away.
On that day, when the lights were on, the antique jade market gradually became lively.
Jed and I have no fate. Many years ago, Xiaoyun gave me a Yu Pei on my birthday. I wore it for a while and put it in a box. I know I should take the part of Yu Pei. It is a person who gives me love and warmth, but I like simplicity too much. I like simple and light life. I still told Xiaoyun that I had hidden the jade, but a stream of love and care flowed in my body. I clearly remember the color of that piece of Yu Pei and the scene when she tied my neck.
Last year, because of a poetry award, I chatted with Mr. Xiaobai from the organizing committee. She is my sister, many years older than me. I said that I was always confused when I was alive, and I often dared not write poems. Poetry is like a magic power, which makes me want to stop. When I wake up in the middle of the night, I will cry silently for a long time for some messy sentences that suddenly pop up. I often see Haizi and Wolf at night. I know that I should refuse their way of life, but those beautiful poems make me shudder, just like I am talking to them one by one. I think of myself and my past, the paper burned in the wild, my parents and those dead neighbors.
I wrote at night:
Just woke up from a dream.
Fear gnaws at my heart like a demon.
I clearly saw that I was caught by death.
Struggle is so helpless
I fell into a bottomless pit, and it was dark.
Darkness drowned my cry and fell to the bottom of the cave.
What a lonely and distant world it is. I can't see a figure on the journey.
It seems that only the devil is tearing my flesh and blood.
One by one, my stomach began to spit out white maggots.
So I was saved by a group of angels.
Where is the first aid! It's just that the nurse looked at me and sneered
The attending doctor called and said I was dead.
The mouth of the cave was still as dark as ink, and I cried.
I saw death, breathe with me.
I can't struggle any longer.
Death gripped my hand firmly.
Shake hands with death
I used to be confused, sad and obsessed with those pains. No one understands, just as no one understands why Haizi often sits on the top of the mountain for a long time, and no one understands why it is blooming in spring and facing the sea. Later, my husband also went to the top of the mountain where Haizi stayed. He was in a real paradise of poetry. I even thought of myself.
I said a lot to Xiao Bai calmly. Later she said to me, Xiao Wu, stop writing. You should see the warm sunshine and the shining light in it. Go to see the sunrise in the morning. Go back and get a Yu Pei. Keep talking to Yu. Don't ask me why.
I think, maybe my melancholy frightened Xiao Bai. I listened to her words, and the Yu Pei Xiao Yun gave me put on my body again. In Yu Pei, Guanyin sits on the lotus seat.
Later, I began to like Buddhism inexplicably, and I liked those melodious and calm Buddhist scriptures. Wherever I go, if possible, I will definitely go to the temple to see the Buddha's low eyebrows and tight eyes. Then, I can't afford to kneel before the Buddha, with my face on the mat. I had no choice but to kneel down and secretly shed tears to the Buddha. The wind chimes in the temple moved slightly, and the fragrance entered my body. Get up and walk again, calling for piety over and over again.
There are few boys in town. On that day, the bodhi of a bunch of foreign vendors in the jade market made me stand for a long time and didn't want to leave. I seem to see the breath of Buddha, and the Lord said that he came, followed the fate, broke the darkness and showed bodhi. I seem to see auspiciousness, well-being and compassion. The wind is blowing in my eyes!
In fact, I will never convert to Buddhism in my life, but maybe I have already converted to Buddhism. I began to cherish every relative and friend around me, everyone who is predestined friends with me. I met you today, and who will I meet next year.
I became lazy, humble, relieved and merciful in an instant, and saw that everything was circulating like me. Even if the dust love in reincarnation is an evil that cannot be abandoned, it is also considered outside the secular world.