I really want to die. Although I don't have that much courage, I think I really want to die. I live in this world for nothing, and no one loves me.

If you are not afraid of death, what are you afraid of? It seems that you are rich, put aside all unpleasantness and do your own thing. Don't let others interfere with you, simplify complex problems and live a simple life. But look at what others give you, sort out some of your thoughts, be kind to yourself, focus on yourself, and don't look at others, even your family, okay? Take your time. With a good mood, everything will be fine. Your family is in good financial condition and very lucky. How many people run around for money? You have such a good foundation, so go and do what you like. Bless you!