In order to wait for you, I missed the person who was waiting for me
Mu Weimian/Written
When I was young, my mind was always delicate, so all the sadness and happiness are so profound, a light touch is earth-shattering.
——Su Qiuhe’s blog
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When I was divided into arts and science classes in my second year of high school, I didn’t like science, but I still stayed in the class.
I don’t like science, but I like him.
He said, "Only fools can learn literature."
When I started my freshman year of high school, I chose boarding school. The reason was very simple. I didn't want to waste too much time on the road. .
I regretted it when I pulled the suitcase out of the taxi, the scorching sun shining with gloating. I had to raise my hand to cover the light in front of my eyes, my skin was burning and painful under the sunlight.
The summer that year was very hot and the sun was very bright. The campus that had just started was crowded with people, and pairs of hurried footsteps passed by me. As soon as he closed his eyes, he put his guitar on his shoulder, held a suitcase in one hand, and walked awkwardly through the crowd. As I walked, I vaguely felt someone coming from the sun, and then stopped not far from me. My eyes turned to his feet. He was wearing a pair of white sneakers, which shone brighter in the sun.
I stopped and looked up, and I saw his black and white eyes smiling, too bright to be true. The loose white T-shirt he wore gave off a gentle aura. Facing the light, I saw him greeting me.
He took the suitcase from my hand and introduced me generously. His name is Zhao Luyang, a student in Class 1 and Six of Senior High School. I had just finished my report and was about to go out to buy water, when I happened to see me dragging my suitcase crookedly.
When I heard that he was in Class 6, I couldn’t suppress the joy in my heart and patted his shoulder, "My name is Su Qiuhe, and I am also in Class 6. I brought a lot of snacks. After a while, I'll treat you to a Coke."
"So, I'm doing the right thing, and the money won't go to outsiders!" Zhao Luyang suddenly stopped and said seriously.
And I bumped into his back without any precautions, sticking to his hot clothes, and my cheeks started to get hot.
I covered my face and retorted loudly, "Your words are not accurate."
"Isn't it better to help students in your own class than to help other classes?" Zhao Luyang chose He raised his eyebrows and laughed.
"Didn't you help me because I'm cute?" I smiled and winked at him.
In that summer, we got to know each other after a big laugh. It was the most beautiful summer I have ever seen.
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In the entrance exam, I scored 148 in Chinese and 76 in mathematics, while Zhao Luyang scored 58 in Chinese and 150 in mathematics. Just like that, the class teacher firmly asked us to do it. At the same table.
Every morning we saw each other and couldn't help but laugh. This is the so-called fate. Zhao Luyang's Chinese is really bad, so bad that he almost gives up.
After every Chinese class, Zhao Luyang would look at me very seriously, and then flip through the Chinese books with a look of disdain, "Su Qiuhe, what do you think is so interesting about these mediocre texts? Why are you so boring? Have you memorized it all? "
"The advantage is that you just used an idiom to express the meaning of a sentence, which saves you effort." I took the textbook in his hand. He said, "Don't compare with me. I memorized all the classical Chinese essays in high school three years ago."
, I will pass the test tomorrow." I know that Zhao Luyang's goal is only Tsinghua University, and I just hope that I can help him as much as possible within my limited ability.
Because of my accommodation, Zhao Luyang always habitually stayed in the classroom with me to finish my homework before going home. At that time, I was focused on competing in the National English League in November just to win a special prize. Sometimes I would finish the problem at eight or nine o'clock, and then Zhao Luyang would pat me on the head and ask, "Would you like to eat the Qianlixiang wontons?"
I always jumped up and grabbed his He walked towards the school gate with his arms.
There is a couple who set up a tent in front of our school. Their wontons are beautifully made and the variety is very complete. Pan-fried, mixed with sauce, or steamed, no matter which one is available, it is extremely delicious. Zhao Luyang always eats steamed wontons with fresh meat. The crystal clear wontons are sprinkled with coriander and shrimp skin, which looks very good.
And I like to eat it with soup and juice. When a burst of mist rises in the winter night, I can stare at Zhao Luyang without any scruples. Look at his bright eyes and his sunny outline.
He has the softest silhouette in the world, and he is my favorite.
③
Just a few days before I was preparing for the joint entrance examination, our school suddenly held a basketball game. Say yes, give support to winter and cheer for young people.
I know that Zhao Luyang will definitely participate. I have seen him dribbling on the playground. The ball can always move flexibly in his palm. So when Zhao Luyang asked me if I would go and cheer him on, I nodded without hesitation.
In his freshman year of high school, he was already tall and tall, wearing a dazzling yellow jersey and shuttled on the court. It suddenly occurred to me that when I first met him, he didn't come from the sun, maybe he was the sun.
The female classmates around me all had a bottle of mineral water, and I suddenly had an impulse. I had to buy a bottle of water for Zhao Luyang.
And just when I came back excitedly holding soda water, Zhao Luyang was already drinking the mineral water given by other girls. I unscrewed the water in my hand and took a few sips, then returned to the classroom angrily.
I knew at that time that the most sour thing in the world is jealousy that I have no right to eat.
It always gets dark earlier in autumn and winter. When the classroom lights suddenly turned on, I saw Zhao Luyang’s face covered with sweat.
"Where have you been?" Zhao Luyang sat next to me with a cold face.
"Why don't I sit next to you, you are blind." I put on the headphones again.
Fortunately, you still knew how to come back to see me, and the little girl didn’t take away your soul. Thinking of this, I raised my head and glared at him in displeasure.
Zhao Luyang glanced at the table, and suddenly took the half-drinked soda water from me happily. He raised his neck and drank it in one sip. Then he breathed a sigh of relief and said, "The soda water is still delicious."
"Silly." I bumped him with my arm.
"You're stupid." He bumped back with his arm.
After bumping into each other, we miraculously reconciled.
The basketball finals happened to be the days of my English league.
Zhao Luyang sent me a message early that morning, asking me to work hard for the exam, and I replied that you should work hard too. Young feelings are always easy to satisfy, and even the most ordinary interactions can keep you happy in your heart for a long time.
Before the exam, I needed to turn off my mobile phone, and Zhao Luyang’s text message was sent at the right time: I bought my own soda today.
I smiled and turned my phone off. I swear, that's the sweetest love story I've ever heard.
So that time, I performed particularly well and entered the finals in second place.
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At the end of my first year of high school, Zhao Luyang and I took the same bus home.
My house is two stops ahead of his house. When I got off the bus, he suddenly stopped me: "Su Qiuhe, you will study theory in the next semester."
He was right and wrong Clear eyes looked at me, and I turned my head to look at him, "Why?"
"Only fools study literature, okay?" He lowered his eyes and faced the light, and I seemed to see the anticipation in his eyes.
"Yes, I study theory." I nodded, and the door closed as soon as I got out of the car.
As the bus carrying Zhao Luyang passed by me, I told myself that it was worth it as long as I could be in the same class as him.
So, there is no doubt that Zhao Luyang and I were still at the same table in our sophomore year of high school.
In the first class of school, the math teacher leaned over my ear and said, "Su Qiuhe, you are so brave, so come on!"
Then, Zhao Luyang lay on the table haha Laughing loudly, his eyebrows and ears were laughing. I lowered my head in embarrassment. From then on, I was nicknamed "Sister-in-law Zhao".
There is no spare time in high school. As soon as I entered my second year of high school, the topic of the college entrance examination was constantly on the agenda. My math scores still showed little improvement, so Zhao Luyang also applied for accommodation.
"It's convenient for me to give you a lecture, but I have to be responsible for you." Zhao Luyang stated the reason seriously.
"Zhao Luyang, whether I can go to Tsinghua University depends on you." I bit my finger and said uneasily.
As soon as the college entrance examination comes, we still have to separate. Only by entering a school can you get closer to him. I vowed in my heart that as long as I go to college, no matter if he likes me or not, I will tell him that I like him.
"Don't worry, I'll protect you." Zhao Luyang rubbed my hair vigorously, his eyes crinkling with laughter.
Tsinghua University is Zhao Luyang’s only goal, so it is also my goal.
The two of us seemed to be the most diligent students in the class, tutoring each other on our homework. We cherish every day before the college entrance examination. Sometimes even if we read separately, we feel happy in our hearts. There were only two of us in the whole classroom, and we didn't say a word, but I knew that he was sitting next to me in this space. That kind of groundedness for no reason made me think it was the best time.
With the kind of person you never notice the passage of time.
⑤
In the first semester of the third year of high school, it was Zhao Luyang and I’s turn to clean.
Every time I am on duty, I can always find a reason to do nothing.
Girls will always act unconsciously in front of the person they like. I held the blackboard eraser and sighed as I jumped: "Oh, I'm too short."
Zhao Luyang walked to the podium with a mop, knocked on my head and said in disgust, "Hey, get out of the way." Get out of the way."
I couldn't help laughing when I saw Zhao Luyang taking the blackboard eraser from my hand. While making way for him, I said regretfully, "Why am I so short?"
I was so carried away that I didn't notice the mop under my feet at all, and threw myself at Zhao Luyang.
I plunged into his arms recklessly. When I raised my head, I saw that the tip of my nose was right at the first button of his shirt. I suddenly remembered that someone said that this is the best height difference, because when we hug, we can rest our head on his shoulder.
How does it feel to rest your head on his shoulder?
Before I could figure it out, there was a knock on the classroom door, and then Zhao Luyang went out.
After Zhao Luyang went out, he never came back.
Rumor has it that his father was cheated and no one knew where he was.
After Zhao Luyang left, my life became eclipsed.
However, I still look forward to his appearance.
Postscript
Many people came and went, but I never had the chance to tell that boy that I liked him.
Who you have a crush on, who you like, who you have loved, and who you have given up on. I don't know if someone I like will appear, but I continue to wait.
I will still go back to our high school, sit in the same position, and think about the boy I was. Three years later, I lay down on the table and drew another stroke seriously. This is the 99th time I've returned to this seat. How many strokes will it take to fill up the table?
"Would you like to eat Thousand Miles of Fragrant Wontons?"
I raised my head suddenly, and the sunlight hit his face slantingly. The boy in my memory seemed to be stepping on the sunshine again.
He leaned against the door frame and smiled brightly.
I stood up in a daze, but didn't dare to walk towards him. If it is an illusion, I would also like to watch it longer.
I saw him walking towards me step by step, rubbing my hair: "Silly."
Until we sat in the wonton shop, I felt like I was in another world. .
"I'm sorry." Zhao Luyang said, "I will never leave again, can you take me in?"
I touched the position of my heart and spent all my strength in my life. : "You have always been here."
Through the mist coming out of the wontons, I saw Zhao Luyang shed two lines of tears: "You have missed many people over the years, thank you for waiting for me ."
I sat next to Zhao Luyang and hugged him tightly, "I only have one life, and I can't give it to someone I don't love. I am willing to wait for you."
"Actually, the sun was so sunny that year and your eyelashes were so curled up that I just wanted to give you a hug." Zhao Luyang whispered in my ear.
I have been waiting for this hug for too long.
Fortunately, I finally waited.