[Boutique] On the road of life, I am not alone with you!
Thank you. Thank you for letting me understand. In fact, you can really remember an untouchable wound. Describe in words. The mood of paying tribute. A secret that permeates my heart and can't be told. The more you hide it. The more human nature is revealed. Thank you. Please forget that the prelude to my youth is still ringing, but he will leave forever, no matter whether I succeed or fail, whether I am sad or happy. You will see that there is a home in the depths of my life that I will never reach. Many days later at night, I hid my face and cried, and the lights of youth were at arm's length. Who made me think all my life and who stood with the original oath? Who is in heaven, who is in hell, who has been sighing in old dreams. He is a police inspector and a father. May 2008 1 1 day, Mother's Day. Today is Mother's Day. Maybe all I can do is stand here and wait for some love for no reason, and then watch them disappear unconsciously. After so many years, the original impulse to home is gone. Courage and stubbornness are gone. Today, I shed tears, perhaps out of instinctive yearning. In the evening of May, 2008 1 1 After work, people may roll in silence, which is not as good as Valentine's Day, Thanksgiving Day and Mother's Day. When I met Hua, he told me that today was Mother's Day. We'll call home later and tell mom I love you. I don't know whether it is out of "shyness" or "disgust". Cousin said the phone at home was disconnected. I dialed his mother's phone with Hua and called her. Then I talked a lot about repeated anxiety in this dirty city. Finally, we called his father. Maybe his father was on duty and the phone was not connected. We went back to our apartment together. May, 2008 12 at 9: 00 am, I was washing, and Hua was sorting out clothes. He is a clean person. He should be a boy. His father's phone called, with a simple Xi accent: "Hanako, are you and your third child okay?" Pay attention to your health. Eat what you should, don't harm your health ... just got off work last night. I just found out that you called this morning, and we are all fine. You and the third child should take good care of each other there ... "Although they are all the same" instructions ",we finally habitually hung up on each other's phones ... (China and I grew up together, we were the same year, and he was several months older than me. So when I was very young, he always asked me to call him brother. We live in a community. We went to primary school, middle school and police academy together. We live in a dormitory together. Later, we came to Guangzhou together and lived in a rental house together. In 200 1 year, I became an "orphan" with a home I can't go back to. From then on, I felt completely free and turned over. Play games all day long. In the end, my "parents" have their own homes, and I don't need to go to any "home", so I finally chose to "take refuge" in my uncle. My second uncle was the director of a public security branch in our place, and later I easily entered the police academy. Hua ended up living with me in a dirty police academy dormitory. Hua's father is a subordinate of my second uncle, and also a friend and close friend of my second uncle. I always stay at Huazi's house or my uncle's house during holidays. After a long time, their relatives and friends thought I was their child. Later, my mother in China simply said: He is my youngest son. I am very grateful. I was lucky at that time. I probably just felt that I would have a place to eat and live in the future, so I wandered around for so many years. Sometimes I will habitually call mom and dad. In the early spring of 2008, Hua's father was transferred to the police station in a remote small county in Hanzhong City, Shaanxi Province, and vaguely remembered the scene at that time ...) In 2008, after bidding farewell to an unfinished Spring Festival, a cold morning at Xi 'an Railway Station brought the coldest winter in Xi 'an. I will leave, leave my dream when I was young. The first time for the rest of my life began in this cold New Year, which is destined to be a turning point for the rest of my life. New horizons, different languages try to break the limitations of the past. Began to complete the sequel to the wayward era. China's parents waved goodbye for a long time, shaking all over, without grandiloquence, rhetoric and small and heavy entrustment in the mobile phone. Two reckless teenagers who have never experienced the world have a new starting point, but they have gradually learned to be calm and lonely ... I met her in Guangzhou. Later she became my boss. Thank her for teaching me everything here. Slowly accept and learn different cultures, and slowly change. Understand different values. Everything that was once unfamiliar and familiar began to become simple and easy to come by. Thank you for your company, your language and your trust. It is you who made my life journey an eternal witness and gave birth to the most precious family ... I cried countless times for pain or laughter, thanking her for giving me the meaning of the rest of my life. On May 12 14: 28, an earthquake of magnitude 7.8 occurred in Wenchuan, Sichuan. A blank and unfortunate news. In the evening, I went home with Hua, and we all knew the news of the earthquake. Less than 24 hours later, we went to the telephone hall where many people were worried, but the phone never got through. We inadvertently comforted each other and said, "This is normal. Many of our phones in Xi 'an can't get through." Perhaps such "comfort" is a blessing to the family. But the anxiety and tension in my heart are always accompanied, as if a person wants to swim to the river bank desperately in the water. Although the water is calm and warm, I still can't get used to it. I began to miss that sense of belonging, and all that remained was a sigh. Time has passed for several days and nights, and it is inevitable that I will be sad when I watch the news at night. For all China people, it means sad black! On the evening of May 14, 2008, China's parents' phones were always turned off. I advised Hanako to go home, even if it is safe to go home. On the morning of May 6, 2008, Hua came to the railway station alone. I didn't see him off, but I thought he would go home soon. May, 2008 16 at 5: 00 p.m. It's been a long time since I left China for home. I'm still working. A word from my second uncle made me a little happy. Juwan asked Hua if he was with me. I thought I asked my second uncle to contact my parents in China. I went back to tell my second uncle that Hua went home and went back to Ann. Yesterday's train may arrive in Xi 'an tonight. I haven't heard from my uncle for a long time. I thought he was busy and didn't care much. After waiting for half an hour or so, my uncle called and said that Hua's father had been killed before and the body had been found before. Very simple, very pale. I can feel my uncle's voice is a little hard to swallow. His mother and grandmother have not been found yet. I know what happened and what will happen in the future. I told my second uncle that I knew. Hang up the phone. On the morning of May 7, 2008 1, five days have passed since the earthquake. Even at night, the twinkling starry sky will dim, and the night in Guangzhou is not as beautiful as it is now. Everything looks pale and powerless. ....