I am hungry, tired and sleepy.
I can see the light in front of your window from a distance.
It attracts me-the lamp in my life.
I tap lightly, like a heartbeat.
Open the door for me.
You stare at me quietly,
Are those tears shining?
You show me the way and light the lamp.
I walked into your clean cabin anxiously,
I walked barefoot, slowly and gently,
But every step/still leaves dust and blood marks.
You let me sit in a comfortable armchair,
You poured me tea and water in a panic.
I squinted-because I'm not used to light,
You don't like mom's warm eyes.
My bag is very small,
But what I brought was heavy, heavy,
You see, my hair is gray and my back is bent.
Although I am still young.
A handful of water can quench your thirst,
A sip of wine makes me drunk,
A little warmth makes me burn all over,
Then, do I have the strength to bear your kindness and warmth?
When you gently hold my hand, I tremble all over.
I can't help crying when your tears drop on the back of my hand.
Are you willing to hold my hand like this and walk to the distance of life?
Do you dare to hold my hand through the contemptuous crowd like this?
Flash through my life,
This sacred moment is the end and the beginning,
The past is the past, finally the past,
You gave me strength, courage and confidence.
Your tearful and smiling eyes are purgatory,
Your crystal tears burned my soul,
I will fly in the flame like a colorful cloud,
Painful and happy songs gushed from the mouth —— About the author:, a native of Wuhan, Hubei Province, 1922, formerly known as Zeng, an important poet of the July Poetry School. He is the author of poetry anthology "Door", "Tree on the Cliff" and "Selected Lyrics of Ceng Zhuo". He became famous in the forties. After the founding of the People's Republic of China, he was implicated in the case of Hu Feng's anti-party clique and lost his right to sing. 1979, the poet walked out of the pain of history, and his work "The Tree on the Cliff" caused people's thinking and emotion because of its profound reflection on the suffering times. Since 1980s, he has published poems such as Trees on the Cliff, Song of the Old Sailor and Selected Lyrics of Ceng Zhuo. Ceng Zhuo's poems are simple in language and sincere in feelings. Love and ideal are the themes he has been pursuing. He is good at revealing the complex feelings in the twists and turns of life with unique poetic images, and depicting the inner world of the lyric hero full of regrets and contradictions in this process with delicate and rich artistic imagination, thus raising personal worries to national universal worries and prompting readers to think deeply about history. It should be appropriate to say that Ceng Zhuo is an emotional and lyrical "singer". Creative background: Ceng Zhuo is a poet of the July Poetry School. He spent 20 years in prison and reform-through-labour camp before he was rehabilitated. When he finally came home through the lonely desert, he saw his beloved wife still waiting for him. The reunion at this moment made him unforgettable all his life. Thus, there is this sincere and strong "gift".
Appreciation: Gifts are poems for women. In an impassioned style, this poem vividly expresses the warm feelings of the world after suffering, praises the tolerant understanding and kind sympathy, brings great spiritual comfort and courage to the victims, and expresses the poet's sincere gratitude and praise for the sincere love in historical and life disasters. Poetry expresses a lofty emotion that is both love and beyond love, a broad love based on deep understanding and trust, and a kind of human affection; At the same time, it also reflects the accusation of historical injustice and realistic injustice.
A brief analysis of the complex connotation of the emotion expressed in this poem and its significance in the specific background of the times.
This poem expresses a complex emotion, which has both the happiness of regaining freedom and the indelible trauma; There are both bright omens and unspeakable worries, which are intertwined and difficult to sort out for a while, but the author expresses them with a calm attitude, with a leap in tenderness and a sharp in euphemism, thus giving readers multiple aesthetic feelings.
It is also an obvious feature of this poem to truly expose the inner world and describe emotional activities in detail. In the 1960s, when "battle songs" prevailed, personal feelings were generally ignored and abandoned by poetry, and its creation was really commendable. (2) The creative background of A Gift is as follows. In the early 1960s, the author was kept in "separate custody" and isolated from his relatives and the world for several years. It can be said that the news is slim and the letters are cut off. At the beginning of the work, we are presented with such a scene: on a bleak autumn day, the lyric hero finally returns to a distant city from the exile. When he went up the stairs and was ready to knock gently, he suddenly felt deeply uneasy. He wondered whether his young wife would open the door and accept him as a so-called "sinner" who was hit by fate. However, the expectation of life and the desire for caring for relatives made him cry from the heart: I am a traveler from the emotional desert, and I am hungry, tired and sleepy. I can see the light in front of your window in the distance. It is attracting me-the light of my life. Here we need to pay attention to the metaphor of "emotional desert", which has the characteristics of the times. It obviously implies that the lyric hero lacks love, care and even loses human dignity. "Passenger" is his self-metaphor. In a desperate situation, he has a strong desire for hope and the love of his loved ones, so the lamp at the window reflects the figure of "you" (actually the embodiment of his wife) in his mind. In a flash, it is as dazzling and warm as the "lamp of life", which makes the protagonist deeply excited. Verses 2 to 6 are about what happened when his wife opened the door and he entered the room. They consist of a series of actions: knocking at the door, leading the way, sitting down, talking to yourself, drinking water and so on. It should be noted that this is not a common behavior in daily life, but a very delicate description of how a person who was accused for no reason in a depressed era longed for his wife's forgiveness, felt deeply uneasy because of being involved in the family, felt inferior because of his guilt for his loved ones, and looked forward to really returning to his family's arms, where he settled his scarred heart and cried. Let's "read" the following poem together: You guide me and hold the lamp. I walked into your clean cabin anxiously. I walked barefoot slowly and lightly, but every step still left dust and blood. The first two sentences imply the excitement and anxiety of "me", while the last two sentences tell about his experience and situation, indicating that he came back from a far place and experienced a lot of humiliation and pain. Therefore, when this emotion extends to the fourth, fifth and sixth quarters, it is easy for people to understand why he is not used to accepting his wife's "pouring tea and delivering water" and "mother's warm eyes"; Why did he tell his hometown again and again that his luggage was few, but his mental things were heavy, his hair was gray, and his back was imprisoned in the building, which were not commensurate with his real age; Obviously, this lyric hero, who has been far away from the normal world for a long time, has a feeling of fear and discomfort in the normal emotional field of love and care, so that he feels that even a little care is extravagant for him, far like the story in the sky: "A handful of water can quench my thirst,/a sip of wine makes me drunk,/a little warmth makes me warm all over." He even doubted himself, "Can I have the strength to bear your kindness and warmth?" It is also worth mentioning that in the structure of the whole poem, the above poems are a complete "transition" between the beginning and the end. The reason why it is full is because the "details" that reveal the psychological process of the characters play a great role in it. It is like the most delicate, tortuous and euphemistic central part of the whole music, which leads the beginning of the work to an open aesthetic space, and at the same time prepares and brews emotions for the lyrical intensity behind it. In the last three verses of the work, the whole poem reaches its climax. They appear in the form of crying, crying and singing. First of all, the author uses the method of suppressing first and then promoting, so that the feelings that have been suppressed and suppressed are suddenly released like floodgates, and they are poured out to the fullest extent, and the feelings in the poem are promoted to the fullest and strongest degree. Secondly, by means of parallelism and repetition, the theme of the poem is excavated from the shallow to the deep, so as to realize a warm exchange with readers' thoughts. In these three verses, not only the emotion of the whole poem is rendered, but also the human soul is sublimated: I am trembling all over, when your hand gently holds my hand. When your tears fell on the back of my hand, I couldn't help crying. Are you willing to hold my hand like this and walk to the distance of life? Do you dare to hold my hand through the contemptuous crowd like this? Flash across my life. This sacred moment is the end and the beginning. From the beginning to the climax, the three parts of this poem are like three movements of a symphony, which are connected and echo each other. They are ups and downs, changing naturally, and an emotional torrent of human destiny runs through them from beginning to end. It records the joys and sorrows of an era with touching brushstrokes, giving people profound ideological enlightenment. (Text/Cheng Guangwei)