Han Han's family first moved to Zhujing Town because Han Han's father, Han, worked as an editor in the editorial department of an internal magazine in Jinshan County, Shanghai. After the relocation, due to various reasons, the Korean family was not well-off economically for a period of time. Of course, in the 1990s, for most people in China, lack of material life was a common phenomenon. The so-called poor economy of the Han family at that time was not an absolute difficulty, but relative to some families with higher incomes at that time.
When they first arrived in Zhujing Town, their whole family didn't even have their own house. They live in their husband's room, where relatives have no bathroom. Every morning, they go to the public toilet outside and queue up to go to the toilet. Han Han sometimes simply goes to school because he is impatient with queuing. Han Han's mother's work unit is still in her hometown of Lin Ting Town, and she has to commute every day. Later, although the Han family had their own house, the small life was still relatively poor compared with the families with good economic conditions. Han Han loved reading since he was a child, but in junior high school, Han Han's father gave him a library card of the county library because his family conditions could not fully meet his book demand. [ 1]
In addition to economic difficulties, Han Han has to bear and face the identity crisis of rural people.
Han Han often calls himself a "countryman" and "suburban Han" in various writings. The reason is that before moving to Zhujing Town, although Han Han's parents were not farmers, Han Han's household registration was agricultural registered permanent residence. In the article "I am a countryman" published by Wen Wei Po, Han Han wrote: "I am a countryman, grew up in Jinshan, and was a rural hukou until junior high school." [2]
In fact, there is nothing shameful about country people. Writers Shen Congwen and Faulkner both call themselves country people, and writer Jia Pingwa calls himself a farmer. There are more than one billion people in China who are agricultural registered permanent residence, the so-called urban residents. If you check three generations, not much. How many are not farmers? At the very least, farmers will not be corrupt and have mistresses. But the problem is that ordinary citizens don't see it that way, especially in the 1980s and 1990s, when the gap between urban and rural areas was even wider than it is now. The city people's different eyes on the country people will undoubtedly make those foreigners who enter the city feel a little anxious.
Regarding the influence of hukou on people, Han Han recalled with emotion in the same article in Wen Wei Po: "My mother was very anxious at that time, because I was a rural hukou, and my mother was worried that I could not fall in love in the future." Similarly, in 1988, Lu once described the hukou problem like this: "Because we are all rural hukou, there is no research on hukou, but our parents are often nervous about it because they think it is difficult for us to find a wife in a rural hukou when we grow up. This is a classroom. We are divided into municipalities, big cities, prefecture-level cities, counties, towns, suburbs and rural areas. But because we are a suburb of a big city, we can have some sense of superiority and be in the middle of this class. " [3] These descriptions should generally reflect Han Han's emotional experience after moving to the city as a child from rural areas.
It is normal for many ordinary people to treat people with things. It is not difficult to imagine that the relative poverty of Han Han's family and the identity of foreigners and rural people must have caused certain life and mental stress to Han Han's family and Han Han in the 1980s and 1990s when there was a big gap between urban and rural areas. Adults are easy to handle and relatively easy to adapt to society. The problem is that the child's personality is not fully mature, and it is difficult to avoid the influence of external adverse factors. In the poem "The Two Sides of the World" written by Han Han 17 years old, Han Han once wrote:
After the brothers in the countryside want to study, we can't be country people anymore.
Wow, look how proud people in the city are to live in a big house and take a car.
Eva, study hard and be assigned to the city to pick up your mother.
Mom also wants to live in the city.
I heard this from one of my brothers who is studying hard.
Brother, what should I do?
I want a diploma, I want an account.
I am not happy.
Then I went to the city in confusion.
Living a chaotic life in the city.
What changes in human feelings are someone else's business.
People are becoming more and more impetuous and selfish [4]
These poems clearly reflect Han Han's identity anxiety before and after he entered the city as a suburban teenager, and the city's indifference to outsiders.
★ Han Han Tips:
When people enter a strange environment, if their situation is relatively poor, they will be easily isolated by others and often feel nervous about their personal identity labels. This is actually to let Han Han and Fang compare their height. Why not let Han Han and Fang compare in appearance, hairstyle, published works and royalties? When we appear as a relatively weak group, we must not live in the shadow of others, but explore our unique strengths that others do not have, foster strengths and avoid weaknesses, see our strengths as shorter than others, and show our independent personality charm! At the same time, we should constantly strive to improve our own situation, so that it is easier to achieve psychological balance and real progress in life, work and study.
[1] Han: A person's potential, Zi Han Han, Wanjuan Publishing Company, 2008, p. 40.
[2] Han Han: "I was born in a country", "Time Youth (Reading)", 20 1 1 period.
[3] Han Han: "1988: I want to talk to the world", International Culture Publishing Company, 20 10 edition, p. 85.
[4] Han Han: "On both sides of the world", "Bright", Hunan Literature and Art Publishing House, 20 12 edition.