Why so suddenly? Why so determined? Why are you so calm when we break up? Why not give me one last chance? Why ... ! !
I am desperate, I am helpless, I am sad, and my heart aches!
Cheer up, throw away the burnt-out cigarette butts, wipe away two tears, try to control your trembling body, and pretend to be indifferent with a smile on your face.
Can you know? If you know, why do you keep turning off your phone? Never gave me any information.
Tears, finally crossed the last line of defense defeated by himself, and desperately flowed out. ...
With the tears flowing out, all are beautiful memories, all are happy dreams, the people I love most, the people I can't live without most, my own remains, the blood in my heart, and everything emotionally. ...
Standing in the center of the city, I feel for the first time that there is no color in the world: gray, dark and even neon lights are miserable white. The world is lifeless to me.
I can't stop thinking about you, your smell, your kiss and everything about you ... I was in tears, but I was silent.
Can you let me accompany you through the low tide of your relationship? Can you not let my love go into shock, it will die, and let it live longer, ok? Do you remember what we said we would do together? Don't let them be my sad memories, okay?
No, don't leave me! I can't live without you!
I cried into the phone, did you hear me? I have insomnia, you know? Did you see my tears? Have you seen my swollen eyes? Do you know I'm sitting in the street crying? I haven't cried for a long time!
I've been frantically looking for you all over the street! I saw you look like your back several times, so I went up and called and thought it was you! But when they turned around, my inner loss hit my heart again and again.
I can't take it anymore. More and more feel that life is meaningless!
Don't leave my prose 2. I use a moment's memory to solidify my dusty heart. In this lonely winter, the cold wind gently blows on my face, and I gently erase the memory on my forehead, making your tenderness gentler than your kind heart. If you say that you are destined to be a lonely boat in the vast ocean, then dear, please allow me to sail silently with you. You will always be on my route, and I will always stay in your gentle arms and never get tired of it.
At the end of the year, the cold wind came, and I walked aimlessly on this bustling street, only knowing that I would still pay attention to the smell I left behind, even if I was the only one now. Window after window, printed with silent lights and lonely shadows. Sometimes I stop and look at the man in the glass window, a tall, thin and fragile man.
Standing in a place for a long time, I always feel inexplicably sad. I don't know whether time has changed or people have changed. Perhaps the cold wind suddenly woke my head, so that I stopped looking at the poor man in the glass window, took a deep breath, heaved a sigh of relief, looked up at the front and left the station that no longer belonged to me.
After a long walk, there are always so many people in this street. Every face is familiar and unfamiliar, and every face is smiling and sad. I no longer guess what kind of story they have behind them. Just when I was smiling at my naive idiot's idea, a pair of peeping eyes kept looking at me, and with the acceleration of the rhythm, my heart panicked.
I bravely stopped and turned around, and the anger of being forced to push my chest was extinguished in front of me. I have heavy eyebrows and delicate, it is a familiar place, but I am not happy. My heart suddenly became dull and suffocating. Seeing her, I don't know what to say, let alone where to start. Perhaps only disguise can heal the already dim scars. I reluctantly smiled at her, nodded gently and turned away.
The moment I turned around, I only felt relieved like the wind, and her hand had hugged me tightly. It was her gentle and fragile name that made me laugh louder.
Ha ha! "Luo Yi, I thought this name had disappeared in this world." I was being sarcastic.
"No, this name has been with me, and I will meditate once a day. Today I clearly remember 100 1 day. " She explained softly.
"100 1 day, since it is astronomical, will your appearance be a surprise? If you don't want to be embarrassed, never come back. China is a good citizen, but he has to go abroad to be a second-class citizen. " I still make things difficult for her and don't leave her any face.
"As for going abroad, it is a long and far-reaching story. As for the present situation, the only reason is you. Believe it or not, I just want to come back and see you, and then leave without worrying. " She still explained softly.
At this moment, I have no more embarrassing words to stimulate her. Hearing what she said, my heart was sour, I was silent for a long time, and my tears slipped away. Just then, she suddenly jumped into my arms and kept saying sorry to me. The more I listen to helpless words, the more sad I cry. In her gentle cry, there is a little familiarity and uncontrollable.
When I stopped crying, I came to a room with her. Seeing her simple packing, I can guess her hurry before leaving. I untied her hand holding my arm, got up unnaturally and walked to the window, staring at the street view outside the window. Colorful lights make the city look like lights.
She suddenly asked me if I was good to me. I don't know how to answer this question. The smile on my face is so bitter and stiff. I still used a lie to answer that she was very kind to me. I know that if I don't live well, it will be a burden and a sin for her. Seeing the happy smile on her face in front of me, I crossed the line of sight and didn't want her to see my face that wanted to cry. I wiped away the heavy tears when she rolled over and unpacked. She ran to me happily and handed me a mysterious box. I stared at it and looked into her happy eyes. I said to her, "This is not a festival. How are you going to prepare the gift? " She smiled and replied, "This is not only a holiday gift, but also one thing you promised me." At that time, there was a slight shock in the chest, as if something had been awakened by a recent visit light years later.
I can't help opening the box any longer. That's the "angel star" I promised her. A girl with snow-white wings holds a star in her hand and prays for a sincere love from God. How much I wanted to have this precious "angel star" before, but now I have it, but I don't have the strength to hold it and pray to God. When love dies, the blessing must be ignored by God, so her promise to us should be circled and reach the end.
She looked at me in a daze and saw the clues I accidentally exposed. She said why I can't see the excitement when I realize what I want most, why my eyes are always full of tears, and why my expression is always flustered and addicted. I refused to answer all her questions with silence, just holding my hand tighter and looking back at the night market outside the window again.
She shook my arm angrily with both hands and asked, "Where is she?" Is she unkind to you? "Behind my silence, she completely lost her mind. She pressed me on the bed, pressed me hard and kissed me forcibly despite my resistance. After I didn't respond at all, the intense passion quickly cooled down, and we all returned to the original place, only with a suffocating air.
Is it love to face a gentle woman? Is it hate? Does it still hurt? Words can't express that taste, only tears silently release everything. During her silence, I learned that both men and women live in desire and have burning passion. After the passion, what they have will soon disappear.
I quickly put on my coat, left this place and merged into this street again. It is so cold and lonely. A person's night, a person's walk alone, a person's street view, is it me now? At this time, no one is watching me from behind. No matter how loudly I cry, no one will laugh at me again.
She gave me my first love, and she also strangled my only trustworthy and reserved love. Then who saved my love? Who abandoned my love? In the emotional confusion, another person appeared in my mind, which hurt my tired heart.
A place was moved because she came to see me from far away, and a place was grateful because she was a complete stranger, who met by chance, met and knew each other. Finally, I dyed the gray of love into blue, which didn't hurt or itch. The moment I first met her, her appearance was completely contrary to my imagination, and her words and deeds were simple and plain.
On the first day, she thoroughly cleaned the room I hadn't cleaned in school for months. She carefully helped me wash the clothes I hadn't washed for weeks. When I came back to the dormitory after class to see this situation, the surge in my heart was self-evident, even though her words were difficult to understand. After seeing this, I read more.
The next day, she appeared at the gate of my school on time. I took her to the busiest place in the city. I knew the night view of this place was particularly beautiful. Walking with her on the pedestrian street, I introduced the scenery here, and she sang the end of the night in this city with a sad voice. I saw her erudite side in her singing. Later, we went to bookstores and movie shops. We eat snacks on the street view. Watching her eat, I can't help laughing that she is still a child. Finally, we went to eat a beef stall. This is my first visit to this place. I always eat carefully and study hard.
On the third day, because I couldn't ask the professor for leave, I couldn't accompany her to travel. She went to Jiuzhaigou with the group. We have been sending messages for seven days. She doesn't talk much, but I can feel a little tenderness, so I don't care about the number of words, as long as it's true, I am willing.
On the eighth day, she came back with the group, but she was leaving again. We gathered at McDonald's at the Capital Airport. She ordered me a pair of blueberry tart, a pair of chicken wings, a hamburger and a glass of beer. With a sad mood, I ate happily and didn't want to show any sadness. At this last moment, she fulfilled the promise she made to me when she left me, without any return from me. My heart stopped breathing when I took the seven-digit China Bank card from her, because I always thought there would be no miracle of pie in the sky. Today, I met it, and it is still alive.
When she said that she should take good care of herself and live a good life, I really wanted to cry once, but this time I didn't cry. I smiled and nodded and promised her that I would live well. Even if this passbook can't save me, I can't let her go home disappointed, so from that day on, I quit smoking, beer and lonely life. On the way to study, I will work hard to return to the quiet and busy graduate school life.
She will call me from time to time to remind me to eat on time, go to bed on time and listen to my daily study. I don't have to be shy about what to say and what not to say in front of her. I think this is the sublimation of heart and heart to another realm, and all kinds of unhappiness can be put aside in the dust. When listening becomes pure music that can't be played, I want to write a sentence for it and tell her. Up to now, Pipa can only be filled with sadness and joy in the melody.
Online message is always a compulsory course for her. Long words tell her that she is thinking of me. For a long time, I saw a wall in the article, which was built by her. I tried to push hard, but it was indestructible. It's like a stone falling into my heart, so heavy that I suffocate.
I know I have no right to blame her. Why should she take care of me wholeheartedly? I am not qualified to make her love me. I'm just a graduate student who didn't finish his studies. Even so, I still want to tell her completely that no matter whether I study abroad or work as soon as possible, I will definitely repay her charity in my life.
I am used to not thinking about her name, changing my mood and turning her QQ into gray. I know she looks at me every day, because her footprints are vivid, and I see the name clearly over and over again until my eyes are blurred. Bit by bit, it was stung, piercing the most fragile little life.
Now, I learn to vent and control my venting. That depth has always attracted me. Maybe only that place can make me forget myself and forget everything completely, but I only promised her that I would never punish myself again, and I will only punish myself in my life, leaving the pain to innocent, kind and strange people. I'm laughing at the poor scholar who fooled heaven. Didn't I say that learning is endless? And I don't want to get recognized degrees one after another, so I play to make my heart happier.
When people are tired, they always stop quietly and their heads are empty. What am I busy with these days? What am I fighting for? I spent so much effort to write so many sad words on my Tencent space blog just to let her know that I wouldn't die without her. I just want to tell her that release is as bad as abandonment, and everyone is fighting for breath. And I chose the final moral bottom line for this tone.
At this time, the message came, which was her apology message, a heavy "sorry". Now I don't need such comfort, but it will make me feel more funny. No matter how perfect the hole is made with plaster, the mystery soaked in the nerves can never be erased. Just as she chose to go abroad and abandoned our love, I was unwilling, chose indulgence, learned to drink, learned to smoke and learned to be lonely.
Even though I will always be a hero in the game, the ending always ends with my tears. I hate my loss, but I love my body. Don't they just like my figure? Ady in the first love, Luo Yi who reborn me, and many others who played online games with me. ...
Love me, please don't leave, if you really love me. I just want you to stay with me quietly and listen to me. Love has always been paid regardless of the unconditional, and I admit my selfishness and cowardice. If the road of love is destined to be full of thorns, I will face it bravely, because having you around gives me confidence and courage. I hope that kind of tacit understanding is relatively silent but not lonely. Only you can give me the feeling that in the fairy tale world of love, everything is so spotless and pure as water.
Romantic love can make people forget troubles and sadness. However, not all love can be so romantic and harmonious. A lot of things have happened in the world, which makes you unprepared.
I thought Se would love each other as passionately and deeply as I do. I thought Luo Yi and I would go on like this until eternity passes. But I don't know, this has always been the result of self-deception. I know that the sky will never be barren, and I don't know that my heart is hurting until I love it.
The night is about to say goodbye, and I hug my body tighter. After today, I won't write. Now I am no longer the obedient and lonely teenager, but I have returned to the original road and continued to work hard for one person and a group of people.
Don't leave me alone in the office. I suddenly feel so uncomfortable. I didn't dare to call him for days. I really want to call him. I really want to hear his voice. I really want him to talk to me as gently as before, but everything is just my fantasy. Now he's changed, changed, and won't talk to me. The day before I went to Huanglongxi, I heard that he would have a meeting. I was so disappointed. . And then, that's it I hung up because I'm not available now. My heart hurts. It really hurts. Woo hoo ... In a fit of pique, I thought of leaving my job and sent a message to the leader, saying that I would not do this job and wanted to leave, but the leader said: No, people can't be dishonest. Cat meowing ... Am I really a dishonest person? What else can I say? Leaders always take care of me like elders. what can I say? Can I still insist on leaving?
However, when I face him every day, my heart aches when he appears. I really want him to talk to me, just like before. When he left, he told me I was leaving, and I would tell him: slow down. But now he doesn't say anything, does he take me as transparent? Why are you doing this to me? Why? Why? What did I do wrong? I really don't understand. What did I do wrong? I never meant to influence him. I just want to be with him, and I want to help him at work as much as possible, but he never said his thoughts in front of me, no matter how good or bad, never. What does he take me for? Where's the oath? I once said that he would never break up with me, but now he is so cold to me. I still forgive his behavior again and again, always finding mistakes in myself and blaming myself for not thinking about him. He is very busy, so I shouldn't disturb him. I shouldn't always ask him, do you love me? I put all the responsibility on myself. But he has never been touched, never ... whoops ... how should I live in the future? Being so sad every day will break me down.
I sent him countless text messages saying that I couldn't stand it, and he never returned my messages. My sister said that he didn't love you just to help him, but I still couldn't let go. I still love him so seriously and persistently, and worry about him every day. Did he eat? I have never done this to anyone, but he doesn't care about such care, such care and such tolerance at all. He just cut my heart with a cruel knife ... I'm so tired, so tired, and I tried to give up, but I couldn't. If you sleep until one o'clock every night, you will definitely wake up. Insomnia, insomnia, insomnia is still his content. Is his heart made of meat?
Once, for the sake of our love, I struggled alone, and I didn't listen to my friends' advice. I am heartbroken, tearful and sad alone ... Because of love, my fragile heart has gradually become more tearful and bruised with the change of time ... From one corner of love to another, I sprinkled salt on the wound here, but I still love you there, and I reported a lot every time. He kept saying that I was angry with him. If he could give me a little response, would I be like that? I am not an unreasonable person. Every time I approach him, your attitude scares me. I am afraid that I will lose him soon, so I always ask him if he loves me. If he gives me a positive answer, I will be very happy, but in a few days he will ignore me, and I will wonder if he doesn't want me. I'll ask him again. I know that I am not good, which makes him think that I am a very difficult woman. In fact, I have no confidence in myself. I'm afraid he will look down on me. It's also because I care too much about him. Now, I have no chance to contact him, and he is hiding. God, is this my love?